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  • sitting bull 18:35 on 2018-08-20 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: authenticity, Iyengar, , superficiality,   

    The difference between fasionable wellnes yoga and authentic personality work 

    Prashant Iyengar (son of the founder of Iyengar yoga):
    The 18 Maha Kriyas of Yogasana    Chapter 6     (2013)

    In modern pseudo-yog feelings of beatitude, solace and sense of well-being have become essential features. Bliss, beatitude, tranquility, transcendence are all on the surface mind or peripheral mind. It is only the temporal mind which gets a sense of wellbeing or a “top of the world” feeling. This mind generated by neurons of the brain is but a tip of the iceberg.

    Essential Yog works on, if I may say so, ‘mineral mind’, which is ad the ocean-depth of our minds. When the water of a lake is crystal-clear, our gaze reaches down to its basin, its floor-depth, we hardly notice the water. Similarly this mind is just the surface – the tip; there are yet greater depths of mind (why not see the bottom of the ice-berg, why always the tip?), which in this context I refer to our ‘mineral mind’ or ‘mineral consciousness’.

    We pay a premium today for mineral water, because it is extracted from mountains and deep valleys and is rich in the nutrients of this earth. Similarly the submerged mind, the mind at bottom of the embodiment/citta also comes as a premium; it is not sighted easily but has to be mined from deep within.

    Modern Yog is but a neat consumer package. “Feel fine” is the goal of the pseudo yog, but wheter one feels fine or not is not important as to ‘become and be fine’. The essential bliss in the mind is not a naked mind perception or sensation; like in scientific evaluations, the naked-eye perceptions are hardly consideration worthy or much less than those analyses of findings conducted with strong probes and/or scopes. Similarly here, the pseudo yog’s naked faculty feelings are worthy of neglect.[…]

    In the material plane of life one hardly gets the chance to exercice and explore the more sensitive, philosophical and/or meditative states of mind. They remain neclected. But in yogic pursuits the mind gets a deep philosophical exploration and develops trance potentials too.


    • JV Avadhanulu 1:27 on 2018-08-21 Permalink | Reply

      I like the concept of ‘mineral mind’. Thank you.

      Liked by 1 person

      • sitting bull 15:51 on 2018-08-23 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you – I just want to point out that this article was not written by me, but an excerpt from the book mentioned at the beginning.


  • sitting bull 3:48 on 2018-08-04 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: anger, conspiracy, dilemma, , family problems, , hate, killing, madness, pathology, psychology, resentment, revenge, shift in consciousness, spiritual awakening, the matrix,   

    The curses of spiritual awakening 

    People advertise for their believes, because allies strengthen abstract concepts.
    So religious people, Vegans, health-and sports gurus, or spiritual newcomers are on their “missions” to push their agenda onto others and persist despite lacks of success – simply in order to be “good” – usually by praising how beautiful their new-found ways would be.

    Yet the reality usually is very different: Hardly anyone has a constant happy and fulfilled lifestyle and even the greatest motivators or masters can contract any kind of disease or die at any time and often the most celebrated and admired people have huge issues – all of which is usually dismissed with the Jokers of unexplainable “Karma” or “Fate”.

    So why are especially people who work so hard to better themselves and the world often the ones who are laughed at most for not succeeding in what they preach or long for?

    The answer lies in the shift of consciousness:
    In music, 2 notes which are close together are called a second and usually sound rough,
    the further away a note moves from the base note, the better it sounds – a fifth (which is called “Quint”) for example is 5 notes higher and can provide a quintessence, and when the same note is reached again, things harmonise on a higher octave:

    The same aplies to rythms, or colors for example: unvafoable colors can clash
    and often oppistes one match better (which is a reason for different kinds of people having a relationship).

    So when someone awakens spiritually the person evolves out of the tribal mentality as Carolyn Myss explains it very well, there will be a huge friction – not only because of frictions in (color- or sound-)vibrations, but also,
    because the surrounding one grew into does everything possible to keep one at bay in order to ensure everyones continued participation in it and therewith strengthening the tribe.

    Especially family problems are a classic issue which make spiritual seekers look like eccentric black sheep,
    who compensate for their inability to conform with “outlandish” hopes and projections onto forces which literally are “out of this (material) world”.

    The realm of super-heroes satisfies that huge need (especially of not acknowledged teenagers)  and pacifies most materialists by giving them a way to let off some steam through comix or movies.

    Yet there also are real miracles (the ones which usually are dismissed and simply accepted as unexplainable), which justify a life-long search for a higher purpose of genuine seekers who are not content of merely playing along for the sake of fitting in(to a much to tight jacket).

    It usually just takes only one glimpse of what is dismissed as “Alices wonderland”, such as a moment of understanding or a dream,
    to never wanting to buy into the illusion of Maya and play along with the brainwash pushed on us by greedy people in forms of advertised material needs.

    And if you are one of the people who “got it”, now you have the problem:
    By starting to question a few fundamental maximes you triggered an avalanche from without and within at the same time:
    The outer world will react to your “in-sights” with tremendous aversion for their world is literally rocked and your inner world also is shaken,
    because you start to see what kind of a fool you were for having slept for ages.

    This then will lead to a disaster of you becoming more and more sensitive, whilst your immediate surrounding will treat you with contempt, aggression and schadenfreude.
    It is shocking to see how most people will actually “kick a man when he is down” and not the least feel guilty about being responsible to have blood on their hands.
    The simple reason for them killing anything they don’t understand (as it is propagated in many alien-invasion and xenophobic mainstream movies) is their fear of the unknown fear of change and also their repression of own guilt.

    But as if that is not enough, the double bind now is that the spiritual seeker starts to understand wrongs in a total new way which, then will bring up a tremendous amount of anger and frustration whilst not even being able to express them to the perpetrators. Usually, attemps to work them out together constructively will only make things worse by aggravating others or making them look down on one for being weak.

    An example of such an insight can be the Freudian analysis of the ego:

    Let’s say that your parents did educate you about their moral values,
    so you try to live up to those in order to be a “good” person.
    This is called the superego.
    Your ego is your self (which you are working on in spirituality),
    and the Id are your lower needs and wishes (your inherited limbic desires).

    First the task seems in line with spiritual work (or one chooses the spirituality which matches the parental moral values) …

    … but once you wake up, some aspects arise which just don’t fit into the clear black & white straight forward goal anymore.
    What if in your meditation it comes up that your parents did not merely convey a clear moral goal to you, but also did condition you to adhere to their personal ID?

    One case could be the dogma to cherish the parents sentimentality and therewith not being able to live your own life (which could be a classic for Hellinger’s family therapy).

    A worse case would be any kind of violation (and I am not only talking about those dramatic sexual traumas, but also about much more often seen constant nagging dogmas such as political or religious believes which are enforced through guilt).

    Often when such insights come up they are “explained” to the brain as definite events (which may or not even have happened that way),
    or worse, are swallowed in a self-destructive or self-degrading obedience.
    This sarcastically does make the person with the connection to higher realities look like a neurotic conspiracy theorist

    • something which will turn the seeing accuser into an easy target to be ridiculed.

    In case you had such revelations here my strategic 2 cents for you:
    Since your intuition could be right, but your intellectual translation into the reason behind it wrong, I would suggest you to treat your insights with extreme caution and not accuse others, until you tested your theories a few times and they did prove to be right.
    Because if you only once were wrong, most listeners will loose faith in your judgement and if things go down bad, you might even end up having to apologise to someone whom you know is energetically the cause of your pain – just not in the way you portrayed it.

    Even more difficult is it in cases of family problems,
    because one has the same genes as the suppressors, so a conflict is nearly pre-programmed:
    2 similar characters repel each other, just as the same poles of a magnet do.

    So how can you get through the waking up from a fairy tale dream into a dormant nightmare?

    The first aid is to look at everything as a reflection of yourself and seeing yourself as the creator of your own world.
    This will re-impower you to have the ultimate tool for changing even the most adverse circumstances.

    So your parents could be seen not as your parents, but as your former self – whether it is in your genes or your previous lifes (however your belief-system works).
    In case you were entangled in a victim-consciousness (which is quite normal, because we are conditioned to have experienced parents as the ones holding the power), this will move you into an empowered position.

    However, since each coin holds two sides, there also is unfortunately a lesser pleasant side to this view because with great power comes great responsibility.
    So the next step is then is to acknowledge that if you are the creator, then you also have to be the creator of this mess you are in, so the best you can do is to relax into it and not fight it, because else you are fighting yourself.

    But this doesn’t mean to play the often propagated “love and peace” number and roll over like an obedient dog.
    In order to solve the dilemma of the dogma to revere your ancestors and to protect yourself from constant attacks, it is sometimes not bad to cut family ties for a while (either externally, or internally by doing a ritual).

    One ritual for example would be to visualise an umbilical chord between you and someone else and then cutting it with a sword in one hand and burning it with a torch in the other. This then will at least protect your tender soul for a while like a fence does protect a little plant until it grew stronger.

    Especially for sensitive spiritual people to cut ties seems totally contrary to their agenda to implement that “we all are one” into their lives, but it is a necessary step on the way to clearly distinguish the self from the non-self as the Indian term Viveka describes it.
    After all – each cell knows its place in the body, and it would be a disaster if your body could not clearly distinguish one from another.

    This is why people who are too good-hearted to confine themselves often are overweight and can not loose it, because they benevolently take on issues which are not necessary theirs. The lesson is clearly that the time has come to take care for oneself as much as was done for others.

    But after that insight the strategy is clear:
    Simply (any maybe literally) “sit this one out”, by meditating, contemplating and relaxing into it until the waves of those unpleasant vibration slowly calmed down again.
    First of all this will protect yourself and the surrounding from damage, and it also it will ensure a balanced way to slowly withdraw backwards, without loosing the compassion for the people we encounter,
    (whom we subconsciously know to have the exact same dilemmas as us).

    Us simply brushing them of could wipe them into the gutter of marginalisation, and it is no holistic solution to simply hop onto the bright side of life at the expense of others. After all, that is what they did and our task is to literally “rise above the occasion”.

    I once saw my life as a string with many knots in irregular intervals and I realised that each of those knots is unnecessary anger which mostly arouse from narrow-mindedness.

    So each time we observe one of those energetic knots and don’t put oil onto those flames our mind has the chance to expand so that those entanglements eventually dissolve themselves for being irrelevant.

    When we realise that the people who hurt us were very likely our former selves,
    most issues are a result of our own Karma of likely thousands of years,
    so don’t be surprised if it takes decades to solve them

    • after all this is fast in comparison of the time it took you to pile the issues on,

    and you are transforming hurtful misconceptions and therewith bettering the world.

    What we often perceive as a curse or as obstacles,
    may our souls way of spoon-feeding us the tasks to be resolved.

    • Amy 3:44 on 2018-08-05 Permalink | Reply

      Why is meditation touted as such a great thing for mental health when it has the potential to make you feel absolutely awful?

      Great article by the way.


      • sitting bull 0:07 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you Amy,
        on my end communication is difficult right now, because I don’t get any notifications from wordpress and did not see yours for a while,
        and also, as I was typing a response to you and in the middle my computer crashed, so I had to start again. #mercuryRetrograde

        Your doubts regarding meditations are totally normal on the path of change, especially in our materialistic non-spiritual surrounding,
        and many people do resort to have contacts with people who condone ones needed comfort zone, just as regular drinkers do seek the company of other bar-visitors to get their absolution.

        On the other hand we also are drawn to get reaffirmations from fellow seekers, believers and practicioners, and then end up being a bit torn apart between our higher goals and lower needs.

        So I would recommend to you to observe really honestly if it is the meditation itself which does bring up the stuff, or whether your stuff is there lingering anyway and is merely brought to awareness by the meditation. I think it usually is a mix of both, because only the stuff which was there can be brought up.

        I myself do sometimes take a little break from meditating (except if I just did set up myself to do 40,90 or 120 days and thereafter restart fresh. Right now I am having one of those, and the interesting part is that I then see what did change and can observe further changes which still roll through me – but I don’t take breaks for too long, because Rudolf Steiner ones said that rhythm substitutes power just when riding a bike it is easier to keep going than stopping and starting again.

        In a way the answer to your question is very simple, because you somehow know that your soul longs for clarity and therewith a cleansing. It just sometimes can be overwhelming when you sweep your house and too much dust is brought up.
        I guess those are the times to “vent” a bit by bringing a bit of fresh air into your life by enjoying a bit of distraction like movies or doing things with your loved ones etc.

        What always brings me back to meditationis that if I don’t do it for a while I also observe that I get less cool, calm and collected.
        Meditation is a strange coin with two sides – on one hand it makes one serene, because one compresses issues into the morning-meditation-box,
        and on the other hand it does at the same time bring those issues up so one becomes more aware of them.

        But overall I myself don’t want to trade my clarity for the mainstram oblivion any longer, because I also see that this kind of dullness is what makes people controllable by them not seeing how they are dominated by other people – be it relatives or the tons of advertisors who fool our archetypal triggers into consumerism.

        Long story short: As long as you are honest to yourself your practice will regulate itself, because the insights you get from it will guide you.

        I hope this helps you to see and then follow your path.


    • Amy 2:42 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

      So then why continue? I want to feel better NOW, not the hope of feeling better years from now which may not happen?


      • sitting bull 5:49 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

        Yes Amy, since I totally can relate to this unbearable feeling, instead of a long answer, I wrote an article for you and anyone who also feels like you here:


      • sitting bull 12:02 on 2018-08-07 Permalink | Reply

        Actually, I just thought about your capital NOW, because a yoga teacher from India told me that he was inspired by Eckart Tolle’s “The power of now” book.
        Your comment is a brilliant example how we do carry our answers within our questions, because if there were an evolved master s/he probably would tell you to just observe this NOW you want to feel better in so that you get most out of it just as you get most out of a meal if you eat consciously.

        I think it is our ability to put aside personal dislikes in order to fully become aware of the NOW.


  • sitting bull 2:50 on 2018-07-31 Permalink | Reply

    Keys to understanding the universe #3: hidden breathing techniques 

    First of all thanks to JV Avadhanulu for introducing me to Vivekanda and his wisdoms,
    and to David Cook for providing half of the content of this article.
    In the previous article the horizontal and lateral movements in our body were explained.
    and this article is based on those theories.

    Knowledge of spiritual principles is often used (by false Gurus) to impress spiritual beginners, but of no real use if it is not clear how to apply them.
    Since there is enough written on Zen, Qi Gong, Tai Qi, martial arts, dietary approaches and health advices, this article focusses on hidden and deeper principles which, when applied in combination and with perseverance, can facilitate an ultrafast growth towards an expanded mind.
    So here are instructions on how to implement those 2 principles in exercises,
    and the following instructions will then reveal another third secret:

    3a.) Practical application of the principle of up and down movements

    How how to descend and ascend the energy (as described in ancient texts) is brilliantly explained by Christopher Wallis in this following video:

    Note that in ancient Tantric and Kundalini texts the Kundalini is compared to a snake not due to it correlating to the spine, but to a coil (the sleeping position of a snake), which uncoils when the breathing exercise is done.

    The tremendous value of the Kundalini energy – not only for spiritual, but also physical wellbeing – can be seen even in the west today in the snake symbols which in old days suggested a holistic health.
    It’s ironic that this is the symbol  of the pharmacy – the branch of medicine which is least concerned with holistic health and which causes as much harm as benefits by patenting extracted chemicals and thereby ignoring the properties of the entire plant for the sake of greed.

    The Kundalini-snake-like pharmacy symbol much longer was known already as the Caduceus staff of Hermes Trismegistos as mentioned in the first article.

    3b.) The application of the principle of the middle path or neutrality
    the balance between extremes.

    In the Ginans, which are devotional hymns or poems recited by Shia Ismaili Muslims.
    One is mentioned on this site here, and another one sates:

    When the breath arises from (in the state of enlightenment) 
    the region of the navel inside the body, perform rythmic 
    inhaling and exhaling of air which leads to spiritual joy and salvation.
    Friends through activation of the nerve (or force) channels inglaa,
    pinglaa and sukhmanaa focus your concentration and awareness; 
    this will kill all the desires of the (lower) mind.
    Consider the nerve curvature ('va(n)k naadd') as the true centre
    (between the two eye brows). Focus the vision of your two eyes
    (the moon and the sun) upon it regularly.
    If you maintain your awareness in this manner, then your ordinary 
    consciousness will burst into supra-consciousness (divinity). 
    When this happens you will feel the awareness of divinity in every 
    hair of your body and nobody can forget this.

    The last promise of supra-consciousness alone should be reason enough for any open minded person to pursue this path until succeeding in order to leave the pain of materialistic misconceptions behind.

    Just as in the Kabbalah, here we clearly also have the
    3 pilars: iglaa, pinglaa & sukhmanaa (the central one),
    and the dualistic sun & moon (yin& yang) aspect which are to be balanced.
    How this is exactly accomplished is written below:

    The left-right-center relationship

    There are several ways to practice yoga to accomplish that. One is an exercise called “the joyous mind”,
    and here is a great article explaining this 3-pillar relation to the body from a Hindu perspective:

    * The left pillar relating to the Ida Nadi (moon channel)
    * The middle pillar relating to the Shushumna Nadi (center channel)
    * And the right pillar relating to the Pingala Nadi (sun channel)

    This is the middle pillar which in islam is also called the sukhmanaa
    and in this article western medicine article is referred to the vagus nerve
    (but western medicine usually misses out the energetic and spiritual aspects)
    David Cook also added:

    In the introduction of the book “Light on the Yoga Sutras of Patañjali” by BKS Ivengar, he talks about asanas (positions), actions and effects, “To advanced students, a teacher teaches a whole asana in relationship to what is happening in a single action. At this subtlest level, when we are able to observe … and adjust the flow of energy in ida, pingala, susumna (the three principal nadis, or energy channels) the macrocosmic order of nature is perceived in even the smallest aspects”.
    In the very extensive glossary at the back, nadis are described as “channels through which energy flows in the subtle body”, and goes on to list 17 other named channels besides these three we are speaking of. Susumna is also listed as the “Nadi which controls the central nervous system”.

    And whilst I was researching the different methods and going to other yoga-seminars for comparison, I found out a hidden and nowhere mentioned secret principle:

    3c.) The breath ratio of 1:4:2

    Kriya Yoga works with this breathing ratio, and Tantra which is much older than Yoga (and btw not primarily focussed on sex only); also stated in the Sharada Tilaka Tanta the 1:4:2 ratio:

    Inhale through the left nosril (concentrating on the left side of the spine) for 16 counts. Hold the breath for 64 counts guiding energy into the central channel of the spine (shushumna). Exhale through the right nostril for 32 counts.
    It states that this can be done with or without a mantra recited mentally.

    ( 16:64:32 does boil down to a ratio of 1:4:2 when reduced to its smallest denominator).

    Whilst Christopher Wallis did not mention this ratio in his video-speech above, he mentioned that the most important part is the one where the in-breath and outbreath meet – the holding of the breath, which is given the longest time in the 1:4:2 ratio.

    Many thanks go out to JV Adhanulu, who passed on this instruction from the Indian Yogi Vivekanda to me over a decade ago and therewith introduced me to Indian originals:

    Slowly fill the lungs with breath through the Ida, the left nostril, and at the same time concentrate the mind on the nerve current. You are, as it were, sending the nerve current down the spinal column, and striking violently on the last plexus, the basic lotus which is triangular in form, the seat of the Kundalini. Then hold the current there for some time. Imagine that you are slowly drawing that nerve current with the breath through the other side, the Pingala, then slowly throw it out through the right nostril. This you will find a little difficult to practise. The easiest way is to stop the right nostril with the thumb, and then slowly draw in the breath through the left; then close both nostrils with thumb and forefinger, and imagine that you are sending that current down, and striking the base of the Sushumna; then take the thumb off, and let the breath out through the right nostril. Next inhale slowly through that nostril, keeping the other closed by the forefinger, then close both, as before. […] Here it is well to begin with four seconds, and slowly increase. Draw in four seconds, hold in sixteen seconds, then throw out in eight seconds.
    This makes one Pranayama

    Vivekanda’s 4:16:8 breath ratio also boils both down to a 1:4:2 ratio.

    Why 1:4:2 ? It sounds counter-intuitive to breath out longer than to breath in, but here are some of the reasons:

    As mentioned in the last article: in the Kabblah the Sun is numerological seen as a one (the initial yang impulse) – “the word which was in the beginning”,
    and the moon as the receptive yin which reflects the suns light, hence a two,
    so the air is taken in one beat and breathed out in two beats.
    (Remember the Emerald Tablets: “The Sun is its father, the moon its mother, the wind hath carried it in its belly, the earth is its nurse.” So the breath in is an act of creation (sun), the wind carries it in its belly with 1 beat, the earth digests it there with 4 beats, and the reflective moon is its mother (hence 2 beats breath out).

    We also know that it usually takes much longer to digest the fast action which happened firsthand – hence a longer outbreath.

    The reason for the 4 beats of holding the energy in the neutral middle pillar has many reasons, one being that
    4 is also the path the path of the solar energy to our planet earth which takes the 4 steps: 1. Sun -> 2. Mercury ->  3. Venus-> 4. Earth/Moon.
    So the entire macrocosm is internalised into the own microcosm. (This is btw half of  the order how the energy moves throughout the day, so your setting yourself up for the day when doing this as an exercise)

    There is also a psychological fact by drawing down the divine impulse through our breath, and before in a contemplated way releasing it, holding it for double the time of a moon-reflection which :

    • 1 beat in-breath: something worldly happened (breath in)
    • holding the breath contemplation upon the worldly in-breath (2 beats)
      • then an echo of this reflective 2 beats, making it 4 beats holding the breath,
      • which then creates a reflection on the reflector:
        (who am I – the one who reflects ?) This is very important when the divine starts to merge with the self in self-realisation.
      • and the “echo” also has a meta effect and transforms the breather in the breathed one, or the “doer” into an effortless “be-er”.
    • 2 beats out-breath:
      I see both sides of that coin of contemplation, moving someone beyond dualism.

    Japanese people might have an inherent sense for this echo, because foreigners who learn their language often are recognised for not upholding the pause after the short yang exclamation-like Japanese sentences.

    In rhetoric there is also a dynamic of 1. thesis 2.synthesis and 3.antithesis, so the trinity of this breathing pattern affirms its validity on a subconscious level.

    This, by the way is the mathematics of the pyramid: 3 sides over a plane with 4 corners or sides, giving rise to the assumption that one of its functions is to harness and transform sun power -> hence the name “Pyra-mid” (fire in the middle). Medi-tation in combination with a prana-exercise to direct the fire to the central channel, does just that and therewith is an internal recreation of the pyramids – another indication that the mysteries of the universe can be solved from within.

    Image result for pyramid

    To sum it up (look at the Emerald Tablets from the last article):

    The breathing pattern goes through a path similar to the first astrological symbol of Aries (if that was overlaid over a body):

    1. beat: Breath enters through the left nostril … (the sun is its father)
    2. … (4 beats :the breath goes down to the belly see below) …
    3.               … the breath finally exits through the right nostril (2 beats mother moon).

    Image result for aries
    … 2. the wind hath carried it in its belly, the earth is its nurse.” …
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    So the biggest transformative work happens when holding the breath for 4 beats (preferably in the belly), because it digests anything that happened and also reflects on our reaction to our digestion: hence it dissolves the aspect of literal “re-actions” and therewith Karma. Hence chanting also should be done out of the belly to be more effective.

    You may implement those breathing techniques in your spiritual practice to refine it.

    <previous article: #2 left, up, down, right                      Next article: #4: The right posture>

    • David Nolan Cook 17:27 on 2018-07-31 Permalink | Reply

      Thank you Thilo, very well done!


      • sitting bull 0:19 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

        thanks – I didn’t get a mail of your comment – maybe they changed something in worldpress.
        I have to check the website more regularly from now on.


      • sitting bull 11:54 on 2018-08-07 Permalink | Reply

        Ah and I totally forgot to thank you, David,
        because without your input
        this entire series and especially this article would not have even been written!


    • jvavadhanulu 23:54 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

      What an original interpretation that is very convincingly put forward. Mind blowing!
      BTW, I don’t think that Yoga is later to Tantra. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yoga ” The origins of yoga have been speculated to date back to pre-Vedic Indian traditions; it is mentioned in the Rigveda”


      • sitting bull 11:51 on 2018-08-07 Permalink | Reply

        Ah ,thank you (also for your big compliment), JV.

        I have to admit that I still have a lot to learn, because I did create this blog not to teach others but to collect in realtime what I just found, so many ideas may need to ripen still.

        Some of my articles like the last one for example, display research from 2 decades, whilst this one is my fairly new conclusion, so I am grateful for you educating me.

        In a way it seems that there were parallel developments on earth which coincided like the mysticism of all religions which come to similar conclusions and which then overcome religious boundaries. The islamic as well as the christian exercises I mentioned in the blog seem also have lots in common with those techniques mentioned above.

        The fact that there were so many connections across remote cultures (like Shamanism) for example raise the question whether people in ancient times were able to either communicate telepathically or simply pic up stuff from the zeitgeist which could be called the Akasha.

        I am still puzzled and in awe of how such a wealth of elaborate knowledge of different kinds could have been accumulated in India when the rest of the world was still in darkness.


      • sitting bull 11:57 on 2018-08-07 Permalink | Reply

        And as I just did thank David, my grattitude also goes out to you, because it was you who kept me on the path of doing Yoga at times when western medicine damaged my back by wrongly operating it and when I just was about to give up on the hope of the Kundalini rising along the back it was you who told me that this is a total different energy which does bypass any of those material physical aspects.
        Plus you actually connected me to the gold of pranayama yoga, so a big thanks goes out to you.


  • sitting bull 16:07 on 2018-07-09 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: concepts, imposition, liberation, rape, shift of consciousness, ,   

    unorthodox angles to common concepts: imposition, violation and rape 

    The obvious current consensus about violations – by far not only sexual ones – is to ensure that the perpetrators are brought to justice and therewith society is protected.
    Whilst this is a necessary line of action it only gives little comfort to the victims, so this article is about the exploration and helpful angles to bring comfort to the ones on the receiving end.

    There are two ways a violated person has access to their trauma:
    Either in remembering clearly what happened, or in finding out – often years or decades later – by indicators, that something went wrong and then reconstructing it.

    In both cases the esoteric analysis is the same – it is a case of a violation of the root- or sex-chakra which obviously is associated with those organs, yet it also has to do with an imposition of willpower to the extend that the self-perception is distorted up to such an extend that some people dwell in compensatory behaviours for the rest of their lives. (Often those are the ones who dream big and unfortunately rarely succeed, unless they follow the path lined out in this article.)

    Here a quick word to the perpetrators who have no sense of the more subtle psychic powers and deem a violation as a mere temporary discomfort of the victim, just as it is only a temporary feeling of pleasure to them to physically abuse them:
    The earlier a still developing personality is stomped on, the deeper the impression usually is and the longer it can last.

    So what, from a victim’s perspective could be done to resolve this issue for good?
    To forgive and move on is a good step in mild cases such as unpleasant sex in a relationship for example, but hardly enough for profound rape cases.
    So a mere glossing over won’t work, but what will do, is to even use that dynamics to ones own advantage by facing very unpleasant facts and taking the consequences:

    One possibility is to see everything as a reflection of ones own energy and therewith acknowledge that there is an internal aspect which did attract this seeming “blow of fate”. A Hindu who believes in reincarnation once said that if ones “axis of evil” is predominant, one may have been a criminal in one life, and in the next life a policeman, but as long as this axis still exists that person in the next life might become a criminal again.
    So it could be (and I am merely pointing to a possibility) that the victim’s axis of imposed will is still unresolved, which would explain cases in which some people were raped at multiple occasions, which statistically would be impossible else-wise.

    Another possibility is for the victims who vaguely did reconstruct their own dilemma, to having concretised an attack on their willpower by giving it a definite scenario, whilst in fact the violation may have been on a much more subtle level, such as a long-term suppression of their will. This of course is very thin ice to treat on, because it would give any legal defender the right to dismiss any cause, but since this is about own rehabilitation, the focus here is on the solution to that issue, so let’s take a scenario:

    A father with a strong male dominant energy might have raised his kid (maybe even well meaning) too harshly, by dismissing the sensitive needs of his child for decades.
    So this kid who later does a deep soul search into the reasons of its underdeveloped personality-trades could reconstruct it as a definite physical violation –
    and cases like this have been known where children did project their issues falsely  onto the therapist who dealt with this issue.
    (This of course seems like an irony of fate – except if  the therapists well-intended work would also be interpreted as a residual involvement in this issue).

    This was merely the point of view on the root-cause of the issue, but the by far more important part for the damaged is how to deal with this issue from now on:

    First of all a blame of the perpetrator is merely beneficial to strengthen the legal system,
    but thereafter, the much larger and much more important part is to search for constructive solutions.

    The first step is one step back from the picture to see more than the pixel of the perpetrator, but the entire dynamics, so any kind of generalisation which condemns an entire group, such as “men”, “women”, specific race or age will only keep the issue burning by adding fuel to it. And so will be any decision to avoid that kind of group by becoming homosexual or racist if it happened only out of an aversion to bad experiences.

    The second step is to look at own involvements in this terrible experience – a step of honesty which usually is the most painful one, but as it is said: “there are always both sides involved in a conflict”, and since perpetrators usually are too little evolved to apologise or even acknowledge the huge damage they have done, there is no point in hoping for a consolation from them,
    but now comes a very positive new aspect to the chances behind this pain:

    There is an outer and an inner will, which these days is often called “the ego” vs “the true self”, and the aspect which only can be hurt by violations or rapes is the outer will – the self-perception which is needed to be successful in society. This is the aspect which is reinforced by well-meaning motivators, and this is the reason why some people who had been victims listen to tons of them, yet never succeed the way they envisioned to.

    This also could apply to people with no spectacular story to tell, but to some who had been squeezed into a life which was not mean to be theirs to begin with.
    Often it is a catch 22 situation in which ones self-esteem had ben knocked and thereafter this person is open to all kinds of attacks from bosses or landlords up to thugs or trolls.

    What an ignorant society, non-empathic people in charge, or rapists destroy,
    are peoples worldly life:
    their self assurance, pertness, and what one often sees in children of multimillionaires who never did experience any hardships in life.
    It is ironic that those people who never got the bitter taste of a blow in their face, are the ones who are most likely to later violate the life-force of many people who are in less fortunate positions. This can be seen in the ruthless policies of many large corporations.

    But what no one ever can take from you is the sense of your true self, your inner will, your access to the divine or however you call it, and the beauty of it is that this is what creates true happiness – not the compensatory desires of which my great grandmother said: “Nothing breeds so quickly as [external] wishes!”
    The true sense of oneself is something which is very rarely found in people and this world and is nearly never advertised, because it doesn’t sell anything.

    So what is this sense of ones true self which is glimpsed upon by many people who begin to spiritually wake up?
    You might visualise it like  personality-trades  on pieces of paper which are stacked on a piper spike, and the “real you” is not what is written on the paper, …

    … but the hole the spike created.
    This solves the mystery of all of us supposedly “being one” whilst all of us being very different.
    On somes paper is written “trans-sexual race-driver”, on another ones “arachnophobic garbage collector”, yet through both of them goes the same space, which is called by some “the divine light”, by others “the Christ consciousness”, by the third “Allah” and by the fourth “enlightenment”.

    So whilst the victims external self-perception was (maybe literally) poked in a bad way, that person now has the chance to elevate to true hights much faster than others, because those people have experienced the rupture of their clichéd self so that their sky (which most deem as their limit) has now gained a total new dimension.

    Yogananda once said that the joy of sex would pale in comparison to true enlightenment, and once one has seen the much broader dimension there is no turning back.

    William Butler once gave great comfort in saying that everyone’s soul grows toward the light, like every plant does – even the most obstructed ones. And it can be seen on the grade of their crookedness how difficult their path must have been.

    So if you are a sufferer, first of course you have to stay with your pain for as long as it takes – be it months, years, or decades.
    And at one point you have the choice:

    Do you want to restore your material life as you (or what was hammered into your brain) wanted them to be?
    Or “use the force” to move onto a spiritual dimension  by any means necessary,
    most of the  “comfort zoners” can only dream about?

    Elevating your consciousness does not guarantee instant happiness, but the new found direction may serve as pointers on a tedious, long, but in the end very path to self-discovery.

    After all, “the best revenge is to lead a great life“.


  • sitting bull 17:27 on 2018-07-02 Permalink | Reply
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    Keys to understanding the universe #0:penness 


    Chapter 0:penness
    Chapter 1: reflection, contemplation, meditation
    Chapter 2: left, up, down, right
    Chapter 3: hidden breathing techniques
    Chapter 4: the right posture

    0pennes to different world views

    This introductory chapter is numbered 0 and openness is written with a zero for an O, because if one has zero preconceptions (like a child, as Jesus said), the more open one is for  different concepts and the more tools someone has to understand the mysteries of the universe.

    We all have partial tunnel-visions which usually result in anger when being confronted with non-fitting views, but seen from a mere strategical angle it would be beneficial to utilise as many different concepts as possible in order to understand those aspects which are not covered or seen in one view.

    Examples of tunnel-visions are

    • Nationalism, because if you look at a changing world-map it is clear that borders changed all the time.
      Clinging onto a status quo from last time ones realm was biggest is holding onto a stage which by now is obsolete and very likely not to return again. This creates a stagnated freeze which in turn does not allow for a free-flow of changes in time.

    • Racism falls in the same category and only creates a fear or aversion against the unknown which then inhibits ones in-sight into different ways to handle life.

    • Materialism initially seems to be the clearest way to look at things as they are,
      but the inherent dismissal of spiritual concepts (which the following series is all about) deprives one from accessing principles, which can give one a simple way to work out many issues without having to resort to contemporary researches (which often try to reinvent the wheel),
      plus one has to remember much less facts, because one can work things out by oneself. One of such principles is the yin and yang symbol for example with which one can understand the seasons, the menstrual cycle, and much more, without the need to learn tons of facts


    • Whilst a dismissal of superstitious concepts is important not to fall for any kind of fear-mongering, a rigid aversion could deprive one from accessing lateral thinking by seeing things from a total new (lateral) angle.
      A good example is the often laughed upon astrology due to the many simplistic short-time predictions which can be found in superficial magazines.
      But when understanding that astrology is not all about that one sun-starsign, but about a general display of the quality in time (in opposition to our chronological measurement of quantity), one has a less fatalistic access by being able to put ones actions into a larger context.
      So if for example someone has an interaction between (the highly energetic) Mars and (strongly blocking) Saturn energy, one can not exactly predict the future, but see that at a certain time one could have a car-accident if not careful, but also turn it around to ones advantage by doing martial arts where one has to (saturnically) block ones (marsian) punches voluntarily, so one could even win a tournament around that time.
    • Upholding ones own religion as the only one in my view is a result of a mere childhood-conditioning (which if born into another family would turn out totally different) and thereafter reinforcement of ones own believes because believe-systems are nourished and reinforced by fellow believers.
      Often this is due to the humanised concept of the divine, because our inability to grasp the aspect of the higher self.
      This lead to exclusion of other personified gods, but when viewing religions as a “welcome mat to ourselves” as Adyashanti said, then agnostics (who leave religious concepts aside) very often are as geared towards their higher self when following their ethics. Vice versa – due to their lack of being able to relax into a parental care of a god, they often are much more about their own authenticity as orthodox believers are.
      Another aspect of misunderstanding is the fact that gearing towards the divine (or higher self) is propagated by total focus on that one god which then was often misunderstood by that god being the only real one, whilst the original agendas usually were to get people focussed on the path of their higher selves. This is what the many hypocritical atrocities of religious wars created.

    Start here with the first part about reflection, contemplation and meditation ->

    • David Cook 1:15 on 2018-07-07 Permalink | Reply

      The History of the World was amazing! Thank you


      • sitting bull 1:17 on 2018-07-07 Permalink | Reply

        yeah, David I think so too – this literally did open my mind to how irrelevant todays status quo is.


  • sitting bull 0:20 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: central channel, , emerald tablets, , Ida, , Naadis, Pinglaa, shaivinism, , Susumnaa   

    Keys to understanding the universe #2 : left, up, down, right 

    In the first chapter meditation was explained as bringing one to the middle (medi),
    the center point of a cross, to see all perspectives
    So what are the horizontal and vertical directions?

    2a.) The principle of up and down movements

    In the Emerald Tablets, Hermes Trismegistus,
    (a combination of the Greek god Hermes and the ancient Egyptian god Thoth), said:

    That which is below is like that which is above & that which is above is like that which is below to do the miracles of one only thing
    And as all things have been & arose from one by the mediation of one: so all things have their birth from this one thing by adaptation.
    The Sun is its father, the moon its mother, the wind hath carried it in its belly, the earth is its nurse.
    The father of all perfection in the whole world is here.
    Its force or power is entire if it be converted into earth.
    Separate thou the earth from the fire, the subtle from the gross sweetly with great industry.
    It ascends from the earth to the heaven & again it descends to the earth & receives the force of things superior & inferior.
    By this means you shall have the glory of the whole world
    & thereby all obscurity shall fly from you.
    Its force is above all force. For it vanquishes every subtle thing & penetrates every solid thing.

    Those are wisdoms which often are used in alchemy  or occultism (which is nothing dark as such, but simply means “hidden”). Alechemy is more about inner transformations than outer ones, so this cryptic text also describes the workings of “qi” (the body life-force in Chinese Medicine) or “prana” (the breath-life force in Indian ayurveda).

    In Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) there are vertical relations of upper, middle and lower body, called the 3 Dantians – upper, middle and lower body. This is sometimes reflected in Chinese pictures where below is a swamp, in the middle an ox working its way up and in the top a pearl (of enlightenment).

    The energy is internally purified by “separating the subtle from the gross“. This is exactly what the intestines do – to separate the useful food from the useless stools.

    The ability to separate valuable thoughts from non-applicable information without even being able to explain it intellectually is called intuition (meaning the ability to give tuition to oneself). This ability is called Viveka in Indian terms – the ability to discriminate – a term which in the West unfortunately has mostly a negative connotation.
    And because this ability resides in the intestines, it is called the “gut-feeling”.

    The reasons why women are born with a better access to their intuition is because the heart, where thoughts reside is a bag full of blood, and the only part below the diaphragm (the surface of the water above which the intellect and below which the intuition can be found) is the uterus.
    Hence in old days when hysterectomy was performed, side effects could have been for a woman to become hysterically.
    In later years the access depends on how much the intuition was shined upon or dismissed by rational dismissal. Hence the gender gap becomes more irrelevant later.

    This is why in Sodarshan Chakra Kriya one has to hold the breath (and therewith thoughts) and then pump the belly whilst gearing to the higher self by silently chanting the mantra “god” (Wahe Guru). Since thinking seems to manifest to me similar to hearing, I “hear” a thought mantra. Once in 24 years only I was blissed to hear that mantra not within my brain but from the belly.

    2b.) The left-right-center relationship

    Whenever you see a lateral relationship, there is usually a concern about the right interaction with the world (in opposite to the vertical concern about the higher self).
    This usually resorts in strong ethics, as it is promoted in one of the oldest religions, called  Zoroastrianism, as can be seen by the wings on their main symbol, the Farahavar:

    Those wings are probably better known from ancient egypt, and knowledge from it is in occult work, Rosicrucianism or Magic mixed together with the ancient Kabbalah, as one can see in the picture below.

    In the Jewish Kabbalah there are vertically 3 pillars: Left judgement, right mercy, and in the middle the neutral clarity, which is the highest spiritual goal in order to see the world for what it truly is.

    Surprisingly, severity is the female side and mercy the male aspect. This can be better understood if one conteplates upon the yin and yang qualities, because yin is descending and “knocking down” and yang ascending and merciful uplifting.
    So those principles should preferably be detatched from genders.

    At this site, Chhinnamasta, the goddess which conveys spiritual self-realization and the awakening of the kundalini – spiritual energy  is described through the Nadis (Indian medicinal channels):

    The three streams of blood can be understood by the Nadi system in our body. These three streams are Naadis: lateral ones are the Ida and Pinglaa (left and right) Naadis; the central one is the Susumnaa Naadi. Head is the cortex and brain, the seat of desires. Susumnaa Naadi rises through the brain which receives nourishment form central stream of blood. Spirit (Kundalini goddess) rises to the top of the head through the roof of the mouth; severed head represents severed mind- Amanska, a state of paucity of mental functions conducive to higher states of consciousness, whose destination is Parasiva (absolute reality). The Naadis break through the grantha(knot) in the Chakras and lift off the head, the seat of human consciousness. Chhinmastaa represents Susumnaa Nadi, Varnini, the Pingalaa Naadi, and Daakini, the Ida Naadi.

    Similarly in Chinese Medicine there are left-right-relationships which are seen in the pulse diagnosis where the left side reflects the blood whilst the right side the (ener)qi.
    (Interestingly the blood side is the cooling side, because the Qi is warming).

    In an alchemistical text ascribed to Marsilio Ficino three suns are described: black, white, and red, corresponding to the three most used alchemical color stages.

    Also in the Bhagavad Gita chapter 14 tose three aspects are seen as Gunas:
    The dull (black) aspect is called Tamas , the heated (red) one Rajas and he pure one Sattva are summed up as follows:

    Purity, Passion and Ignorance are the Qualities which the Law of nature bringeth forth.
    Purity, being luminous, strong and invulnerable, binds one by its yearning for happiness and illumination.
    Passion, engendered by thirst for pleasure and attachment, binds the soul through its fondness for activity.
    But Ignorance, the product of darkness, stupefies the senses in all embodied beings, binding them by chains of folly, indolence and lethargy.

    Purity brings happiness, Passion commotion, and Ignorance, which obscures wisdom, leads to a life of failure.
    Purity prevails when Passion and Ignorance are overcome;
    Passion, when Purity and Ignorance are overcome;
    and Ignorance when it overcomes Purity and Passion.

    When the light of knowledge gleams forth from all the gates of the body, then be sure that Purity prevails.
    the impulse to act and the beginning of action itself are all due to the dominance of Passion.
    Darkness, stagnation, folly and infatuation are the result of the dominance of Ignorance
    When Purity prevails, the soul on quitting the body passes on to the pure regions where live those who know the Highest.
    When Passion prevails, the soul is reborn among those who love activity;
    when Ignorance rules, it enters the wombs of the ignorant.

    They say the fruit of a meritorious action is spotless and full of purity;
    the outcome of Passion is misery,
    and of Ignorance darkness.

    Purity engenders Wisdom,
    Passion avarice,
    and Ignorance folly, infatuation and darkness.

    When Purity is in the ascendant, the man evolves;
    when Passion, he neither evolves nor degenerates;
    when Ignorance, he is lost.
    By what signs can he who has transcended the Qualities be recognized?
    He who shuns not the Quality which is present, and longs not for that which is absent; He who maintains an attitude of indifference, who is not disturbed by the Qualities, who realises that it is only they who act, and remains calm; Who accepts pain and pleasure as it comes, is centred in his Self, to whom a piece of clay or stone or gold are the same, who neither likes nor dislikes, who is steadfast, indifferent alike to praise or censure; Who looks equally upon honour and dishonour, loves friends and foes alike, abandons all initiative, such is he who transcends the Qualities. And he who serves Me and only Me, with unfaltering devotion, shall overcome the Qualities, and become One with the Eternal. For I am the Home of the Spirit, the continual Source of immortality, of eternal Righteousness and of infinite Joy.”

    Those 3 aspects and colors black, white, red are found in the last century German- (and later also Nazi-) flag, the brothers Grimm fairy tale of Snow White when a queen sits sewing at an open window during a winter snowfall when she pricks her finger with her needle, causing three drops of red blood to drip onto the freshly fallen white snow on the black windowsill. Then, she says to herself, “How I wish that I had a daughter that had skin as white as snow, lips as red as blood, and hair as black as ebony.”

    The dualistic enslaved satan-principle for example is depicted in red and black colours whilst the angelic wise god-principle is portrayed in white. (“weiss”= white in German, “weis” relates to wise or knowing) Hence we probably have old tales about “fair” women which later was misunderstood for white skinned people being superior.

    So the satanic principle, which by superstitious people taken as a literal person, is rather a depiction of the tragic turmoil between the choleric-fiery red and dumb-lazy black side, just as the consumption of fiery drugs, such as cocaine or hard alcohol do, which initially give you a feeling of strength through assertiveness, but later have to be payed for with bad and sometimes long lasting physical or emotional hangovers.
    The center path of neutral and divine wisdom is depicted as white – the color of the divine or saints for example. 

    And here is a brilliant article about the same aspect in Kashmir Shaivism: the 3 godesses: Para, Apara and Parapara.

    There are two ways to reach that neutral wisdom:
    Either by total dedication towards the divine,
    or by ways to energetically rebalance oneself,
    which I will write about in the next articles.

    < previous chapter #1 about reflection, contemplation and meditation

    • David Cook 1:48 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply

      Interesting info from Chhinnamasta about the 3 nadis and makes total sense when we read “the breath is held in the central channel…”


      • sitting bull 8:22 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply

        For anyone reading the comments:

        David is the one who inspired me to write this entire series on spiritual principles and who contributed much (upcoming) information to it.

        I can only recommend you to connect to him by either answering to his comments or sending a mail through the contact form which I will forward to him straight away.


    • Jen Kennedy 0:09 on 2018-07-01 Permalink | Reply

      This post is so genius, I remember reading it yesterday thinking I really don’t know how to respond and where to even start!

      Liked by 1 person

      • sitting bull 0:30 on 2018-07-01 Permalink | Reply

        Aw thanks, Jen – I am really grateful, because I was concerned about overwhelming people with too many belief-systems, which is why I literally am writing a new article which I want to post before this one in this series – hence I renamed it to #3 instead of 2.

        Actually, this is compressed knowledge I accumulated in my spiritual search for half my life, and I nearly would have not put into a blog post, because I did consider writing a book on it.
        But my conclusion was to walk the walk and not hold back for reputation or financial gain but to share as much as possible without delay,
        so that together we can beat the veil of ignorance which makes us and others suffer, and elevate together and each other.
        After all, as native American Indians said. “we are all eyes of the same head”.

        And btw: I like the authenticity of your blog – I am sure you speak the mind of a lot of sensitive people who don’t have your capability to express themselves as well as you do.

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        • Jen Kennedy 1:47 on 2018-07-01 Permalink | Reply

          Definitely start up on that book! This is great info for sure! But posting in advance to get the info out sooner is great too! It’s definitely needed.

          I can see why this would be overwhelming because there’s a lot of information to process especially for those who are not quite consciously evolved.
          And thanks, I think authenticity is very essential in writing. I try to speak for others in the best way possible. 🙂

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    • J V Avadhanulu 20:27 on 2018-07-02 Permalink | Reply

      Your blog is mind-blowing for me and I am grateful for the education, enlightenment and inspiration.
      The posts are so well researched, erudite and the interpretations and expression is original, engaging and riveting. I realize that you are a scholar in your own right and I am lucky that you reconnected with me.
      I think the blog you are doing is the perfect choice! Eventually, you may consolidate it into a book.

      This article is interesting and very educational for me. I congratulate you on this very original thoughts, interpretations and the way it is all put together. I wonder if you would like to interpret Swastika which appears to be one of the most ancient symbols and in many cultures, religions and regions. You may see some information at https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swastika#cite_note-Sullivan2001p216-1
      and https://www.speakingtree.in/allslides/unknown-history-of-swastika/228532
      I would especially like to know your interpretative of the swastika symbol and especially the right angled turn.

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      • sitting bull 20:40 on 2018-07-02 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you – I am truly flattered that such as an experienced practitioner like yourself gave me the best compliment ever!

        And it is humbling that and on top of that you even ask me for my opinion on a subject about about your heritage.

        I have to admit that I never did thorough research on the swastika, even though I should, considering my own heritage. But you will inspire me to look into it after I finished this article series (which might take a while). If we are lucky this even fits into it.

        And for anyone reading this:
        I have highest regards for the humbleness and experience of JV Avadhanulu who has a long experience in prana-yoga – up to the point that he looked like 40 when he was 60.
        In case anyone wants to get advice from him ,
        you can contact him at the contact form of this site.


  • sitting bull 20:18 on 2018-06-26 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , centre, , , cross, heart-brain-connection, , reflection, rosicrucianism,   

    Keys to understanding the universe #1 : reflection, contemplation, meditation 

    <- To ease you into this series you may read the introduction about openness.

    Whilst life is a mystery to us, it is merely the result of complex interleaving of multiple factors – most of them rooted in very deep subconscious decisions we my have made long time ago – so deep in fact that in the end we resort to a worldview of “fate” or hope for divine “mercy” of an external authoritative presence.

    You can observe such mysterious changes in personality when you
    1.) first consciously change your behaviour as a consequence,
    (which can happen hundreds of times back and forth until it manifests in step 2)
    2.) and when the decision is final, someone just does something subconsciously without even talking about it anymore.
    It can be a relieve of a large burden,
    but when accompanied by bitterness can drive one into psychological or physical pathologies.
    This is the time when the character is formed.

    Changes in character are difficult to accomplish consciously, yet there are ways to entangle the situation we manoeuvred ourselves into,
    and the striking similarities between the different teachings from east and west suggest that there are root-principles, which when followed can guide someone out of this mystery of our ignorance.

    If you look at an iceberg to see the relationship between the visible consciousness above the water …

    … and the much larger invisible subconscious part under water.
    So it is clear that the root-work has to be done in the realm of the subconsciousness.

    As “all roads lead to Rome” there is not only one path to “one truth”, but there are as many truths as we are humans on this planet, so before commenting on yours being the best, please read the entire series first, so that you can comment on the article which describes a way closest to yours.

    1.) The principle of reflection, contemplation and meditation

    Action is the yang principle of the sun: to simply shine and literally radiate.
    Reflection is the yin principle of the moon: to reflect what happened. This is the realm of therapy and a good therapist enables the patient or client to reflect upon themselves to guide the intellectual thoughts deeper into the realm of contemplation.

    A hermit was once asked why he would live in solitude,
    but instead of answering he took the traveller to a well, through in a stone, and asked him what he would see.
    The wanderer replied “I see ripples upon the water“,
    and when the waves calmed down he asked him again, so the visitor replied:
    “I see a reflection of myself“.
    So the hermit told him: “As soon as the waves of the mind calm down, you see yourself.” ( One of the most important Greek aphorisms is: “know thyself“)

    Whilst reflection is a passive way, contemplation is a chosen activity to decide willfully to stay with a specific theme of choice with patience  for a long time. Both ways serve as a mediator between the consciousness and the subconsciousness and both ways are interwoven because one can not force thoughts but has to attract them in order to reflect upon them.

    One hinderance in a good reflection an entire picture is the hinderance in sight, because if you are in a tunnel, all you get is a literal “tunnel-vision”, so the way to see as many perspectives as possible in traffic is to stand in the middle of a crossroad.

    “Medi” means “in the middle” in latin. Hence the word “medicine” refers to being healthy when being in ones centre, and “meditation” is the art of centring oneself in order to be able to see as many perspectives as possible and therewith see the world “as it is” and not as we construct it to be out of our ignorance.

    This also explains the symbol of the cross, which by no means is only used in Christianity, but also by Rosicrucians for example. Whilst the physical centre is in the belly, in other directions, it is considered the heart, which even in ancient Egypt was called “the second brain”.

    Gregg Braden  does emphasize a lot on the heart-brain connection, and the loss of it is the root of most external and internal suffering in this world.
    Compassion (as was propagated by most religions before they became fossilized) is a good method to reclaim it,
    and Buddhists like Thích Nhất Hạnh or the Dalai Lama put a great emphasis on it.

    For rational inclined people meditation is the most difficult concept to grasp, and will seem for quite a while as a waste of time, so to beginners it is usually sold as being relaxing or empowering one to become more efficient. Whilst both is true, it does much more, just as serveing as a “time-box” for example, in which one puts all their internal turmoils in order to be able not to be disturbed by them in daily life.

    The easiest way to start to meditate is to sit down for a minute and observe the breath, because one can breath consciously as well as subconsciously, so it serves as an intermediator between both worlds.
    Meanwhile one can also let the thoughts run out by simply not putting more oil in the flames, so when in meditation thoughts of the next shopping come up, simply don’t follow it up by compiling a grocery-list, but postpone that thought for later and move back to the focus on this moment.

    As for the length: If you increase your meditation time (in a spreadsheet for example) by only 1 second more daily, it mounts up to 7-8 minutes in the first month, 5-6 minutes per week in the second month, and as the time increases you will automatically grow into a more regular mediation practice in order not to have to catch up too much until you can do a minute more daily every two months.
    To avoid those complicated calculations, you can strive to meditate for as long as you like on the first month, in the second month try to do it weekly, and from the third month on to do go for 2 minutes daily, increasing the time by 1 minute every two months, or by 6 minutes every year.

    The easiest time to meditate is before dawn, the second best after dusk and the most difficult one is amongst non-meditators. And to meditate a little daily is more valuable then to do lots only once in a while, because your character is tuned up by it consistently.

    Meditation, contemplation and reflection were and are done intuitively in natural cultures and are pushed into marginalisation by our first world agenda to constantly prioritise efficiency in order to maximise profits (which then usually end up to serve merely as a compensations for our lost holistic happiness of being connected with everything).

    < Introductory chapter #0     …  Chapter# 2 >

    • jvavadhanulu 16:22 on 2018-06-27 Permalink | Reply

      A succinct and simple introduction to meditation. Thank you.
      “Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication”


    • sitting bull 16:43 on 2018-06-27 Permalink | Reply

      Uhh – wise words from a wise man! thank you ❤


    • J V Avadhanulu 20:04 on 2018-07-03 Permalink | Reply

      I read this earlier , but in isolation. Now, when I read after the earlier postings, I like it even more. It is very interesting and it its simplicity reflects not only the ultimate sophistication (Leonardo Da Vinci) but also the brilliance. Lucky to read this. Thank you


      • sitting bull 23:00 on 2018-07-03 Permalink | Reply

        Thanks JV, I come from being extremely extrovert, but since the Kriya does balance me out it gave me the sensitivity to feel what got people impatient, so I had to practice for a decade to constrain my words by reducing them to the essence of what I wanted to say.
        This is a good example how yoga does bring one into balance – an introvert probably would have learned to speak up more and in the end probably could have written a similar article.


  • sitting bull 14:32 on 2018-06-25 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: dignity, , meaning, ,   

    The chances in dis-abilities 

    A terrible decade of constant aggravated misfortunes did one day result in a literal breakdown in the midst of my apartment, so I did break my back and a few years later I had a stroke and two cerebral haemorrhages which totally debilitated me up to the point that I could speak only slurred and had to crawl on the floor.

    Usually I wouldn’t write such a personal note on this meditation blog, but since Amy just followed me, who runs the blog myCerebellarStrokeRecovery, I would like to share with her and all of you an aspect of sickness, which at these times, when measuring each other on the scale of ones contribution to the national gross-income, is overlooked:

    As the word suggests, a disease means an absence of ease which suggests that health is an effortless zone – something we totally forgot when associating work with unpleasant tasks or being bossed around. The still Tai-Qi version, Qi-Gong, for example means “work on (ener)Qi”, so work does not always have to be hard.

    We are so tightly screwed into the network of civilisation we can not escape from (because we need the money, our friends expect us to behave one way, our relatives another way, and if we defend our space we would aggravate the zeitgeist-pressure by pushing others into a similar corner we are in). So hardly anyone dares to reclaim ones own personal space radically anymore asCharles Xavier did in the movie “Wanted” :

    So we pile sickening issues on top of more sickening issues until they issue sickness,
    which is a cry of the soul not to continue on the old path.

    Books on this have been written for example by Louise Hay in “you can heal your life”, by Rüdiger Dahlke and others.

    So what’s the takeaway when you are disabled up to the point of being unable to work anymore? The first one, which concerns everyone is patience.
    Healing takes tremendous time and one may consider their career etc to be over, because it looks like being thrown out of a high-speed train and just able to watch it pass by for months, years and decades.

    But there is also a bright side, which is not a consolation, but an actual bliss.

    Because everyone’s self-chosen life-lesson is different,  I want to share with you my personal one, and yours may be different.

    When looking closely, my health problems did not start my change, but did slowly even follow them, meaning, if I would have been a bit more alert, I probably could have prevented some of them – but then again – changes always take a while, so I am not certain whether it would have been to late anyway.

    However, my breakdown came after a tremendous family-crisis and my stroke straight after I had enough of my life and did walk the camino de Santiago twice within a year, so both incidents would have called for an instant change, but just like a frog, which is put in cold water and boiled slowly, stays into the water, it was never hot enough yet (as it is for any frog thrown into boiling water).
    In other words: I did not have the sense of self needed to distance myself from a “life in the wrong dimension”.

    Due to our ethics we feel obliged not to leave friends & family behind which often – along with fears of change, failure and success – make it impossible to get out of our hell. Plus I was in my comfort-zone which only due to the dis-ease was shaken up.

    But the question for me was: Where can I go if I did hate the place I do live in with passion and could not relate to the people around me?
    Slowly it dawned upon me that if my financial situation does not allow me to move back and forth, neither left or right, then the only direction is up … into the spiritual realm which means: Up to the divine or up into the realm of my higher self.

    So my first decision was after my stroke in 2012: If something in my brain died, then I will decide what died and because I was a big moaner beforehand, I chose to let the part of the brain die which is related to victim-consciousness, so whenever some frustration, anger, sadness etc… came up, I did conjure up an image of piling my problems of the compost heap of last year (which was 2011).

    This then brought up a total new challenge: If I really was to be free from the suffering-tune, ie. if I was not to tune into suffering anymore, I had to forgive all the people who id hurt me in the past – something no ones ego likes, but I did it for myself, not necessarily for them, and it was good to see that it was a win-win, dissolving many mental knots for all sides.

    Then I rebelled against my disease one final time and walked along the Danube (with walking sticks for my back) for 4 months. But since this did not bring any life-changing results I took the time which was given to me (by not having to work) to develop a plan (and I am very aware how blessed I am to live in a rare part of the world where people with health-issues are supported financially by the government).
    As you read this, you are sitting in the midst of this plan, because it is this “Sodarshan Chakra Project” I outlined on the right margin of this site.

    First I could literally only sit for 10 minutes, because of my back and thought that with that damage my Kundalini would never rise again, but JV, an Indian Pranayama practitioner from Auroville gave me great comfort by telling me that this energy would flow in different paths, so I continued the practice.

    My only task from 2014-2017 was to do the tiny morning session and knowing that Sodarshan Chakra Kriya brings up a pile of emotions, I started to allow myself a lot of “me-time” to just hang around and get over the feeling of guilt that I am living at the expense of others – feelings which constantly were aggravated by accusations of nearby people (who usually ask: “how do you do?”, and straightaway “what do you do?”)

    But what helped me was to see the bigger picture, which usually happens when you step back from it and are not a mere pixel of the zeitgeist anymore.
    I saw how absurd society works, that nearly everything which is accomplished is done at the expense of the environment or third-world-slaves, and how absurd a dogma is, which calls for participation in a game where tens of thousands of never-used cars (which btw, use up as much air in a minute than 20 humans breath in an hour) are overproduced, equally food is destroyed, as much electricity on Bitcoins is wasted, as the Iraq needs in a year, or that 8 billionaires have as much as 4 billion of the poorest humans together.

    I then sat down and thought about the purpose in my life and came to following conclusions:

    • Since everything in nature cycles (water falls down, streams in a river, condenses and comes back as a raindrop), why now also our soul?
      If I choose to look at my life from a point of reincarnation

      • there is much less pressure to perform excellent in this life,
      • and I also can attribute external and internal problems to my own longterm imbalances.
    • Seeing the world as a reflection of my mind, makes it easier to deal with people who can not understand why I am suddenly not performing as well anymore as I did just a while ago. After all I attracted like-minded people back then, so obviously they still are shadows of my past.
    • Focussing on meaningfulness in life is by far more important than financial success, so a day in which I did comfort one person is more worth to me than one in which a million plastic penguins are sold to tourists only to be thrown away soon afterwards anyway.

    The first years were a constant struggle to satisfy the needs of others,
    to perform well in re-remembering the thousand things I had in my household, their names, their relationships,
    but slowly I would say that I would not miss that experience of having exchanged my sharpness and youthful attitude and looks for a profoundness which was called for in my age (of half a century) anyway.

    Vice versa: Whilst I see many people who are successful in promoting the happiness of their healthy spiritual modern lifestyle, I also see that their attachment to pleasures and vanity is still strong enough from totally dedicating themselves to their own spiritual progress – and I am not feeling better than them – if everything would have gone my way, it is very unlikely I would have walked this path of earnestness.

    By sweeping me of my feet, my cerebral haemorrhages taught me non-attachment to the self constructed rails of my egotistical delusions.

    Very slowly – after years of being honest with myself and admitting my faults –  an inner strength and bliss in the form of dignity seems to dawn upon me in near future and I am grateful for it.




    • David Nolan Cook 22:17 on 2018-06-26 Permalink | Reply

      Thilo, amazing to read and inspiring. I have no doubt SCK aided your recovery, Yoga is powerful once it gets inside your head…

      Liked by 1 person

    • Samrat 11:13 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply

      Such a wonderful read . Inspiring and down to earth . All best for your practice 🙏

      Liked by 1 person

    • Amy 23:52 on 2018-06-29 Permalink | Reply

      Thank you for writing this.

      Liked by 1 person

      • sitting bull 8:35 on 2018-06-30 Permalink | Reply

        Well, thank YOU Amy, because reading about fellow sufferers with similar issues in your blog did give me the strength of having a justification I needed.

        A justification against those people, who have not found their sense of self yet
        (and therefore define themselves on the amount of their work)
        who hold up the standards of having to bite ones teeth in order to contribute as much to the national gross income as they do .

        Thích Nhất Hạnh wrote that people should only work for 4 hours daily and spend the rest with themselves (reflecting,contemplating or meditating) – a concept which is totally overlooked in our pragmatic and efficient society.


  • sitting bull 1:19 on 2018-05-08 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: cultural appropriation, cultural imposition, , , , tantra, ,   

    The lesser known history of Yogi Bhajan part 5 – his biggest mistake: religion 

    You may be firm with the psychological term “alter-ego”, but there is an aspect I see which seems not to be recognised too often:

    The alter-ego of any winner are the losers s/he did need in order to succeed.
    Same applies to anyone claiming the astrological sun-aspect for themselves (which is often taught in 3HO. (This did suit the “american dream” or “reinventing” oneself and “help yourself then god will help you”.)
    However, when there is an overbearing and ever gloating member in your circle of friends or your family you usually end up being the one pushed down the gutter of marginalisation for not being able to live up to it. And this is why there are quite a few frustrated enemies of 3HO out there who were used, pushed aside, or their realm (like the Sikh religion for example) was claimed by 3HO.

    But you may be surprised that not the dark sides of Yogi Bhajan are adressed here, but a huge lost opportunity which did nullify much of what could have been accomplished.
    It is about what was written in this previously reblogged article, or Turning Yogis into Khalsa Sikhs (as found on thefullwiki.org): 

    Yogi Bhajan in his own words:

    Religion has done the worst. What religion has done is to create the mental coercive state of slaves. Religion didn’t do something to free somebody. It didn’t say: “Go ahead and be!

    So he exactly saw and knew what kind of disasters were and are created in the names of religion – from crusades up to todays terrorism, from the Israel-Palestine-conflict up to the plenty of wars which today are held in the disguise in religion – he knew it and saw it clearly! Yet he continued to precede to contribute towards this problem. This in my eyes is terrible and like someone without even the excuse of having another belief or being in ignorance continues to damage people all for the sake of his own benefit.

    It’s like some of the senior 3HO teachers recognising how our earth is destructed but still continue to create huge ecological footprints by flying over to India in the morning, lecturing there, and flying back in the same evening in order to avoid a jetlag. Do they really think that a Westerners lectures on yoga are the only valuable ones in India?

    Harbhajan Singh Khalsa (Yogi Bhajan) btw, used his extensive flights around the globe (all as a first class VIP with special treatments) to excuse the fact that he – despite knowing all those health-promoting yoga-exercises: – got a heart disease which made him – the teacher of prana – require a protective respirator.
    (And I don’t say this out of spite, but simply to scale his fruits with the many healthclaims of Kundalini-Yoga practicioners.)

    When I came to the United States and I became a Sikh and all that, religion was forced on us. You know I am very anti-religion and I studied all the religions. I know all the loopholes. And I have studied every religion.

    So by the “country of the free” he felt pushed into a position in which the US-laws of “religious freedom” would give him most power (to become a Minister), and also the freedom (to also get green-cards of foreigners). He opportunistically “used the force” – and here is how he did it:

    “I said to myself, ‘Why we have to be Sikhs? What nonsense is this? Forget it!’ Then I looked at myself and said, ‘Wait a minute. There is one way to do it: Give them Baanaa (Distinctive and Gracious Attire). Give them Baanee (Songs of Self-counsel and Inspiration). Give them Seva (A Culture of Service). Give them Simran (Remembrance of the Self in Totality). Put them out in the market. And if by self-awareness they can survive, they will automatically become intuitive.’

    “I took a very calculated risk. I said, ‘No Sikhs. I don’t want to have Sikhs. Sikhs for what?’ But I said, ‘If they can stand under 250 million Americans, totally living differently, dealing differently, not saying “Hello” but saying “Sat Nam”, let us see what happens.’

    “Well, some people came out really great. And it’s true if you get into yourself in totality, you will have reality.” 

    “Calculated risk” are the keywords here: It seems that he knew the tricks of giving Americans what they liked in order to make them oblivious for the fact that he threw them out of the frying pan of orthodox Christianity into the fire of breath (and the next religion.

    He therewith did miss the probably biggest opportunity to loosen spirituality from its religious chains and therewith really create a “new age” just as it is done in Auroville for example.

    Facts are that:

    • Original Sikhism as such does not promote yoga – something many orthodox Sikhs are now angered about when they are overflooded by 3HO instead of Sikh websites;
    • Sikhism also does not call to wear all white – their rule actually is to wear white underwear which is why traditional Sikhs wear all kinds of coloured clothes and turbans.
    • Kundalini Yoga first was mentioned first around the year 700 and therewith is by no means thousands of years old; (source: https://youtu.be/Zwzt9XtSq5Q )
      Yes, the vedic or tantric roots are, but that should be distinguished properly in order to avoid confusion.
    • What Yogi Bhajan taught is NOT traditional Kundalini Yoga, but a mixture of Yoga he learned from his Hindu-Yoga teacher or mere Tantric teachings – teachings which originally was not at all connected to the overly rigid lifestyle he did attach to it. (source: http://yogamag.net/archives/2007/cmar07/tamin.shtml )
      In fact there is no other source to his kriyas than Yogi Bhajan’s. Something which should make one suspicious about the originality of such exercises.

    What first started as a cultural imposition on behalf of Yogi Bhajan, did end as a cultural appropriation by non-indian members of their self-created Sikh-branch.

    Step back for a second and look how many white Western people, how many black members and how many Indian Sikhs  are in 3HO. I only so far saw 3 not-all-white people and no Indian whatsoever. (And I am saying this being white myself, btw.)
    Doesn’t that make you suspicious that no single Indian Sikh ever joined 3HO?

    I saw him coming over to Great Britain, holding a lecture in two original Sikh Gurdwaras and since I drove them around in London for a week, I did what 3HO did – rushed into the religious ceremony – us white dressed paler than pale people standing out – then waiting until he held his speech – and then leaving in the midst of this ceremony in a fashion which might be common in India but considered to be respectless in the West.

    He then would could sit in an separate room with religious leaders whilst the common Indian Sikhs ate down in the hall (where I also ate out of embarrassment of 3HO’s elitism.

    If I was cynical I even could draw a comparison to a German national leader in my grandfathers times who also came from another nation, was dark haired, used ancient Indian wisdom and spirituality to worldly enforce changes, and denied half of is own past in order to lead people who were not of his liking.

    But a nicer comparison would be that to Einstein, Heisenberg and Bohr which at the same time discussed the uncertainty relations. Einstein could not endorse it because he said: “That God would choose to play dice with the world is something I cannot believe.”
    And therewith Einstein held back science as much as Yogi Bhajan held back the human spiritual liberation by not having been ready to disassociate spiritual self-realization from religion.


    Recently a huge doubt came up when I did watch the above recommended discourse about Kundalini Yoga and it was said that the Kundalini energy would connect one to one lineage by uncoiling. It then dawned upon me that there is something else going on which we as practitioners of his ways are sucked into without even being aware of it:
    We are “tuned in” (by the means of the “tuning in” with “Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo”) to the Sikh lineage, which undoubtedly acts as a constructive mind-calmer, but also sets us of into the direction of his lineage which by birth never was ours to begin with.

    This made the tune-out song “may the longtime sun shine upon you…” seem like one of those Tibetan monks chanting under the black sun in the Third Reich.

    Maybe – only maybe – my tremendous troubles which came up when doing Sodarshan Chakra Kriya were (& are) not all related to my own bad Karma being washed out, but partly due to the fact that

    • just like in this game where a child is blindfolded, spinned around –

    we are actually set into a total different direction than the biography we were on beforehand.

    I am not certain whether a Guru-worship will give the Guru power beyond his death, but most certainly people are conditioned to experience visions of the saints and teachers of the lineage they were conditioned to. Hence abrahamic saints may see Jesus, followers of  Yogananda may have contact with Mahavatar and Hindus may have visions of one their thousands of sub-divisions of the OM.

    So I did ask a senior yoga practitioner from the before mentioned Auroville if this could mean trouble,
    and I want to share the wise answer from this seasoned man with you below: (If anyone wants to be connected to JV from Auroville just contact me, and I will forward your mail or comment to him).

    “In my opinion, spirituality needs to be distinguished from religion. Though religion may be rooted in spirituality, it diverged form the core axioms, principles and goals of spirituality. For example, One-ness is a core axiom of spatiality but religion are divisive.
    Yoga is essentially a practice-based approach to spirituality, the goals being Self-realization and Union with the One. At a more understandable level, it is the alignment and integration of the 5 koshas (sheaths) of Human Being.
    Anna-maya Kosha ( physical or food-based sheath)
    Prana-maya Kosha ( Energy sheath)
    Mano-maya Kosha (mind)
    Gnana-maya Kosha (wisdom)
    Ananda-maya Kosha (Bliss)
    Kundalini Yoga is one branch of Yoga. Once you make some progress, who you were in the past doesn’t matter because you are moving towards One-ness. So, in my opinion, Yoga is open to all. Familial, social, religious and cultural conditioning will be of no consequence as you proceed in your journey.”

    JV from Auroville

    This gave me great comfort and reminded me
    of Adyashanti’s analogy in his talk “the welcome mat” that

    “Religions are like welcome mats which should guide us as into our own home,
    but unfortunately most people get stuck on worshipping the mat itself
    instead of entering through it into the realm of their own divine self.”

    And in the book “Trailanga Swami and Shankari Mataji” in the preface (p.9) is a quote from a kriyayogi about the woman – who supposedly influenced Paramhansa, Ramakrishnadev and Vivekanda:

    Shankari Ma in my opinion is not a follower of Bhakti Yoga, but is trying to solve the problem of life through complete surrender of the self to the Guru, not blindly, but with a rationalistic analysis of the problems of our lifes in its various aspects, believing that religion is an individual problem.

  • sitting bull 5:09 on 2018-05-07 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: #meToo, , accusations, corruption, , , , sexual misconduct,   

    The lesser known history of Yogi Bhajan part 4 – his dark sides 

    Now that I did prepare you gently by showing you some discrepancies in Yogi Bhajan’s teachings with this article: https://www.academia.edu/4343215/From_Maharaj_to_Mahan_Tantric_The_Construction_of_Yogi_Bhajan_s_Kundalini_Yoga ,
    I want to move on to the by far the most difficult part to convey to excited followers of any teacher they revere.

    Yes it is beautiful to have ones heart opened by given inspirations, but just as the saying goes that “love makes blind”, so does unconditional Guru-worship which raises a normal human being to a god-like level.

    Spirituality is not all about love and excitement – something I can not relate to in many esoteric groups – to me it is about neutrality – the middle path between the negative and positive mind, or as it is taught in the Kabbalah – the middle pillar.

    So in order to make balance to my promoting of Yogi Bhajan’s teachings, I will also add a few sources, which indicate that his alter ego by no means was all perfect.

    Whilst I myself am not at all in the #meToo spirit, where any accusation, even when made a generation later, equals a verdict up to the point that many careers were destroyed before any legal judgment was passed;
    I merely provide the facts of my researches here and will tell you afterwards how I feel about them.

    For brevity’s sake I simply provide links so that people who are offended may skip them, and others who are inclined to research may follow up.

    1. There is a compilation of pages about the dark sides of 3HO which I had to pull from the internet archive, because the page now focusses on making money:
    2. An equal compilation can be found on http://www.wackoWorldOfYogiBhajan.net
      (the website name says all about the angle they are coming from)
    3. A forum of a very disappointed former student of Yogi Bhajan who did dedicate 30 years of his life to him: http://www.gurmukhyoga.com/forum/index.php
    4. Another “dis-appointed” student (who “dissed” his “appointment” with 3HO):

    In those 4 sources you will find accusations of Yogi Bhajan and 3HO having participated or silently condoned corruption, sexual misconducts and many other things.

    Here is how another student of his who still follows his teachings deals with it
    (I urge you to click the youtube button and read the comments there to see how many others also have those problems):


    And now – as promised my personal intake on it:

    My first encounter was when I read some of his teachings, started to practice them, and it was clear to me that this guy was spiritually very gifted and shared great insights.

    Then – just as I was doing 2.5 hours of Sodarshan Chakra Kriya daily, I had personal contact with Yogi Bhajan 24 years ago and this was my impression:

    He was extremely authoritarian and did cultivate a guru-worship which I didn’t like, but due to his unapproachable aggressive-deflective aura I realised instantly that there was no way to confront him about it in any way, because he made certain that he always had the upper hand the last word and was right in any conversation.

    So even when he did flatter me for “becoming an incredible healer and a saint”, I was in doubt whether he just wanted to suck me into his cult-like structure.

    The most honest thing I heard him say was “If you do 2.5 hours of Sodarshan Chakra Kriya then there is nothing I can teach you anymore!”, because it was the only time he made himself redundant and bowed to the Kriya which he also said would have been told to do  by his teacher.

    His dominant nature which then merciful fed (the one he just beforehand put down) some compliments was the ideal material to become a cult-leader, because it invokes the Stockholm-syndrome in which people (especially the ones searching for themselves) feel appreciated mostly by the forces which suppressed them beforehand.

    To sum up what does indicate to me that some of those accusations may bear some truth:

    • He certainly was a root-chakra guy with all the dominance involved, so sexual allegations would not surprise me, especially since he himself said that “no man and woman should be left alone in a room”.
    • When Jesus said that “you shall know them by their fruits”, I must say that I was exploited a few times by his follower -student-turned Gurus:
      • the one who passed on SCK to me sucked $2000 out of me at times when I was totally broke and had nothing and did continue this for decades.
        That Kabbalist from NYC also was a heavy womaniser and did commit adultery.
      • altogether I payed a fortune for very expensive 3HO seminars and treatments – a bit too much to leave the impression that spirituality would have been the priority. And all my requests of them employing me in order to get a US-greencard were ignored – I was too uncontrollable to them (hence Y.B. did name me “Amar” which means “free spirit”).
      • and sarcastically it was his people and himself who destroyed my new and frail practice of SCK by making me work for them for a fortnight day and night without me even being able to finish my meals, so that afterwards when they left all that was left was a bunch of tremendous anger and no motivation to continue to do kriyas.
        Y.B. on his second meeting waving me jovially into his room to have a private talk did not do the trick anymore. I simply walked away from him, because I knew that I never could have expressed my frustration to someone who wipes away anything he doesn’t want to hear.
    • Yogi Bhajan got many herbs from our Chinese Medical Pharmacy (which I did grind myself) and never payed – just as hardly any of the teachers who came flying over for a few days (regardless of environmental impact) did of course never declare any of that cash money so it seemed to me that they felt entitled to live above the law for the sake of their higher cause.
    • Once they visited the British head of 3HO to solve a some private and business issues; me, who was just beginning to stretch my head into the realm of spirituality could literally sense a spiritual war between the 3HO-Sikhs and the director of our college, a Vietnamese Buddhist monk, taking place: They walked into hour College of Chinese Medicine and with their “Kundalini Stare” literally took over the place, making it their home, so that the Buddhist monk did flee from his premises to visit a retreat. Students who studied Chinese medicine but not Kundalini-Yoga were puzzled about their fierceness and I personally was sucked straight into this invisible war by having to choose a side – something which was not at all in line with my understanding of all-embracing spirituality.
      Hence I started to drink lots of alcohol in order to numb and put a lid on myself.

    All teachings are energetically tainted by the energy of the guru – which is the reason why the 3HO leaders are so unyielding stern and hard – they simply invested and suffered half their life to live up to the calvinistic pleasure-condemming demands that all they have left now is their reputation to be senior students “who knew the master” – something they would never destroy by tainting their only source of glamorous wisdom.

    And on a personal note:

    In the midst whilst writing this article I suddenly became unpleasantly dizzy – nearly stopped, but deemed it important to follow Yogi Bhajan’s own words:
    “If you are depressed – press back”.
    Now, the next moring I felt very liberated, because I did realise that what he did with me was an energetic violation – not as spectacular as the sexual violations focussed on in the current zeitgeist, nevertheless a deep hidden trauma (of which we all have tons and don’t even know it).

    Ironically what Bhajan said came true for himself too:
    It is the aquarian age everything will come out – so also do his dark sides he did gloss over with overconfidence and his self-created role as a religious leader.

    “All the clever tricks you use, the countless little tricks
    – not even one will go along with you.

    Surrender yourself and walk the way of Spirit’s Will.
    Naanak – be with what is already written.”

    -Japji Sahib, Pauree 1, Guru Nanak

    <previous: how he twisted {hi(s}tory) towards Sikhism            next > Harbhajan Singh Khalsa’s biggest mistake

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