Why I write down my biography for you

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My life is not more or less important than anyone elses`,
and not even an inspiration for seekers of success,
but throughout half a decade, I have observed,
that literally ALL of us get entangled in many pains and disappointments
and either spiral down into bitterness,
or manage to transform into a wiser person.

I will use my own biography to follow the evolution of the human mind
in this order:

1 .) Karmic lessons and disappointments

Those are the lessons learned by experiences.

In my personal opinion (as a non-Indian Westerner)
Karma seems to be the susceptibility for energetic constellations
which do match our current level of im/balance.

Since everything in nature is drawn to a state of balance,
those experiences usually lead to “dis-appointments
– a gradual annihilation of our internal appointments with reality,
known as (mis)conceptions.

Whilst Karma – especially for followers of Abrahamic religions –
seems to be linked to a punishment of a higher authority;
I see it as a merely a neutral consequence of nature.

Nature’s laws are unfathomable to the unenlightened mind,
so it’s regularities seem to be fate for most people.

Whilst an intellectual understanding of Nature is equivalently futile
to predicting the flight-path of a released rubber-ballon,
I strongly believe that an unconditioned mind is capable of intuitively understanding the regularities of life.
That is why I am not searching intellectually for the principles of life,
but do this yoga-meditaton instead.

Because I want to walk with you through the entire process chronologically,
the difficulty for me will be will be to write down my experiences
without adding relativizing & resolving insights I had decades later,
so I warn you that there will be a few politically incorrect posts upcoming, designed to show you how frustrating experiences in ignorance can be.

So even if you at times totally disagree with my first views or early conclusions, please bear with me, because this is not about singular issues
but about the larger picture of the development of insights.

This series also is designed to demonstrate the value of a daily meditation practice,
by comparing decades of my own faults and pains to the much faster evolution, when daily tuning into one’s higher self.

Once I collected the chronology of my epic downfall, I will tell you about …

2. ) The deconstruction of an ego.

All experiences leave residues of emotional reflections
which in time turns into admittance of personal responsibility in form of regrets.

To know this, btw, can help you tremendously when working on letting go of violations or victimisations, which had been committed against you.

The effects of a conscience will serve each person their own punishment,
and even if it seems that some are not receptive for it,
it only means that their boomerang is delayed into the next of afterlife.

This will be the chapter which will provide all answers to my frustrating experiences, so you can take this page as a disclaimer for all my biographical posts.

Once this episode is completed I finally will move on to tell you about …

3.) Mystical insights …

… I am having as a very late reward of my long & tedious meditation-yog-practice described here.

~ ~ ~

Finally

The rise of social networks did create an atmosphere of most people putting on a mask to display themselves more beautiful and successful than others – under the pretence to spread positivity.

Instead what they do is to make anyone who can’t live up to their distorted standards of their photo-edited pictures to feel like a looser.

Therefore I want to fill the void of authenticity
by bringing you an honest and complete picture with all its shadow-sides.

I hope that this will bring a sense of identification and belonging
to the many whose suffering currently disables them to express their pain.

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a disclaimer in regards to my upcoming subjectivity

I find it quite difficult to write an autobiography which on one hand is meant to reconstruct the evolutions of the mind and on the other hand tries to be as chronologically as possible, because our conclusions do come in threats of themes which we later reconstruct to make sense to us.

So in order to give each article a meaning I want to come up with a hindsight conclusion, despite the fact that at the time I did not have those which caused me to repeat those lessons multiple times but please bear in mind that those are usually not the last conclusions or insights I had.

Because I want to reconstruct the internal process of ones psychological evolution I did not post them yet but decided to first post more of the impressions I got whilst I was growing up.

As you know a child does not instantly analyse, but just take in experiences which later they form conclusions which much later turn into higher insights.

So for the sake of walking with you through this internal process you will first read personal stuff about my life which to a large extend might be insignificant for you who is on a different path, and at times nervewrecking repetitive for you,
but that is to show how slow the mere path of following ones Karma works and how the mind has to slowly walk through ones life backwards by the means of self-reflection, contemplation and meditation to “detangle” the tremendous emotional entanglements which did pile on tons of misconceptions on us.

Therefore, whenever you read something you disagree with – please understand that those are mere steps on a path, which at later stages bears deep inner changes and a broader understanding of many sides.

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