How my bad luck did come in threes 

Chronology of an epic downfall #2

You could call me an entrepreneur-personality, always thinking positive and searching for ways to make the world a better place.
I also never thought of giving up and long before knowing about it thought in terms of the law of attraction – that thinking positive does attract alike.

As an example: After
1.) Having been kicked out of the USA, and
2.) discovered that my TCM-diploma did not count in Germany, I instantly invented a Moxa-pyramid but did not have the energy to follow up on a production – bright mind, but non-consistent energy.

I also was the kind of guy who always gave everything – having always loved movies, you could have put me into any movie-project (as pretty much anything) and like the stars I would have worked my ass of up to my limits, because I always did believe that you succeed if you go the extra mile, the sluggish masses aren’t willing to invest.
To show you how dedicated I was to put my full heart into any mission, I tell you a story:

A friend, who still lived in New York knew an MTV-director called Markus Nispel, who at times (when MTV still did play music clips fulltime) did direct 45 minutes of one hour MTV. He then became a Hollywood-director and had the chance of doing the movie “end of days” with Arnold Schwarzenegger, whose winning-attitude I admired.

‘Normal’ people would not even think about grasping so high and stick to their small world, but because I always was striving to thrive, you can imagine how excited I did jump to that occasion and persuaded my friend to give my demo to Nispel. As soon as he agreed I got myself an old Atari computer which I used as a sequencer.

Because the movie was supposed to be about Satan in NYC, I composed
1. first something really sinister,
2. then a second track with movie-like sound-effects:
3. and to show that I was capable, also a very beautiful song
4. (which was a remake an old saxophone-song of mine)
You can listen to all 4 tracks in a row here if you simply let the player play

(Btw. I did play and compose everything myself – you can stop after track 4)

Then I borrowed a video player from my parents and did record all Schwarzenegger movies I could borrow in the video-store (without even being able to watch them, because I had no TV).
I did record and cut hundreds of his phrases onto a minidisk player,
wrote a script from then, sampled them, and then did put together a funny fake-interview with Schwarzenegger, which you can listen to here:

Overall I worked for 3 months for at least for 16 hours every day if not more: Got up, jumped to the equipment, got myself a pizza, continued, and in the evening went to a nearby pub for an hour to often continue further afterwards.

And then the tragedy happened:

The old Atari I got from a friend broke down and as it turned out, beforehand had overwrite all 4 security copies I made with ones and zeros, so the entire music was lost !!!

And when I went to the pub to tell people my tragedy, those rednecks simply nodded non-empathically, because they had no idea how it is to ‘give it all’ and pour your entire heart-blood into something for 3 months. (Not even to mention the loss of a heaven I nearly grasped, because I SO MUCH would have wanted to get back to the USA straight away.)

Just so that you understand why you can hear those lost tracks now:
In my desperation I convinced my parents to sponsor a tiny home-studio, bought an Apple and a sequencer-keyboard, which took ages, because I had no experiences with computers and had to research everything.
Then I did reconstruct all those abstract songs out of my head,
but by the time I was finished with it all, it turned out that the director had canceled his contract with Hollywood because the studios didn’t want to put up the money for his desired special effects.

When telling local friends about it, I could literally sense that they felt that I was crazy for even having tried to put a foot into Hollywood. Such is the energy of the small-minded local people in my hometown: They watch you in anticipation whether you are going to make it, but if you fail, they smirk priggish.

This was the third major blow to my ambitions.
{and the path was about to spiral down further}ca

{You will find the previous and follow up stories in the menu under
>bio->karmic lessons}

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