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  • sitting bull 17:08 on 2018-09-15 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , matter, , senses, spirituality   

    The comfort to know that any tragedy may even lead to your higher purpose 

    When talking about health-issues, someone recently did recommend to me the book “You can heal your life” by Louise Hay, which I want to pass onto you.
    Additionally I want to share a tragic story about a little boy who did cause an accident which then made him go blind. Whilst this is any parent’s nightmare, what I just read on Wikipedia, made me re-evaluate my narrow-minded pity which only was focussed on enabling all of us to “enjoy life to the fullest” by replacing it with a higher purpose:

    Louis Braille was born in Coupvray, a small town about twenty miles east of Paris, on 4 January 1809. He and his three elder siblings – Monique Catherine (b. 1793), Louis-Simon (b. 1795), and Marie Céline (b. 1797) – lived with their parents, Simon-René and Monique, on three hectares of land and vineyards in the countryside. Simon-René maintained a successful enterprise as a leatherer and maker of horse tack.

    As soon as he could walk, Braille spent time playing in his father’s workshop. At the age of three, the child was playing with some of the tools, trying to make holes in a piece of leather with an awl. Squinting closely at the surface, he pressed down hard to drive the point in, and the awl glanced across the tough leather and struck him in one of his eyes. A local physician bound and patched the affected eye and even arranged for Braille to be met the next day in Paris by a surgeon, but no treatment could save the damaged organ. In agony, the young boy suffered for weeks as the wound became severely infected; an infection which then spread to his other eye, likely due to sympathetic ophthalmia.

    Louis Braille survived the torment of the infection but by the age of five he was completely blind in both eyes. Due to his young age, Braille did not realize at first that he had lost his sight, and often asked why it was always dark. His parents made many efforts – quite uncommon for the era – to raise their youngest child in a normal fashion, and he prospered in their care.

    He learned to navigate the village and country paths with canes his father hewed for him, and he grew up seemingly at peace with his disability. Braille’s bright and creative mind impressed the local teachers and priests, and he was accommodated with higher education. He excelled in his education and received scholarship to France’s Royal Institute for Blind Youth.

    While still a student there, he began developing a system of tactile code that could allow blind people to read and write quickly and efficiently. Inspired by the military cryptography of Charles Barbier, Braille constructed a new method built specifically for the needs of the blind. He presented his work to his peers for the first time in 1824.

    In adulthood, Braille served as a professor at the Institute and had an avocation as a musician, but he largely spent the remainder of his life refining and extending his system. It went unused by most educators for many years after his death, but posterity has recognized braille as a revolutionary invention, and it has been adapted for use in languages worldwide.

    So the sarcasm is that exactly the action which was initially tragic for him – piercing lether with an awl – is what was needed for him not only to focus on creating blind-signs, but it is also the elevation from piercing material which is the way to make signs palpable. And without that he would have just been any 43 year old man who by now is long forgotten, but now he is remembered over centuries.
    Additionally this made me realise:
    Whilst we define reality on our physical senses of seeing, hearing, smelling/tasting and touching, who is to say that we don’t also that the (in my eyes wrongly named) “extrasensory” perceptions or  psychic abilities such as intuitiontelepathypsychometryclairaudience, and clairvoyanceprecognition and retrocognition, are not something which everyone should have? (In ancient text there certainly are references as to times in which most humans were capable of those.)

    So are not most of us disabled and just don’t (want to) know it?

    So maybe instead of worrying, complaining or being frustrated about a loss of part of the tiny physical realm we rather should focus on reclaiming our long lost spiritual abilities by elevating our presence by any means necessary (as described in my still ongoing series about keys to understanding the universe).

    In todays brainwash of advertisements we are guided through excitement towards buying certain products by insinuating that life would be “all about being able to have (most youthful) fun right now”. So now you ask you why this is damaging? Because the ever lasting excitement misses out on necessary guide-rails which protect us from deep suffering.

    A huge part of life are the principles of Saturn which you could see as the checkout in a supermarket: At one point you have to pay for what you did put (mentally) in your basked (throughout your entire life). Looking at history: at no point in history was society focussed merely on having fun (except in decadent times amongst a tiny elite, such as Roman emperors), so because we are tricked by psychology  into buying into the pleasure centers or our brains, we overlook the largest aspects of our lifes.

    Think of it: It is logical that materialistic pleasures (of our materialistic senses) can only cover 0.4% of it, when the vast majority of the universe is not matter to be experienced with those senses:

    Since I do focus on my higher purpose, what I did so far interpret as health-inconveniences of ageing is slowly being replaced by me acknowledging physical issues as balustrades of my inner voice which protect me from straying away to far into the meaningless distractions of excitement. After all the outsourcing of our mind distracts from connecting to the source of ourselves and the universe – something which sorcerers . I won’t say that I am all content about my life at all, but in wise moments I remind me that:

    • My body did put on weight, because I wanted to protect myself from unsuitable sexual enocunters, which could have led me into longterm troubles,
    • my health-issues made me stop running around in order to learn stillness,
    • and what I often perceive as weaknesses are often sensitivities showing me what is right for me.

    So whenever inner turmoil comes up, I remind myself of to compare myself to others who seemingly are better of than me, but to slowly walk backwards out of the maze I did entangle myself in for decades, and whenever the question “why me?” comes up, my answer is: “because … me“.



    • JV Avadhanulu 7:34 on 2018-09-21 Permalink | Reply

      I loved reading this post. Thank you very much.
      I want to add:The entire marketing machinery is focused on sensory pleasures and succeeded in making the average man becoming oblivious to other aspects such as happiness, satisfaction, fulfillment, joy, ecstasy, inner peace, compassion…..
      Yoga integrates and aligns the 5 “koshas” (sheaths) of being viz. Annamaya (physical), Manomaya (mind), Pranamaya( energy), Jnanamaya (wisdom) and Ananadmaya (Joy).

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  • sitting bull 18:35 on 2018-08-20 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: authenticity, Iyengar, spirituality, superficiality,   

    The difference between fasionable wellnes yoga and authentic personality work 

    Prashant Iyengar (son of the founder of Iyengar yoga):
    The 18 Maha Kriyas of Yogasana    Chapter 6     (2013)

    In modern pseudo-yog feelings of beatitude, solace and sense of well-being have become essential features. Bliss, beatitude, tranquility, transcendence are all on the surface mind or peripheral mind. It is only the temporal mind which gets a sense of wellbeing or a “top of the world” feeling. This mind generated by neurons of the brain is but a tip of the iceberg.

    Essential Yog works on, if I may say so, ‘mineral mind’, which is ad the ocean-depth of our minds. When the water of a lake is crystal-clear, our gaze reaches down to its basin, its floor-depth, we hardly notice the water. Similarly this mind is just the surface – the tip; there are yet greater depths of mind (why not see the bottom of the ice-berg, why always the tip?), which in this context I refer to our ‘mineral mind’ or ‘mineral consciousness’.

    We pay a premium today for mineral water, because it is extracted from mountains and deep valleys and is rich in the nutrients of this earth. Similarly the submerged mind, the mind at bottom of the embodiment/citta also comes as a premium; it is not sighted easily but has to be mined from deep within.

    Modern Yog is but a neat consumer package. “Feel fine” is the goal of the pseudo yog, but wheter one feels fine or not is not important as to ‘become and be fine’. The essential bliss in the mind is not a naked mind perception or sensation; like in scientific evaluations, the naked-eye perceptions are hardly consideration worthy or much less than those analyses of findings conducted with strong probes and/or scopes. Similarly here, the pseudo yog’s naked faculty feelings are worthy of neglect.[…]

    In the material plane of life one hardly gets the chance to exercice and explore the more sensitive, philosophical and/or meditative states of mind. They remain neclected. But in yogic pursuits the mind gets a deep philosophical exploration and develops trance potentials too.


    • JV Avadhanulu 1:27 on 2018-08-21 Permalink | Reply

      I like the concept of ‘mineral mind’. Thank you.

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      • sitting bull 15:51 on 2018-08-23 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you – I just want to point out that this article was not written by me, but an excerpt from the book mentioned at the beginning.


  • sitting bull 5:42 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: acceptence, desperation, , life, patience, perseverance, reward, serenity, spirituality   

    If your Karma seems to be a never ending pain 

    We all heard of Karma and have an intuitive understanding of it – usually mixed up with our cultural heritage, so for Westerners it is likely to associate it with the Christian definition of sin and guilt, and since the abyss into it is so vast,
    the wild-card for it in Christianity is the original sin which implies that we all are overloaded by it and need the grace of an authoritative god-figure to relieve us from it.


    Yet in my understanding Karma seems to be merely the accumulation of millions of decisions, resolutions and conceptions which did in time shape our personality – neither good, nor bad, just the result of ones own mindset which developed over lifetimes.

    Let’s take an example of 2 kids under extreme pressure:
    One may withdraw into its own world and become more and more sensitive, fragile but also intuitive, and the other one may turn rebellious and subscribe to the philosophy of strength.

    If this goes on for decades, the entire body-type may be shaped – the first one turning feeble or fat and the second one may become strong but also choleric.
    And this in turn will lead them into total different life-situations where the first one sees the world as hostile and finds a secret happiness in the realms of fantasy and spirituality whilst the second one may become a hardcore materialist and very successful in “breaking a few eggs” to accomplish own goals.

    Many situations will be encountered,
    which then will lead to total different new resolutions, experiences and conclusions.

    A change in character usually happens long after one tried to resolve a situation – usually it is when someone “had enough” and takes consequences.
    This is the stage in which one doesn’t bother anymore getting into details and discussing things, but simply acts in a certain way.

    Think of arguments you had with some (kind of) people; and at one stage you decided not getting involved into useless nitty-gritty stuff anymore, but just do your own thing.

    This is when your personality-type mixes with the conclusions which were drawn from experiences. (And I want to point out that it is merely the conclusions, not the experiences themselves which shape ones character – two people may experience the exact same thing and react in very different ways to them).

    And once things got intermingled the way back is usually hard to trace any longer. Whilst psychology does try to reconstruct root-issues through analysis, the causes may lie much deeper than the usual assumed ones in childhood if one believes in reincarnation for example. After each rebirth there is a kind of reset in which previous experiences are forgotten, but the conclusions and physical results being a certain elemental or body type, are carried forward

    Someone did experience something a long long time ago which did shape the character and even physiology, and lifes later may react to certain circumstances in unexplainable ways – hence the simple place-holder-terminology for it is Karma.

    So now most of us take Karma in a fatalistic way of a mysterious force overshadowing us.
    But the good news is that there is a “solution” of literally “re-solving” this huge entanglement between the world and the individual: It’s the “dis-solving” of that which we decided to construct as our persona – our concerns for our relationship to the world – or in other words our ego.

    This is a very difficult task, because there is no intellectual guideline and in order to “get a grip” on ones worldly entanglements one has to let this go and look from a meta-perspective. And this is what meditation allows us to do: To simply step out of the hamster-wheel of having to react and therewith add more stuff onto the pile of Karma, and simply to be.

    So instead of boiling the water with emotions one does cool it down until the bottom freezes which then lets parts of ice raise to the top. In time the entire water will be turned into “coolness” and calmness.

    The only problem with it is that no one knows the amount of water which is to be cooled down – is it a decade worth of troubles or thousands of years of previous lives? And neither do we know the severity of our misconceptions, so to answer how long this will take is like asking “how long is a piece of string” ?

    And this is where we all at one point or another fall into desperation for having worked for so long on our issues and sacrificed so much, and yet, here we are still having to endure the same pain again and again and again.

    It simply is frustrating not to see any progress, so here are a few visualisations in order not to give up:

    1. Nature grows slowly – if a fast change is forced it usually is a tree being logged

    Whenever pharmaceutical products work fast, they usually don’t build something in the body, but destroy something like the excessive Yang energy in young people when forcing  them to calm down with Ritalin for example.

    2.) Some progress can be seen and keeps being hidden for a long while


    • yet there is progress.

    If you for example only focus on the change of a minute, you will not see anything happening for 59 seconds, yet things do shift constantly. Cover the seconds on the right with your hand to simulate to be blinded to smaller changes – you need patience to wait for the next minute when not seeing the seconds move.

    2.) If your life seems to go back and forth it may be part of a larger picture

    Let’s stay at the example time and think that you would be one of the 24 analog clocks below, but can not understand the irregularities of your life alone.
    You may not see it yet, but in the larger context it later may make perfect sense:

    3.) Your timeline is not necessarily straight but possible a spiral

    You evolve from the bottom and every so often you encounter the same point P again and again, but always on a higher level.

    Or if the spiral is lying your evolution seems to go up and down

    • yet you are slowly increasing your level of consciousness:



    Subconsciously you know it – even it the personality-work seems never to stop – all you need is to carry on to do your soul-cleansing, because the most stupid thing would be to turn around, when you walked the largest part of the way through the desert already.

    I once walked with a group through the desert and we came to an oasis, but the pond below the waterfall was full of people, so we had to walk up the hill to the next one.
    This also was full of people so we walked further up to the third one which also was occupied. Knowing that there were Panthers which were quiet in the day, we kept walking to the fourth one, but when this also was not free we carried on until the fifth one and there we had he most beautiful view over the desert and I later found out that I coincidentally did visit the place where David supposedly shot down Goliath.

    This taught me that sometimes when times are tough, it simply might mean that I should not settle at this low level but literally rise above my difficulties, because I might finally be rewarded with the most beautiful view on life.

    • Amy 21:38 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

      So let me ask you this. If someone doesn’t believe in reincarnation ( I quite frankly don’t know what I believe) would you still recommend this?

      Can anyone out there tell me that they actually found the inner peace and bliss promised through this meditation?


      • sitting bull 21:35 on 2018-09-10 Permalink | Reply

        For some technical reasons I missed all those replies until now, so sorry for the delay.
        I myself am no advocate of classical reincarnation, but the more I do meditate the more I see much larger cycles than this life has to offer, meaning there are many signs which indicate to bigger cycles.
        However else could Mozart have been such a childhood-genius for example?
        And in regards to meditation: It goes and I feel desparate, but then a larger bliss follows and all makes senes again, so in the long term this definitely works.
        Now for example despite additional recent health-issues I feel better than ever, because the meditation-wisdom made me solve longterm family issues which is a huge weight lifted of my shoulders.


    • JV Avadhanulu 3:28 on 2018-08-10 Permalink | Reply

      Another brilliant post. The example of the analog clocks and the projection of the helix on two axes are superb illustrations. I wish to add
      “The mass of the sun curves space-time in such a way that although the earth follows a straight path in four-dimensional space-time, it appears to us to move along a circular orbit in three-dimensional space. This is rather like watching an airplane flying over hilly ground. Although it follows a straight line in three-dimensional space, its shadow follows a curved path on the two-dimensional ground.” This is from a brief history of time by Spehen Hawking.

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      • sitting bull 21:47 on 2018-09-10 Permalink | Reply

        Holy Shmoly! This is a very advanced answer and I have to figure out what a straight path in a four dimensional line is.
        You seem to really have gotten what Hawkins said – I got stuck in the middle of his book!
        Your humbleness hides your intelligence – so I learned to keep an open mind for anybody from you.


    • JV Avadhanulu 2:42 on 2018-08-11 Permalink | Reply

      I want to share what the teacher told us during Vipassana Meditation
      The sub-conscious is programmed by karma and conditioning. It reacts for every trigger and communicates through bodily sensations. If you act based on this, it is RE-ACTION and the karma and conditioning accumulate.If you are able to let go of the reaction, some part of your karma and conditioning are transmuted.
      I think that in all meditations, we get impulses. Observing the impulses and not reacting is one of the basic principles of meditation. This definitely alters how impulses originate. As per some modern emotional intelligence experiments, this rewires the brain.

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      • sitting bull 21:49 on 2018-09-10 Permalink | Reply

        This is lovely, thanks for your both comments which I just saw now.
        The issue in reality is that at certain stages some tremendous anger about before unrealised betrayals etc. arise and they than stick in the mind and are not so easy to let go, because there is no way to “unsee” unpleasant new insights.


  • sitting bull 16:07 on 2018-07-09 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: concepts, imposition, liberation, rape, shift of consciousness, spirituality,   

    unorthodox angles to common concepts: imposition, violation and rape 

    The obvious current consensus about violations – by far not only sexual ones – is to ensure that the perpetrators are brought to justice and therewith society is protected.
    Whilst this is a necessary line of action it only gives little comfort to the victims, so this article is about the exploration and helpful angles to bring comfort to the ones on the receiving end.

    There are two ways a violated person has access to their trauma:
    Either in remembering clearly what happened, or in finding out – often years or decades later – by indicators, that something went wrong and then reconstructing it.

    In both cases the esoteric analysis is the same – it is a case of a violation of the root- or sex-chakra which obviously is associated with those organs, yet it also has to do with an imposition of willpower to the extend that the self-perception is distorted up to such an extend that some people dwell in compensatory behaviours for the rest of their lives. (Often those are the ones who dream big and unfortunately rarely succeed, unless they follow the path lined out in this article.)

    Here a quick word to the perpetrators who have no sense of the more subtle psychic powers and deem a violation as a mere temporary discomfort of the victim, just as it is only a temporary feeling of pleasure to them to physically abuse them:
    The earlier a still developing personality is stomped on, the deeper the impression usually is and the longer it can last.

    So what, from a victim’s perspective could be done to resolve this issue for good?
    To forgive and move on is a good step in mild cases such as unpleasant sex in a relationship for example, but hardly enough for profound rape cases.
    So a mere glossing over won’t work, but what will do, is to even use that dynamics to ones own advantage by facing very unpleasant facts and taking the consequences:

    One possibility is to see everything as a reflection of ones own energy and therewith acknowledge that there is an internal aspect which did attract this seeming “blow of fate”. A Hindu who believes in reincarnation once said that if ones “axis of evil” is predominant, one may have been a criminal in one life, and in the next life a policeman, but as long as this axis still exists that person in the next life might become a criminal again.
    So it could be (and I am merely pointing to a possibility) that the victim’s axis of imposed will is still unresolved, which would explain cases in which some people were raped at multiple occasions, which statistically would be impossible else-wise.

    Another possibility is for the victims who vaguely did reconstruct their own dilemma, to having concretised an attack on their willpower by giving it a definite scenario, whilst in fact the violation may have been on a much more subtle level, such as a long-term suppression of their will. This of course is very thin ice to treat on, because it would give any legal defender the right to dismiss any cause, but since this is about own rehabilitation, the focus here is on the solution to that issue, so let’s take a scenario:

    A father with a strong male dominant energy might have raised his kid (maybe even well meaning) too harshly, by dismissing the sensitive needs of his child for decades.
    So this kid who later does a deep soul search into the reasons of its underdeveloped personality-trades could reconstruct it as a definite physical violation –
    and cases like this have been known where children did project their issues falsely  onto the therapist who dealt with this issue.
    (This of course seems like an irony of fate – except if  the therapists well-intended work would also be interpreted as a residual involvement in this issue).

    This was merely the point of view on the root-cause of the issue, but the by far more important part for the damaged is how to deal with this issue from now on:

    First of all a blame of the perpetrator is merely beneficial to strengthen the legal system,
    but thereafter, the much larger and much more important part is to search for constructive solutions.

    The first step is one step back from the picture to see more than the pixel of the perpetrator, but the entire dynamics, so any kind of generalisation which condemns an entire group, such as “men”, “women”, specific race or age will only keep the issue burning by adding fuel to it. And so will be any decision to avoid that kind of group by becoming homosexual or racist if it happened only out of an aversion to bad experiences.

    The second step is to look at own involvements in this terrible experience – a step of honesty which usually is the most painful one, but as it is said: “there are always both sides involved in a conflict”, and since perpetrators usually are too little evolved to apologise or even acknowledge the huge damage they have done, there is no point in hoping for a consolation from them,
    but now comes a very positive new aspect to the chances behind this pain:

    There is an outer and an inner will, which these days is often called “the ego” vs “the true self”, and the aspect which only can be hurt by violations or rapes is the outer will – the self-perception which is needed to be successful in society. This is the aspect which is reinforced by well-meaning motivators, and this is the reason why some people who had been victims listen to tons of them, yet never succeed the way they envisioned to.

    This also could apply to people with no spectacular story to tell, but to some who had been squeezed into a life which was not mean to be theirs to begin with.
    Often it is a catch 22 situation in which ones self-esteem had ben knocked and thereafter this person is open to all kinds of attacks from bosses or landlords up to thugs or trolls.

    What an ignorant society, non-empathic people in charge, or rapists destroy,
    are peoples worldly life:
    their self assurance, pertness, and what one often sees in children of multimillionaires who never did experience any hardships in life.
    It is ironic that those people who never got the bitter taste of a blow in their face, are the ones who are most likely to later violate the life-force of many people who are in less fortunate positions. This can be seen in the ruthless policies of many large corporations.

    But what no one ever can take from you is the sense of your true self, your inner will, your access to the divine or however you call it, and the beauty of it is that this is what creates true happiness – not the compensatory desires of which my great grandmother said: “Nothing breeds so quickly as [external] wishes!”
    The true sense of oneself is something which is very rarely found in people and this world and is nearly never advertised, because it doesn’t sell anything.

    So what is this sense of ones true self which is glimpsed upon by many people who begin to spiritually wake up?
    You might visualise it like  personality-trades  on pieces of paper which are stacked on a piper spike, and the “real you” is not what is written on the paper, …

    … but the hole the spike created.
    This solves the mystery of all of us supposedly “being one” whilst all of us being very different.
    On somes paper is written “trans-sexual race-driver”, on another ones “arachnophobic garbage collector”, yet through both of them goes the same space, which is called by some “the divine light”, by others “the Christ consciousness”, by the third “Allah” and by the fourth “enlightenment”.

    So whilst the victims external self-perception was (maybe literally) poked in a bad way, that person now has the chance to elevate to true hights much faster than others, because those people have experienced the rupture of their clichéd self so that their sky (which most deem as their limit) has now gained a total new dimension.

    Yogananda once said that the joy of sex would pale in comparison to true enlightenment, and once one has seen the much broader dimension there is no turning back.

    William Butler once gave great comfort in saying that everyone’s soul grows toward the light, like every plant does – even the most obstructed ones. And it can be seen on the grade of their crookedness how difficult their path must have been.

    So if you are a sufferer, first of course you have to stay with your pain for as long as it takes – be it months, years, or decades.
    And at one point you have the choice:

    Do you want to restore your material life as you (or what was hammered into your brain) wanted them to be?
    Or “use the force” to move onto a spiritual dimension  by any means necessary,
    most of the  “comfort zoners” can only dream about?

    Elevating your consciousness does not guarantee instant happiness, but the new found direction may serve as pointers on a tedious, long, but in the end very path to self-discovery.

    After all, “the best revenge is to lead a great life“.


  • sitting bull 17:27 on 2018-07-02 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: ancient wisdom, ignorance, limited worldview, materialism, spirituality, worldview   

    Keys to understanding the universe #0:penness 


    Chapter 0:penness
    Chapter 1: reflection, contemplation, meditation
    Chapter 2: left, up, down, right
    Chapter 3: hidden breathing techniques
    Chapter 4: the right posture

    0pennes to different world views

    This introductory chapter is numbered 0 and openness is written with a zero for an O, because if one has zero preconceptions (like a child, as Jesus said), the more open one is for  different concepts and the more tools someone has to understand the mysteries of the universe.

    We all have partial tunnel-visions which usually result in anger when being confronted with non-fitting views, but seen from a mere strategical angle it would be beneficial to utilise as many different concepts as possible in order to understand those aspects which are not covered or seen in one view.

    Examples of tunnel-visions are

    • Nationalism, because if you look at a changing world-map it is clear that borders changed all the time.
      Clinging onto a status quo from last time ones realm was biggest is holding onto a stage which by now is obsolete and very likely not to return again. This creates a stagnated freeze which in turn does not allow for a free-flow of changes in time.

    • Racism falls in the same category and only creates a fear or aversion against the unknown which then inhibits ones in-sight into different ways to handle life.

    • Materialism initially seems to be the clearest way to look at things as they are,
      but the inherent dismissal of spiritual concepts (which the following series is all about) deprives one from accessing principles, which can give one a simple way to work out many issues without having to resort to contemporary researches (which often try to reinvent the wheel),
      plus one has to remember much less facts, because one can work things out by oneself. One of such principles is the yin and yang symbol for example with which one can understand the seasons,

    the menstrual cycle,
    and much more.

    • Whilst a dismissal of superstitious concepts is important not to fall for any kind of fear-mongering, a rigid aversion could deprive one from accessing lateral thinking by seeing things from a total new (lateral) angle.
      A good example is the often laughed upon astrology due to the many simplistic short-time predictions which can be found in superficial magazines.
      But when understanding that astrology is not all about that one sun-starsign, but about a general display of the quality in time (in opposition to our chronological measurement of quantity), one has a less fatalistic access by being able to put ones actions into a larger context.
      So if for example someone has an interaction between (the highly energetic) Mars and (strongly blocking) Saturn energy, one can not exactly predict the future, but see that at a certain time one could have a car-accident if not careful, but also turn it around to ones advantage by doing martial arts where one has to (saturnically) block ones (marsian) punches voluntarily, so one could even win a tournament around that time.
    • Upholding ones own religion as the only one in my view is a result of a mere childhood-conditioning (which if born into another family would turn out totally different) and thereafter reinforcement of ones own believes because believe-systems are nourished and reinforced by fellow believers.
      Often this is due to the humanised concept of the divine, because our inability to grasp the aspect of the higher self.
      This lead to exclusion of other personified gods, but when viewing religions as a “welcome mat to ourselves” as Adyashanti said, then agnostics (who leave religious concepts aside) very often are as geared towards their higher self when following their ethics. Vice versa – due to their lack of being able to relax into a parental care of a god, they often are much more about their own authenticity as orthodox believers are.
      Another aspect of misunderstanding is the fact that gearing towards the divine (or higher self) is propagated by total focus on that one god which then was often misunderstood by that god being the only real one, whilst the original agendas usually were to get people focussed on the path of their higher selves. This is what the many hypocritical atrocities of religious wars created.

    Even within those groups of people there are endless shadows, such as my mother for example who is a strong Christian but does not believe in heaven, so she deprives herself of exactly that blissful aspect which (if not being taken to literal as a bunch of boring harpers sitting in the clouds) could give her (who does approach death) great comfort if she would incorporate the possibility of a life which out-spans our material one (as the reincarnation theory for example states).

    As you can see there are endless tunnel-visions which block our 360° view so in the next articles I would like to shed light on some common features of very different, mostly ancient (and therewith tested) teachings which in todays world, where intellectual pragmatism is prioritised, are often overlooked.

    Finally I would like to add that openness also includes an openness to new angles of issues we long deem solved.

    In order to keep the flow of information open, it is probably strategically beneficial never to close any issues, but leave room for new aspects – even if they seem to come from people who in other fields create the impression of still searching. (The worst case scenario would be someone whom you want to disassociate with – they also teach us at least how not to be.)
    After all, it could be that what they have to offer is that missing link which completes our own worldview.
    So I never try to use phrases like “the ONLY way” or “THE truth”, because any point can be viewed from endless sides of a circle surrounding it.

    And one addendum:
    Openness also includes openness to sources you might find totally unacceptable,
    An example is the Nazi-Tibet-connection which shows that the evil Nazis even had spiritual inclinations,
    and the nice Tibetans also had their fair share of karmic debt in the past, when looking at roots in it’s pre-Buddhist pagan Bon religion and its Feudalistic power-structure as documented in this Nazi-Documentary below: Things are never totally black and white.

    This documentary teaches us that spirituality is one thing, and ethics another.

    The black magician Aleister Crowley also did take a very similar route to Tibet as the Nazis, both were ethically dubious, but highly interested and talented in spiritual secrets (for their own power). This explains their quick rise and quick downfall.

    Spiritual beginners usually mix up both, but you can see on people who sacrificed themselves for good causes without being spiritually wise that they did sometimes end up furthering bad causes in the end,
    and on the other hand we clearly see that pure spirituality without ethics is like a straw fire of fast and spectacular results, but quite short-lived, because it did run on adrenaline and fear only – two quick powers which can not be maintained for long in nature.

    Start here with the first part about reflection, contemplation and meditation ->

    All image links btw are not necessary to aid the content of the articles,
    but to attribute where the images were found.

    • David Cook 1:15 on 2018-07-07 Permalink | Reply

      The History of the World was amazing! Thank you


      • sitting bull 1:17 on 2018-07-07 Permalink | Reply

        yeah, David I think so too – this literally did open my mind to how irrelevant todays status quo is.


  • sitting bull 0:20 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: central channel, , emerald tablets, , Ida, , Naadis, Pinglaa, shaivinism, spirituality, Susumnaa   

    Keys to understanding the universe #2 : left, up, down, right 

    In the first chapter meditation was explained as bringing one to the middle (medi),
    the center point of a cross, to see all perspectives
    So what are the horizontal and vertical directions?

    2a.) The principle of up and down movements

    In the Emerald Tablets, Hermes Trismegistus,
    (a combination of the Greek god Hermes and the ancient Egyptian god Thoth), said:

    That which is below is like that which is above & that which is above is like that which is below to do the miracles of one only thing
    And as all things have been & arose from one by the mediation of one: so all things have their birth from this one thing by adaptation.
    The Sun is its father, the moon its mother, the wind hath carried it in its belly, the earth is its nurse.
    The father of all perfection in the whole world is here.
    Its force or power is entire if it be converted into earth.
    Separate thou the earth from the fire, the subtle from the gross sweetly with great industry.
    It ascends from the earth to the heaven & again it descends to the earth & receives the force of things superior & inferior.
    By this means you shall have the glory of the whole world
    & thereby all obscurity shall fly from you.
    Its force is above all force. For it vanquishes every subtle thing & penetrates every solid thing.

    Those are wisdoms which often are used in alchemy  or occultism (which is nothing dark as such, but simply means “hidden”). Alechemy is more about inner transformations than outer ones, so this cryptic text also describes the workings of “qi” (the body life-force in Chinese Medicine) or “prana” (the breath-life force in Indian ayurveda).

    In Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) there are vertical relations of upper, middle and lower body, called the 3 Dantians – upper, middle and lower body. This is sometimes reflected in Chinese pictures where below is a swamp, in the middle an ox working its way up and in the top a pearl (of enlightenment).

    The energy is internally purified by “separating the subtle from the gross“. This is exactly what the intestines do – to separate the useful food from the useless stools.

    The ability to separate valuable thoughts from non-applicable information without even being able to explain it intellectually is called intuition (meaning the ability to give tuition to oneself). This ability is called Viveka in Indian terms – the ability to discriminate – a term which in the West unfortunately has mostly a negative connotation.
    And because this ability resides in the intestines, it is called the “gut-feeling”.

    The reasons why women are born with a better access to their intuition is because the heart, where thoughts reside is a bag full of blood, and the only part below the diaphragm (the surface of the water above which the intellect and below which the intuition can be found) is the uterus.
    Hence in old days when hysterectomy was performed, side effects could have been for a woman to become hysterically.
    In later years the access depends on how much the intuition was shined upon or dismissed by rational dismissal. Hence the gender gap becomes more irrelevant later.

    This is why in Sodarshan Chakra Kriya one has to hold the breath (and therewith thoughts) and then pump the belly whilst gearing to the higher self by silently chanting the mantra “god” (Wahe Guru). Since thinking seems to manifest to me similar to hearing, I “hear” a thought mantra. Once in 24 years only I was blissed to hear that mantra not within my brain but from the belly.

    2b.) The left-right-center relationship

    Whenever you see a lateral relationship, there is usually a concern about the right interaction with the world (in opposite to the vertical concern about the higher self).
    This usually resorts in strong ethics, as it is promoted in one of the oldest religions, called  Zoroastrianism, as can be seen by the wings on their main symbol, the Farahavar:

    Those wings are probably better known from ancient egypt, and knowledge from it is in occult work, Rosicrucianism or Magic mixed together with the ancient Kabbalah, as one can see in the picture below.

    In the Jewish Kabbalah there are vertically 3 pillars: Left judgement, right mercy, and in the middle the neutral clarity, which is the highest spiritual goal in order to see the world for what it truly is.

    Surprisingly, severity is the female side and mercy the male aspect. This can be better understood if one conteplates upon the yin and yang qualities, because yin is descending and “knocking down” and yang ascending and merciful uplifting.
    So those principles should preferably be detatched from genders.

    At this site, Chhinnamasta, the goddess which conveys spiritual self-realization and the awakening of the kundalini – spiritual energy  is described through the Nadis (Indian medicinal channels):

    The three streams of blood can be understood by the Nadi system in our body. These three streams are Naadis: lateral ones are the Ida and Pinglaa (left and right) Naadis; the central one is the Susumnaa Naadi. Head is the cortex and brain, the seat of desires. Susumnaa Naadi rises through the brain which receives nourishment form central stream of blood. Spirit (Kundalini goddess) rises to the top of the head through the roof of the mouth; severed head represents severed mind- Amanska, a state of paucity of mental functions conducive to higher states of consciousness, whose destination is Parasiva (absolute reality). The Naadis break through the grantha(knot) in the Chakras and lift off the head, the seat of human consciousness. Chhinmastaa represents Susumnaa Nadi, Varnini, the Pingalaa Naadi, and Daakini, the Ida Naadi.

    Similarly in Chinese Medicine there are left-right-relationships which are seen in the pulse diagnosis where the left side reflects the blood whilst the right side the (ener)qi.
    (Interestingly the blood side is the cooling side, because the Qi is warming).

    In an alchemistical text ascribed to Marsilio Ficino three suns are described: black, white, and red, corresponding to the three most used alchemical color stages.

    Also in the Bhagavad Gita chapter 14 tose three aspects are seen as Gunas:
    The dull (black) aspect is called Tamas , the heated (red) one Rajas and he pure one Sattva are summed up as follows:

    Purity, Passion and Ignorance are the Qualities which the Law of nature bringeth forth.
    Purity, being luminous, strong and invulnerable, binds one by its yearning for happiness and illumination.
    Passion, engendered by thirst for pleasure and attachment, binds the soul through its fondness for activity.
    But Ignorance, the product of darkness, stupefies the senses in all embodied beings, binding them by chains of folly, indolence and lethargy.

    Purity brings happiness, Passion commotion, and Ignorance, which obscures wisdom, leads to a life of failure.
    Purity prevails when Passion and Ignorance are overcome;
    Passion, when Purity and Ignorance are overcome;
    and Ignorance when it overcomes Purity and Passion.

    When the light of knowledge gleams forth from all the gates of the body, then be sure that Purity prevails.
    the impulse to act and the beginning of action itself are all due to the dominance of Passion.
    Darkness, stagnation, folly and infatuation are the result of the dominance of Ignorance
    When Purity prevails, the soul on quitting the body passes on to the pure regions where live those who know the Highest.
    When Passion prevails, the soul is reborn among those who love activity;
    when Ignorance rules, it enters the wombs of the ignorant.

    They say the fruit of a meritorious action is spotless and full of purity;
    the outcome of Passion is misery,
    and of Ignorance darkness.

    Purity engenders Wisdom,
    Passion avarice,
    and Ignorance folly, infatuation and darkness.

    When Purity is in the ascendant, the man evolves;
    when Passion, he neither evolves nor degenerates;
    when Ignorance, he is lost.
    By what signs can he who has transcended the Qualities be recognized?
    He who shuns not the Quality which is present, and longs not for that which is absent; He who maintains an attitude of indifference, who is not disturbed by the Qualities, who realises that it is only they who act, and remains calm; Who accepts pain and pleasure as it comes, is centred in his Self, to whom a piece of clay or stone or gold are the same, who neither likes nor dislikes, who is steadfast, indifferent alike to praise or censure; Who looks equally upon honour and dishonour, loves friends and foes alike, abandons all initiative, such is he who transcends the Qualities. And he who serves Me and only Me, with unfaltering devotion, shall overcome the Qualities, and become One with the Eternal. For I am the Home of the Spirit, the continual Source of immortality, of eternal Righteousness and of infinite Joy.”

    Those 3 aspects and colors black, white, red are found in the last century German- (and later also Nazi-) flag, the brothers Grimm fairy tale of Snow White when a queen sits sewing at an open window during a winter snowfall when she pricks her finger with her needle, causing three drops of red blood to drip onto the freshly fallen white snow on the black windowsill. Then, she says to herself, “How I wish that I had a daughter that had skin as white as snow, lips as red as blood, and hair as black as ebony.”

    The dualistic enslaved satan-principle for example is depicted in red and black colours whilst the angelic wise god-principle is portrayed in white. (“weiss”= white in German, “weis” relates to wise or knowing) Hence we probably have old tales about “fair” women which later was misunderstood for white skinned people being superior.

    So the satanic principle, which by superstitious people taken as a literal person, is rather a depiction of the tragic turmoil between the choleric-fiery red and dumb-lazy black side, just as the consumption of fiery drugs, such as cocaine or hard alcohol do, which initially give you a feeling of strength through assertiveness, but later have to be payed for with bad and sometimes long lasting physical or emotional hangovers.
    The center path of neutral and divine wisdom is depicted as white – the color of the divine or saints for example. 

    And here is a brilliant article about the same aspect in Kashmir Shaivism: the 3 godesses: Para, Apara and Parapara.

    There are two ways to reach that neutral wisdom:
    Either by total dedication towards the divine,
    or by ways to energetically rebalance oneself,
    which I will write about in the next articles.

    < previous chapter #1 about reflection, contemplation and meditation

    • David Cook 1:48 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply

      Interesting info from Chhinnamasta about the 3 nadis and makes total sense when we read “the breath is held in the central channel…”


      • sitting bull 8:22 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply

        For anyone reading the comments:

        David is the one who inspired me to write this entire series on spiritual principles and who contributed much (upcoming) information to it.

        I can only recommend you to connect to him by either answering to his comments or sending a mail through the contact form which I will forward to him straight away.


    • Jen Kennedy 0:09 on 2018-07-01 Permalink | Reply

      This post is so genius, I remember reading it yesterday thinking I really don’t know how to respond and where to even start!

      Liked by 1 person

      • sitting bull 0:30 on 2018-07-01 Permalink | Reply

        Aw thanks, Jen – I am really grateful, because I was concerned about overwhelming people with too many belief-systems, which is why I literally am writing a new article which I want to post before this one in this series – hence I renamed it to #3 instead of 2.

        Actually, this is compressed knowledge I accumulated in my spiritual search for half my life, and I nearly would have not put into a blog post, because I did consider writing a book on it.
        But my conclusion was to walk the walk and not hold back for reputation or financial gain but to share as much as possible without delay,
        so that together we can beat the veil of ignorance which makes us and others suffer, and elevate together and each other.
        After all, as native American Indians said. “we are all eyes of the same head”.

        And btw: I like the authenticity of your blog – I am sure you speak the mind of a lot of sensitive people who don’t have your capability to express themselves as well as you do.

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        • Jen Kennedy 1:47 on 2018-07-01 Permalink | Reply

          Definitely start up on that book! This is great info for sure! But posting in advance to get the info out sooner is great too! It’s definitely needed.

          I can see why this would be overwhelming because there’s a lot of information to process especially for those who are not quite consciously evolved.
          And thanks, I think authenticity is very essential in writing. I try to speak for others in the best way possible. 🙂

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    • J V Avadhanulu 20:27 on 2018-07-02 Permalink | Reply

      Your blog is mind-blowing for me and I am grateful for the education, enlightenment and inspiration.
      The posts are so well researched, erudite and the interpretations and expression is original, engaging and riveting. I realize that you are a scholar in your own right and I am lucky that you reconnected with me.
      I think the blog you are doing is the perfect choice! Eventually, you may consolidate it into a book.

      This article is interesting and very educational for me. I congratulate you on this very original thoughts, interpretations and the way it is all put together. I wonder if you would like to interpret Swastika which appears to be one of the most ancient symbols and in many cultures, religions and regions. You may see some information at https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swastika#cite_note-Sullivan2001p216-1
      and https://www.speakingtree.in/allslides/unknown-history-of-swastika/228532
      I would especially like to know your interpretative of the swastika symbol and especially the right angled turn.

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      • sitting bull 20:40 on 2018-07-02 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you – I am truly flattered that such as an experienced practitioner like yourself gave me the best compliment ever!

        And it is humbling that and on top of that you even ask me for my opinion on a subject about about your heritage.

        I have to admit that I never did thorough research on the swastika, even though I should, considering my own heritage. But you will inspire me to look into it after I finished this article series (which might take a while). If we are lucky this even fits into it.

        And for anyone reading this:
        I have highest regards for the humbleness and experience of JV Avadhanulu who has a long experience in prana-yoga – up to the point that he looked like 40 when he was 60.
        In case anyone wants to get advice from him ,
        you can contact him at the contact form of this site.


  • sitting bull 20:18 on 2018-06-26 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , centre, , , cross, heart-brain-connection, , reflection, rosicrucianism, spirituality   

    Keys to understanding the universe #1 : reflection, contemplation, meditation 

    <- To ease you into this series you may read the introduction about openness.

    Whilst life is a mystery to us, it is merely the result of complex interleaving of multiple factors – most of them rooted in very deep subconscious decisions we my have made long time ago – so deep in fact that in the end we resort to a worldview of “fate” or hope for divine “mercy” of an external authoritative presence.

    You can observe such mysterious changes in personality when you
    1.) first consciously change your behaviour as a consequence,
    (which can happen hundreds of times back and forth until it manifests in step 2)
    2.) and when the decision is final, someone just does something subconsciously without even talking about it anymore.
    It can be a relieve of a large burden,
    but when accompanied by bitterness can drive one into psychological or physical pathologies.
    This is the time when the character is formed.

    Changes in character are difficult to accomplish consciously, yet there are ways to entangle the situation we manoeuvred ourselves into,
    and the striking similarities between the different teachings from east and west suggest that there are root-principles, which when followed can guide someone out of this mystery of our ignorance.

    If you look at an iceberg to see the relationship between the visible consciousness above the water …

    … and the much larger invisible subconscious part under water.
    So it is clear that the root-work has to be done in the realm of the subconsciousness.

    As “all roads lead to Rome” there is not only one path to “one truth”, but there are as many truths as we are humans on this planet, so before commenting on yours being the best, please read the entire series first, so that you can comment on the article which describes a way closest to yours.

    1.) The principle of reflection, contemplation and meditation

    Action is the yang principle of the sun: to simply shine and literally radiate.
    Reflection is the yin principle of the moon: to reflect what happened. This is the realm of therapy and a good therapist enables the patient or client to reflect upon themselves to guide the intellectual thoughts deeper into the realm of contemplation.

    A hermit was once asked why he would live in solitude,
    but instead of answering he took the traveller to a well, through in a stone, and asked him what he would see.
    The wanderer replied “I see ripples upon the water“,
    and when the waves calmed down he asked him again, so the visitor replied:
    “I see a reflection of myself“.
    So the hermit told him: “As soon as the waves of the mind calm down, you see yourself.” ( One of the most important Greek aphorisms is: “know thyself“)

    Whilst reflection is a passive way, contemplation is a chosen activity to decide willfully to stay with a specific theme of choice with patience  for a long time. Both ways serve as a mediator between the consciousness and the subconsciousness and both ways are interwoven because one can not force thoughts but has to attract them in order to reflect upon them.

    One hinderance in a good reflection an entire picture is the hinderance in sight, because if you are in a tunnel, all you get is a literal “tunnel-vision”, so the way to see as many perspectives as possible in traffic is to stand in the middle of a crossroad.

    “Medi” means “in the middle” in latin. Hence the word “medicine” refers to being healthy when being in ones centre, and “meditation” is the art of centring oneself in order to be able to see as many perspectives as possible and therewith see the world “as it is” and not as we construct it to be out of our ignorance.

    This also explains the symbol of the cross, which by no means is only used in Christianity, but also by Rosicrucians for example. Whilst the physical centre is in the belly, in other directions, it is considered the heart, which even in ancient Egypt was called “the second brain”.

    Gregg Braden  does emphasize a lot on the heart-brain connection, and the loss of it is the root of most external and internal suffering in this world.
    Compassion (as was propagated by most religions before they became fossilized) is a good method to reclaim it,
    and Buddhists like Thích Nhất Hạnh or the Dalai Lama put a great emphasis on it.

    For rational inclined people meditation is the most difficult concept to grasp, and will seem for quite a while as a waste of time, so to beginners it is usually sold as being relaxing or empowering one to become more efficient. Whilst both is true, it does much more, just as serveing as a “time-box” for example, in which one puts all their internal turmoils in order to be able not to be disturbed by them in daily life.

    The easiest way to start to meditate is to sit down for a minute and observe the breath, because one can breath consciously as well as subconsciously, so it serves as an intermediator between both worlds.
    Meanwhile one can also let the thoughts run out by simply not putting more oil in the flames, so when in meditation thoughts of the next shopping come up, simply don’t follow it up by compiling a grocery-list, but postpone that thought for later and move back to the focus on this moment.

    As for the length: If you increase your meditation time (in a spreadsheet for example) by only 1 second more daily, it mounts up to 7-8 minutes in the first month, 5-6 minutes per week in the second month, and as the time increases you will automatically grow into a more regular mediation practice in order not to have to catch up too much until you can do a minute more daily every two months.
    To avoid those complicated calculations, you can strive to meditate for as long as you like on the first month, in the second month try to do it weekly, and from the third month on to do go for 2 minutes daily, increasing the time by 1 minute every two months, or by 6 minutes every year.

    The easiest time to meditate is before dawn, the second best after dusk and the most difficult one is amongst non-meditators. And to meditate a little daily is more valuable then to do lots only once in a while, because your character is tuned up by it consistently.

    Meditation, contemplation and reflection were and are done intuitively in natural cultures and are pushed into marginalisation by our first world agenda to constantly prioritise efficiency in order to maximise profits (which then usually end up to serve merely as a compensations for our lost holistic happiness of being connected with everything).

    < Introductory chapter #0     …  Chapter# 2 >

    • jvavadhanulu 16:22 on 2018-06-27 Permalink | Reply

      A succinct and simple introduction to meditation. Thank you.
      “Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication”


    • sitting bull 16:43 on 2018-06-27 Permalink | Reply

      Uhh – wise words from a wise man! thank you ❤


    • J V Avadhanulu 20:04 on 2018-07-03 Permalink | Reply

      I read this earlier , but in isolation. Now, when I read after the earlier postings, I like it even more. It is very interesting and it its simplicity reflects not only the ultimate sophistication (Leonardo Da Vinci) but also the brilliance. Lucky to read this. Thank you


      • sitting bull 23:00 on 2018-07-03 Permalink | Reply

        Thanks JV, I come from being extremely extrovert, but since the Kriya does balance me out it gave me the sensitivity to feel what got people impatient, so I had to practice for a decade to constrain my words by reducing them to the essence of what I wanted to say.
        This is a good example how yoga does bring one into balance – an introvert probably would have learned to speak up more and in the end probably could have written a similar article.


  • sitting bull 14:32 on 2018-06-25 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: dignity, , meaning, , spirituality   

    The chances in dis-abilities 

    A terrible decade of constant aggravated misfortunes did one day result in a literal breakdown in the midst of my apartment, so I did break my back and a few years later I had a stroke and two cerebral haemorrhages which totally debilitated me up to the point that I could speak only slurred and had to crawl on the floor.

    Usually I wouldn’t write such a personal note on this meditation blog, but since Amy just followed me, who runs the blog myCerebellarStrokeRecovery, I would like to share with her and all of you an aspect of sickness, which at these times, when measuring each other on the scale of ones contribution to the national gross-income, is overlooked:

    As the word suggests, a disease means an absence of ease which suggests that health is an effortless zone – something we totally forgot when associating work with unpleasant tasks or being bossed around. The still Tai-Qi version, Qi-Gong, for example means “work on (ener)Qi”, so work does not always have to be hard.

    We are so tightly screwed into the network of civilisation we can not escape from (because we need the money, our friends expect us to behave one way, our relatives another way, and if we defend our space we would aggravate the zeitgeist-pressure by pushing others into a similar corner we are in). So hardly anyone dares to reclaim ones own personal space radically anymore asCharles Xavier did in the movie “Wanted” :

    So we pile sickening issues on top of more sickening issues until they issue sickness,
    which is a cry of the soul not to continue on the old path.

    Books on this have been written for example by Louise Hay in “you can heal your life”, by Rüdiger Dahlke and others.

    So what’s the takeaway when you are disabled up to the point of being unable to work anymore? The first one, which concerns everyone is patience.
    Healing takes tremendous time and one may consider their career etc to be over, because it looks like being thrown out of a high-speed train and just able to watch it pass by for months, years and decades.

    But there is also a bright side, which is not a consolation, but an actual bliss.

    Because everyone’s self-chosen life-lesson is different,  I want to share with you my personal one, and yours may be different.

    When looking closely, my health problems did not start my change, but did slowly even follow them, meaning, if I would have been a bit more alert, I probably could have prevented some of them – but then again – changes always take a while, so I am not certain whether it would have been to late anyway.

    However, my breakdown came after a tremendous family-crisis and my stroke straight after I had enough of my life and did walk the camino de Santiago twice within a year, so both incidents would have called for an instant change, but just like a frog, which is put in cold water and boiled slowly, stays into the water, it was never hot enough yet (as it is for any frog thrown into boiling water).
    In other words: I did not have the sense of self needed to distance myself from a “life in the wrong dimension”.

    Due to our ethics we feel obliged not to leave friends & family behind which often – along with fears of change, failure and success – make it impossible to get out of our hell. Plus I was in my comfort-zone which only due to the dis-ease was shaken up.

    But the question for me was: Where can I go if I did hate the place I do live in with passion and could not relate to the people around me?
    Slowly it dawned upon me that if my financial situation does not allow me to move back and forth, neither left or right, then the only direction is up … into the spiritual realm which means: Up to the divine or up into the realm of my higher self.

    So my first decision was after my stroke in 2012: If something in my brain died, then I will decide what died and because I was a big moaner beforehand, I chose to let the part of the brain die which is related to victim-consciousness, so whenever some frustration, anger, sadness etc… came up, I did conjure up an image of piling my problems of the compost heap of last year (which was 2011).

    This then brought up a total new challenge: If I really was to be free from the suffering-tune, ie. if I was not to tune into suffering anymore, I had to forgive all the people who id hurt me in the past – something no ones ego likes, but I did it for myself, not necessarily for them, and it was good to see that it was a win-win, dissolving many mental knots for all sides.

    Then I rebelled against my disease one final time and walked along the Danube (with walking sticks for my back) for 4 months. But since this did not bring any life-changing results I took the time which was given to me (by not having to work) to develop a plan (and I am very aware how blessed I am to live in a rare part of the world where people with health-issues are supported financially by the government).
    As you read this, you are sitting in the midst of this plan, because it is this “Sodarshan Chakra Project” I outlined on the right margin of this site.

    First I could literally only sit for 10 minutes, because of my back and thought that with that damage my Kundalini would never rise again, but JV, an Indian Pranayama practitioner from Auroville gave me great comfort by telling me that this energy would flow in different paths, so I continued the practice.

    My only task from 2014-2017 was to do the tiny morning session and knowing that Sodarshan Chakra Kriya brings up a pile of emotions, I started to allow myself a lot of “me-time” to just hang around and get over the feeling of guilt that I am living at the expense of others – feelings which constantly were aggravated by accusations of nearby people (who usually ask: “how do you do?”, and straightaway “what do you do?”)

    But what helped me was to see the bigger picture, which usually happens when you step back from it and are not a mere pixel of the zeitgeist anymore.
    I saw how absurd society works, that nearly everything which is accomplished is done at the expense of the environment or third-world-slaves, and how absurd a dogma is, which calls for participation in a game where tens of thousands of never-used cars (which btw, use up as much air in a minute than 20 humans breath in an hour) are overproduced, equally food is destroyed, as much electricity on Bitcoins is wasted, as the Iraq needs in a year, or that 8 billionaires have as much as 4 billion of the poorest humans together.

    I then sat down and thought about the purpose in my life and came to following conclusions:

    • Since everything in nature cycles (water falls down, streams in a river, condenses and comes back as a raindrop), why now also our soul?
      If I choose to look at my life from a point of reincarnation

      • there is much less pressure to perform excellent in this life,
      • and I also can attribute external and internal problems to my own longterm imbalances.
    • Seeing the world as a reflection of my mind, makes it easier to deal with people who can not understand why I am suddenly not performing as well anymore as I did just a while ago. After all I attracted like-minded people back then, so obviously they still are shadows of my past.
    • Focussing on meaningfulness in life is by far more important than financial success, so a day in which I did comfort one person is more worth to me than one in which a million plastic penguins are sold to tourists only to be thrown away soon afterwards anyway.

    The first years were a constant struggle to satisfy the needs of others,
    to perform well in re-remembering the thousand things I had in my household, their names, their relationships,
    but slowly I would say that I would not miss that experience of having exchanged my sharpness and youthful attitude and looks for a profoundness which was called for in my age (of half a century) anyway.

    Vice versa: Whilst I see many people who are successful in promoting the happiness of their healthy spiritual modern lifestyle, I also see that their attachment to pleasures and vanity is still strong enough from totally dedicating themselves to their own spiritual progress – and I am not feeling better than them – if everything would have gone my way, it is very unlikely I would have walked this path of earnestness.

    By sweeping me of my feet, my cerebral haemorrhages taught me non-attachment to the self constructed rails of my egotistical delusions.

    Very slowly – after years of being honest with myself and admitting my faults –  an inner strength and bliss in the form of dignity seems to dawn upon me in near future and I am grateful for it.




    • David Nolan Cook 22:17 on 2018-06-26 Permalink | Reply

      Thilo, amazing to read and inspiring. I have no doubt SCK aided your recovery, Yoga is powerful once it gets inside your head…

      Liked by 1 person

    • Samrat 11:13 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply

      Such a wonderful read . Inspiring and down to earth . All best for your practice 🙏

      Liked by 1 person

    • Amy 23:52 on 2018-06-29 Permalink | Reply

      Thank you for writing this.

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      • sitting bull 8:35 on 2018-06-30 Permalink | Reply

        Well, thank YOU Amy, because reading about fellow sufferers with similar issues in your blog did give me the strength of having a justification I needed.

        A justification against those people, who have not found their sense of self yet
        (and therefore define themselves on the amount of their work)
        who hold up the standards of having to bite ones teeth in order to contribute as much to the national gross income as they do .

        Thích Nhất Hạnh wrote that people should only work for 4 hours daily and spend the rest with themselves (reflecting,contemplating or meditating) – a concept which is totally overlooked in our pragmatic and efficient society.


  • sitting bull 7:59 on 2017-09-21 Permalink | Reply
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    The Science Of Kriya Yoga 

    Chapter 26 of the Autobiography of a Yogi By Paramhansa Yogananda

    The science of Kriya Yoga, mentioned so often in these pages, became widely known in modern India through the instrumentality of Lahiri Mahasaya, my guru’s guru. The Sanskrit root of Kriya is kri, to do, to act and react; the same root is found in the word karma, the natural principle of cause and effect. Kriya Yoga is thus “union (yoga) with the Infinite through a certain action or rite.” A yogi who faithfully follows its technique is gradually freed from karma or the universal chain of causation.

    Because of certain ancient yogic injunctions, I cannot give a full explanation of Kriya Yoga in the pages of a book intended for the general public. The actual technique must be learned from a Kriyaban or Kriya Yogi; here a broad reference must suffice.

    Kriya Yoga is a simple, psychophysiological method by which the human blood is decarbonized and recharged with oxygen. The atoms of this extra oxygen are transmuted into life current to rejuvenate the brain and spinal centers. By stopping the accumulation of venous blood, the yogi is able to lessen or prevent the decay of tissues; the advanced yogi transmutes his cells into pure energy. Elijah, Jesus, Kabir and other prophets were past masters in the use of Kriya or a similar technique, by which they caused their bodies to dematerialize at will.

    Kriya is an ancient science. Lahiri Mahasaya received it from his guru, Babaji, who rediscovered and clarified the technique after it had been lost in the Dark Ages.

    “The Kriya Yoga which I am giving to the world through you in this nineteenth century,” Babaji told Lahiri Mahasaya, “is a revival of the same science which Krishna gave, millenniums ago, to Arjuna, and which was later known to Patanjali, and to Christ, St. John, St. Paul, and other disciples.”

    Kriya Yoga is referred to by Krishna, India’s greatest prophet, in a stanza of the Bhagavad Gita: “Offering inhaling breath into the outgoing breath, and offering the outgoing breath into the inhaling breath, the yogi neutralizes both these breaths; he thus releases the life force from the heart and brings it under his control.” The interpretation is: “The yogi arrests decay in the body by an addition of life force, and arrests the mutations of growth in the body by apan (eliminating current). Thus neutralizing decay and growth, by quieting the heart, the yogi learns life control.”

    Krishna also relates that it was he, in a former incarnation, who communicated the indestructible yoga to an ancient illuminato, Vivasvat, who gave it to Manu, the great legislator. He, in turn, instructed Ikshwaku, the father of India’s solar warrior dynasty. Passing thus from one to another, the royal yoga was guarded by the rishis until the coming of the materialistic ages. Then, due to priestly secrecy and man’s indifference, the sacred knowledge gradually became inaccessible.

    Kriya Yoga is mentioned twice by the ancient sage Patanjali, foremost exponent of yoga, who wrote: “Kriya Yoga consists of body discipline, mental control, and meditating on Aum.” Patanjali speaks of God as the actual Cosmic Sound of Aum heard in meditation. Aum is the Creative Word, the sound of the Vibratory Motor. Even the yoga-beginner soon inwardly hears the wondrous sound of Aum. Receiving this blissful spiritual encouragement, the devotee becomes assured that he is in actual touch with divine realms.

    Patanjali refers a second time to the life-control or Kriya technique thus: “Liberation can be accomplished by that pranayama which is attained by disjoining the course of inspiration and expiration.”

    St. Paul knew Kriya Yoga, or a technique very similar to it, by which he could switch life currents to and from the senses. He was therefore able to say: “Verily, I protest by our rejoicing which I have in Christ, i die daily.” By daily withdrawing his bodily life force, he united it by yoga union with the rejoicing (eternal bliss) of the Christ consciousness. In that felicitous state, he was consciously aware of being dead to the delusive sensory world of maya.
    In the initial states of God-contact (sabikalpa samadhi) the devotee’s consciousness merges with the Cosmic Spirit; his life force is withdrawn from the body, which appears “dead,” or motionless and rigid. The yogi is fully aware of his bodily condition of suspended animation. As he progresses to higher spiritual states (nirbikalpa samadhi), however, he communes with God without bodily fixation, and in his ordinary waking consciousness, even in the midst of exacting worldly duties.

    “Kriya Yoga is an instrument through which human evolution can be quickened,” Sri Yukteswar explained to his students. “The ancient yogis discovered that the secret of cosmic consciousness is intimately linked with breath mastery. This is India’s unique and deathless contribution to the world’s treasury of knowledge. The life force, which is ordinarily absorbed in maintaining the heart-pump, must be freed for higher activities by a method of calming and stilling the ceaseless demands of the breath.”

    The Kriya Yogi mentally directs his life energy to revolve, upward and downward, around the six spinal centers (medullary, cervical, dorsal, lumbar, sacral, and coccygeal plexuses) which correspond to the twelve astral signs of the zodiac, the symbolic Cosmic Man. One-half minute of revolution of energy around the sensitive spinal cord of man effects subtle progress in his evolution; that half-minute of Kriya equals one year of natural spiritual unfoldment.

    The astral system of a human being, with six (twelve by polarity) inner constellations revolving around the sun of the omniscient spiritual eye, is interrelated with the physical sun and the twelve zodiacal signs. All men are thus affected by an inner and an outer universe. The ancient rishis discovered that man’s earthly and heavenly environment, in twelve-year cycles, push him forward on his natural path. The scriptures aver that man requires a million years of normal, diseaseless evolution to perfect his human brain sufficiently to express cosmic consciousness.

    One thousand Kriya practiced in eight hours gives the yogi, in one day, the equivalent of one thousand years of natural evolution: 365,000 years of evolution in one year. In three years, a Kriya Yogi can thus accomplish by intelligent self-effort the same result which nature brings to pass in a million years. The Kriya short cut, of course, can be taken only by deeply developed yogis. With the guidance of a guru, such yogis have carefully prepared their bodies and brains to receive the power created by intensive practice.

    The Kriya beginner employs his yogic exercise only fourteen to twenty- eight times, twice daily. A number of yogis achieve emancipation in six or twelve or twenty-four or forty-eight years. A yogi who dies before achieving full realization carries with him the good karma of his past Kriya effort; in his new life he is harmoniously propelled toward his Infinite Goal.

    The body of the average man is like a fifty-watt lamp, which cannot accommodate the billion watts of power roused by an excessive practice of Kriya. Through gradual and regular increase of the simple and “foolproof” methods of Kriya, man’s body becomes astrally transformed day by day, and is finally fitted to express the infinite potentials of cosmic energy-the first materially active expression of Spirit.
    Kriya Yoga has nothing in common with the unscientific breathing exercises taught by a number of misguided zealots. Their attempts to forcibly hold breath in the lungs is not only unnatural but decidedly unpleasant. Kriya, on the other hand, is accompanied from the very beginning by an accession of peace, and by soothing sensations of regenerative effect in the spine.

    The ancient yogic technique converts the breath into mind. By spiritual advancement, one is able to cognize the breath as an act of mind-a dream-breath.

    Many illustrations could be given of the mathematical relationship between man’s respiratory rate and the variations in his states of consciousness. A person whose attention is wholly engrossed, as in following some closely knit intellectual argument, or in attempting some delicate or difficult physical feat, automatically breathes very slowly. Fixity of attention depends on slow breathing; quick or uneven breaths are an inevitable accompaniment of harmful emotional states: fear, lust, anger. The restless monkey breathes at the rate of 32 times a minute, in contrast to man’s average of 18 times. The elephant, tortoise, snake and other animals noted for their longevity have a respiratory rate which is less than man’s. The tortoise, for instance, who may attain the age of 300 years, breathes only 4 times per minute.

    The rejuvenating effects of sleep are due to man’s temporary unawareness of body and breathing. The sleeping man becomes a yogi; each night he unconsciously performs the yogic rite of releasing himself from bodily identification, and of merging the life force with healing currents in the main brain region and the six sub-dynamos of his spinal centers. The sleeper thus dips unknowingly into the reservoir of cosmic energy which sustains all life.

    The voluntary yogi performs a simple, natural process consciously, not unconsciously like the slow-paced sleeper. The Kriya Yogi uses his technique to saturate and feed all his physical cells with undecaying light and keep them in a magnetized state. He scientifically makes breath unnecessary, without producing the states of subconscious sleep or unconsciousness.

    By Kriya, the outgoing life force is not wasted and abused in the senses, but constrained to reunite with subtler spinal energies. By such reinforcement of life, the yogi’s body and brain cells are electrified with the spiritual elixir. Thus he removes himself from studied observance of natural laws, which can only take him-by circuitous means as given by proper food, sunlight, and harmonious thoughts-to a million-year Goal. It needs twelve years of normal healthful living to effect even slight perceptible change in brain structure, and a million solar returns are exacted to sufficiently refine the cerebral tenement for manifestation of cosmic consciousness.

    Untying the cord of breath which binds the soul to the body, Kriya serves to prolong life and enlarge the consciousness to infinity. The yoga method overcomes the tug of war between the mind and the matter- bound senses, and frees the devotee to reinherit his eternal kingdom. He knows his real nature is bound neither by physical encasement nor by breath, symbol of the mortal enslavement to air, to nature’s elemental compulsions.

    Introspection, or “sitting in the silence,” is an unscientific way of trying to force apart the mind and senses, tied together by the life force. The contemplative mind, attempting its return to divinity, is constantly dragged back toward the senses by the life currents. Kriya, controlling the mind directly through the life force, is the easiest, most effective, and most scientific avenue of approach to the Infinite. In contrast to the slow, uncertain “bullock cart” theological path to God, Kriya may justly be called the “airplane” route.

    The yogic science is based on an empirical consideration of all forms of concentration and meditation exercises. Yoga enables the devotee to switch off or on, at will, life current from the five sense telephones of sight, sound, smell, taste, and touch. Attaining this power of sense- disconnection, the yogi finds it simple to unite his mind at will with divine realms or with the world of matter. No longer is he unwillingly brought back by the life force to the mundane sphere of rowdy sensations and restless thoughts. Master of his body and mind, the Kriya Yogi ultimately achieves victory over the “last enemy,” death.

    So shalt thou feed on Death, that feeds on men: And Death once dead, there’s no more dying then.

    The life of an advanced Kriya Yogi is influenced, not by effects of past actions, but solely by directions from the soul. The devotee thus avoids the slow, evolutionary monitors of egoistic actions, good and bad, of common life, cumbrous and snail-like to the eagle hearts.

    The superior method of soul living frees the yogi who, shorn of his ego-prison, tastes the deep air of omnipresence. The thralldom of natural living is, in contrast, set in a pace humiliating. Conforming his life to the evolutionary order, a man can command no concessionary haste from nature but, living without error against the laws of his physical and mental endowment, still requires about a million years of incarnating masquerades to know final emancipation.

    The telescopic methods of yogis, disengaging themselves from physical and mental identifications in favor of soul-individuality, thus commend themselves to those who eye with revolt a thousand thousand years. This numerical periphery is enlarged for the ordinary man, who lives in harmony not even with nature, let alone his soul, but pursues instead unnatural complexities, thus offending in his body and thoughts the sweet sanities of nature. For him, two times a million years can scarce suffice for liberation.

    Gross man seldom or never realizes that his body is a kingdom, governed by Emperor Soul on the throne of the cranium, with subsidiary regents in the six spinal centers or spheres of consciousness. This theocracy extends over a throng of obedient subjects: twenty-seven thousand billion cells-endowed with a sure if automatic intelligence by which they perform all duties of bodily growths, transformations, and dissolutions-and fifty million substratal thoughts, emotions, and variations of alternating phases in man’s consciousness in an average life of sixty years. Any apparent insurrection of bodily or cerebral cells toward Emperor Soul, manifesting as disease or depression, is due to no disloyalty among the humble citizens, but to past or present misuse by man of his individuality or free will, given to him simultaneous with a soul, and revocable never.

    Identifying himself with a shallow ego, man takes for granted that it is he who thinks, wills, feels, digests meals, and keeps himself alive, never admitting through reflection (only a little would suffice!) that in his ordinary life he is naught but a puppet of past actions (karma) and of nature or environment. Each man’s intellectual reactions, feelings, moods, and habits are circumscribed by effects of past causes, whether of this or a prior life. Lofty above such influences, however, is his regal soul. Spurning the transitory truths and freedoms, the Kriya Yogi passes beyond all disillusionment into his unfettered Being. All scriptures declare man to be not a corruptible body, but a living soul; by Kriya he is given a method to prove the scriptural truth.

    “Outward ritual cannot destroy ignorance, because they are not mutually contradictory,” wrote Shankara in his famous Century Of Verses. “Realized knowledge alone destroys ignorance. . . . Knowledge cannot spring up by any other means than inquiry. ‘Who am I? How was this universe born? Who is its maker? What is its material cause?’ This is the kind of inquiry referred to.” The intellect has no answer for these questions; hence the rishis evolved yoga as the technique of spiritual inquiry.

    Kriya Yoga is the real “fire rite” often extolled in the Bhagavad Gita. The purifying fires of yoga bring eternal illumination, and thus differ much from outward and little-effective religious fire ceremonies, where perception of truth is oft burnt, to solemn chanted accompaniment, along with the incense!

    The advanced yogi, withholding all his mind, will, and feeling from false identification with bodily desires, uniting his mind with superconscious forces in the spinal shrines, thus lives in this world as God hath planned, not impelled by impulses from the past nor by new witlessnesses of fresh human motivations. Such a yogi receives fulfillment of his Supreme Desire, safe in the final haven of inexhaustibly blissful Spirit.

    The yogi offers his labyrinthine human longings to a monotheistic bonfire dedicated to the unparalleled God. This is indeed the true yogic fire ceremony, in which all past and present desires are fuel consumed by love divine. The Ultimate Flame receives the sacrifice of all human madness, and man is pure of dross. His bones stripped of all desirous flesh, his karmic skeleton bleached in the antiseptic suns of wisdom, he is clean at last, inoffensive before man and Maker.

    Referring to yoga’s sure and methodical efficacy, Lord Krishna praises the technological yogi in the following words: “The yogi is greater than body-disciplining ascetics, greater even than the followers of the path of wisdom (Jnana Yoga), or of the path of action (Karma Yoga); be thou, O disciple Arjuna, a yogi!”

    Chapter 35

    New hope for new men! “Divine union,” the YOGAVATAR [Lahiri Mahasaya] proclaimed, “is possible through self-effort, and is not dependent on theological beliefs or on the arbitrary will of a Cosmic Dictator.”

    Through use of the KRIYA key, persons who cannot bring themselves to believe in the divinity of any man will behold at last the full divinity of their own selves.

  • sitting bull 22:31 on 2014-10-28 Permalink | Reply
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    1000 days of daily meditation transform a monkey into a saint 

    This blog is dedicated to the Kundalini-Yoga-Meditation Sodarshan Chakra Kriya
    in order to inspire others to join my 1000-day-quest to do do this meditation daily.

    Here is the quest you are happy to join: http://www.pledgebank.com/1000daysodarshan

    It is my strong believe that doing this exercise will transform anyones life significantly forever,
    which is why I will not only collect all information I can find,
    but also create forums for you to join and comunicate with each other
    so that we can inspire each other by letting us know the difficulties we encounter and the benefits we reap.

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