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  • sitting bull 20:04 on 2019-09-29 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , , , epic downfall,   

    Why I write down my biography for you 

    {ongoing story: Menu>bios}

    My life is not more or less important than anyone elses`,
    and not even an inspiration for seekers of success,
    but throughout half a decade, I have observed,
    that literally ALL of us get entangled in many pains and disappointments
    and either spiral down into bitterness,
    or manage to transform into a wiser person.

    I will use my own biography to follow the evolution of the human mind
    in this order:

    1 .) Karmic lessons and disappointments

    Those are the lessons learned by experiences.

    In my personal opinion (as a non-Indian Westerner)
    Karma seems to be the susceptibility for energetic constellations
    which do match our current level of im/balance.

    Since everything in nature is drawn to a state of balance,
    those experiences usually lead to “dis-appointments
    – a gradual annihilation of our internal appointments with reality,
    known as (mis)conceptions.

    Whilst Karma – especially for followers of Abrahamic religions –
    seems to be linked to a punishment of a higher authority;
    I see it as a merely a neutral consequence of nature.

    Nature’s laws are unfathomable to the unenlightened mind,
    so it’s regularities seem to be fate for most people.

    Whilst an intellectual understanding of Nature is equivalently futile
    to predicting the flight-path of a released rubber-ballon,
    I strongly believe that an unconditioned mind is capable of intuitively understanding the regularities of life.
    That is why I am not searching intellectually for the principles of life,
    but do this yoga-meditaton instead.

    Because I want to walk with you through the entire process chronologically,
    the difficulty for me will be will be to write down my experiences
    without adding relativizing & resolving insights I had decades later,
    so I warn you that there will be a few politically incorrect posts upcoming, designed to show you how frustrating experiences in ignorance can be.

    So even if you at times totally disagree with my first views or early conclusions, please bear with me, because this is not about singular issues
    but about the larger picture of the development of insights.

    This series also is designed to demonstrate the value of a daily meditation practice,
    by comparing decades of my own faults and pains to the much faster evolution, when daily tuning into one’s higher self.

    Once I collected the chronology of my epic downfall, I will tell you about …

    2. ) The deconstruction of an ego.

    All experiences leave residues of emotional reflections
    which in time turns into admittance of personal responsibility in form of regrets.

    To know this, btw, can help you tremendously when working on letting go of violations or victimisations, which had been committed against you.

    The effects of a conscience will serve each person their own punishment,
    and even if it seems that some are not receptive for it,
    it only means that their boomerang is delayed into the next of afterlife.

    This will be the chapter which will provide all answers to my frustrating experiences, so you can take this page as a disclaimer for all my biographical posts.

    Once this episode is completed I finally will move on to tell you about …

    3.) Mystical insights …

    … I am having as a very late reward of my long & tedious meditation-yog-practice described here.

    ~ ~ ~

    Finally

    The rise of social networks did create an atmosphere of most people putting on a mask to display themselves more beautiful and successful than others – under the pretence to spread positivity.

    Instead what they do is to make anyone who can’t live up to their distorted standards of their photo-edited pictures to feel like a looser.

    Therefore I want to fill the void of authenticity
    by bringing you an honest and complete picture with all its shadow-sides.

    I hope that this will bring a sense of identification and belonging
    to the many whose suffering currently disables them to express their pain.

     
  • sitting bull 18:15 on 2019-05-26 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , , , , , , , , , war, war mongers   

    religion#2 three emotional issues with the three Abrahamic religions 

    Regardless of their belief I really do salute people of faith for trying to become the best they can be, especially the many believers who sincerely are out to live the peace and love their books tells them to be.

    Whenever I was traveling in countries whose customs I was not aquanited with, I usually did trust religious people most, because they had ethics, which non-caring atheists simply dismissed.
    So in times of an immature society I do see religions as valuable moral guide rails (as long as it doesn’t backfire into fanatism).

    I also have friends from all kinds of religions and do salute their sincerity – especially when compared with the oblivious majority who merely subscribes to a blind materialism, just to live out their unquenchable egotistical hunger for convenience and pleasure.

    This is why I wondered why in my lifelong sincere search for the divine and many lengthy discussions I developed a love-hate relationship with orthodox religions of all kinds:

    1.) “The fear of god”

    What actually did and subconsciously still does create a great discomfort for me is the religious dogma that god only loves you, once you believe in “him“.
    (The narrow sexual term “him” makes it even worse, because it triggers the negative archetype of a punishing father).

    To me it seems childish, to say “either you are with me, or against me”. Do you really think an almighty god had such huge ego that she cares about what us human microbes think of it ?

    I think the reason why believers do like a regulating authority, is because it doesn’t require a great effort on behalf of the worshipper – all one has to do is to follow a handful of limiting dietary and ethical regulations, put all ones issues into the hands of a “big daddy”, and bliss will be guaranteed.
    The drawback of such an attitude, however is that this locks the believer in a state of infantility which then inhibits a more abstract inner evolution, leading to a blindspot for possibilities to evolve oneself or to evolve one’s self (a concept unknown and even unliked by orthodox believers).

    To be fair – this is not only a problem of religions, but a part of the immaturity of mankind, as you can see on the current global school system, which is not designed to educate ones persona, but to turn us into obedient working machines.
    Nowadays ironically, this consciousness of submissiveness is exploited by unspiritual materialists who believe in the mammon instead of the divine.

    The dogma of fear has nothing to do with love, but imposes a sword of Damocles upon anyone who keeps the mind open for all kinds of reality.

    2. The condescending claim to absoluteness

    Mere faith without spiritual experiences lives on the strength of a community, which is why believers are on a constant mission to increase their circle of like-minded ones, whilst people who “know themselves” as the ancient Greeks propagated, don’t need their false ego’s approval of anyone else.

    To strengthen their comunity the dogma to missionize others turned into a justification for blinker-minded believers in wasting most of their life by standing on corners or trying to convince people – most of whom don’t even want to hear about their own frame of mind.

    Orthodox followers regardless of their religion all in my eyes are equally bad. Fanatics constantly and blindly hammer into everyones brain that whoever they were raised to believe in is the only way”, which is exactly the kind of attitude, which did create the atrocities you can see in the middle east.

    The arrogant attitude of “owning the only truth” (as Christians and Muslims do) or “belonging to the chosen people” (something btw not only Jews, but also Koreans do believe in) is the source of all wars due to a distorted concept of being better than others. This comes from, and dogmatically leads to:

    3.) religious wars and acts of terror

    Whenever people aren’t allowed to evolve upwards, the result usually is that their world becomes so narrow that it starts to attack sidewards:

    Just look at history and you will see that all religions got their hands dirty by slaughtering people from other religions. Up to this date it still is done, only in the disguise of a “war against terror “war for democracy”, whilst on the other hand entire religions are stigmatised to have a justification to invade those countries for oil or other capitalistic endeavours.
    Minorities who don’t have the means of todays expensive warfare, usually resort to terrorism.
    I herewith condemn politicians who are war-mungers as well as terrorists with all my heart alike:

    I have never seen a more blatant hypocrisy and stupidity than aggressive fanatics who claim to follow their book of love and compassion only to then kill or do harm to others!

    Whilst I can understand any politician who was voted into a position of power to have to move out of running wars slowly, this also goes for politicians who did start new wars they claim that they “had to” -> the blood of each death, whether civilian, collateral or soldiers are on your hands! The Nobel-price has been dished out to a bunch of politicians who were leading wars – therefore I don’t take its value seriously anymore.

    Unfortunatly the mass of simple-minded people usually all to quickly resort in a condemnation of the large majority of peaceful members of other religions they were brainwashed to hate by the media (who thrives on creating fearful news).
    This also is a strategic foolishness, because a deep rooted belief will only change through the heart, never by physical or dogmatic force.
    Nationalism as well as religious fanaticism both bear creepy similarities – just listen to the phrases of politicians and religious leaders dished out – they pretty much are the same.


    After a short speech from George Carlin, a really interesting summary of the history of religion including how the church did twist it, can be seen here:

    article #3 : 3 intellectual issues with religion >

     
  • sitting bull 21:16 on 2019-05-18 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Catholicism, , Church, , monotheism, nazi, Protestantism,   

    religion #1: The religious influence of my parents 

    In opposition to my father who came from the poorest class, my mother came from a successful business family with an educated upbringing in manners – something I fortunately do participate from until now, whenever I meet people of higher classes or standards.

    Just to show you how much did change within the last century: Even though both sides were very religious, my grandfather was originally protestant but had to convert to my grandmother’s religion, because two generations ago it was still unthinkable for protestants to marry catholics and vice versa. You probably wouldn’t believe it, but even to marry outside ones village was unorthodox for some (which was probably the cause for the incestual byproduct of a “village-idiot” to have been seen in each village).

    This by the way is the reason why I do believe mixed races to be a blessing of a fresh genetic pool to monocultural races. Fortunately for me, my ancestors mixed – if not in races than at least in cultures:

    My poor grandparents of my father’s side, in ignorance of the Nazi’s committed atrocities, bought into their simplistic slogans (as simple minded people do), whilst my mother’s wealthy parents hated Hitler, because he did split up the good connection they had to the french border region of Alsace, where their main office was located.

    To protect themselves from Nazi-informers they had their obligatory picture of Hitler hanging on the wall, but as soon as visitors left, did turn it around to the side which did show a religious picture of Mary who is revered by Catholics.

    So by having been baptised as a baby I was made a member of the Catholic church without even having chosen it myself. This was my first issue with Christianity, even though I only discovered it when I was 18 and had to pay my first taxes in Berlin.

    Maybe living away from home helped, but I then decided not to pay a membership-fee for a club I never actually chose to be in. So I did leave the Church.

    One of the reasons Christianity was more a burden than a bliss to me, was the dogma that
    in order to be loved by a father-like authority-figure I first would have to believe in “him” –
    a concept which to me does not seem to be unconditional love at all, but an extortion by the means of fear.

    This dogma by monotheists was actually hammered so deep into my brain that up to this day this damocles-sword still lingers subconsciously over my head when dismissing any kind of superior creator god.

    Much later I did discover the value of first believing in the concept of a leap of faith which can be a basis for miraculous transformations; but it took me many decades to detach it from the concept of a punishing god.

    So my current position is that I am a strong believer of fearlessly following ones own deeper beliefs;
    yet instead of hoping for some daddy to “come to the rescue”,
    to evolve oneself to a state in which mind controls matter.

    article #2: my 3 emotional issues with religion >

     
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