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  • sitting bull 15:09 on 2019-03-12 Permalink | Reply
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    The beginner’s Sodarshan Chakra Kriya course 

    The advantage of this meditation in opposition to other spiritual disciplines is that
    * the entire information can be found on one single page, meaning that in opposition to most esoteric directions, nothing is held back;
    * everything is free, meaning that you can’t easily put a value-tag on this method by buying your way into it, but have to earn the respect for it by working for it.
    * and since this Yoga-exercise is about 10 times stronger than common meditations, it will yield results within short times of daily practice already.

    No one can take this Kriya (exercise) ever away again from someone who did learn it, because even in most adverse circumstances, when you lost everything (such as in prison or being stranded on an island for example) you can continue to evolve on this path for life!

    The main reason for doing Sodarshan Chakra Kriya in opposition to other spiritual disciplines is the belief that your internal imbalances and misconceptions are the root of all your problems.
    SCK does mentally cleanse your personality from the aspects which cloud your true soul.

    But that exactly makes it very difficult to pursue, because ones residual self image (as Morpheus calls it in the Matrix) does use every trick available to the mind, not to let go of the ego.

    Ambition as well as aspiration needs a combination of two strengths or virtues:
    Long term persistence, and the willingness to overcome unpleasant phases.
    Depending on someones worldview and experiences one can either subscribe to a safe but slow path (which requires 28 years of faith),
    or a short, but painful one of quickly punching through the process.
    The choice is similar to choosing whether you pull of a plaster slowly or rip it of quickly.

    I herewith try to accommodate people of both kinds. Should your aspiration be to  fully master SCK without giving up half way, you do well not floating around like me for two decades and every once in a while try again to force 2.5 hours into my life until the profound crises of unpleasant self-realisations made me give it up – only to later start from scratch again.

    1.) learning Sodarshan Chakra Kriya

    Start with short, light physical exercises:
    Go to this site: https://thilo.bandcamp.com/album/sodarshan-chakra-kriya
    – play the track (no need to buy anything, just use them online),
    – whenever you hear the wind sound, breath in,
    then hold your breath
    – and pump the belly to those beats until the next breathing sound occurs.
    – continue this until your belly-muscles are exhausted and write down which track you stopped.
    Next day(s):
    – Because the beats are gradually slowing down, continue with the track where you left of, until you find the track which is slow enough for you to pump your belly along with them.

    Should you prefer to practice in silence, I did wrote an instruction for you here, which helps you count with fingers instead of Rythms.

    On each step you self-certify yourself with a Tarot-card. If you want you may buy yourself a deck so that you get a sense of a physical accomplishment.

    2.) Next:
    Incorporate the original instructions whilst pumping your belly to the beats:
    Use the following bold paragraph as a cheat-sheet (copy & print) until you know it by heart.

    MUDRA AND BREATH: a) Block off the right nostril with the right thumb. Inhale slowly and deeply through the left nostril and hold the breath.
    Mentally chant ‘Wahe Guru” 16 times, while pumping the navel point 3 times with each repetition (once on ”Waa”, once on ”hey”, and once on ”Guru”) for a total of 48 pumps.

    b) Unblock the right nostril and use the right index or pinkie finger to block the left nostril. Exhale slowly and deeply through the right nostril. Continue, inhaling left nostril, exhaling right.

    TO END: Inhale and hold 5-10 seconds. Exhale.
    Then stretch and shake the body for about 1 minute to circulate the energy.

    As soon as you manage to do 7 of those breathing cycles in a row, you moved out of ground zero, and therewith can claim the card #0
    Congratulations,
    You now are able to do Sodarshan Chakra Kriya!

    2.) growing into a daily practice

    [Original instruction:] POSITION: Sit with a straight spine
    (either with legs crossed or sitting on a chair with feet flat on the ground)

    Eyes are focused at the tip of the nose, or closed if you prefer.

    Yogi Bhajan

    Step 3:
    Get yourself a timer and do once weekly 3 minutes of SCK .
    Each of the following 3 weeks you can claim one of those 3 cards of the magician:


    Within the second month you may claim the second card The High Priestess, by practicing twice weekly.

    (One is the male number, hence the magician was male, and two is the female number hence it is about the priestess.)

    Beginners may take a month for each of those steps,
    and intermediate practitioners can do one after another day by day.

    Tip :
    If you encounter difficult circumstances (because you are a guest somewhere for example), are surrounded by people and have no timer at hand, just do it discreetly on a toilet lid for 7 breathing cycles.
    That makes approximately 3 minutes and nobody will notice your absence for such a short time.

    {Original comment from Y.B.:}

    The tragedy of life is when the subconscious releases garbage into the conscious mind.

    This kriya invokes the Kundalini to give you the necessary vitality and intuition to combat the negative effects of the subconscious mind.

    In general: only move on to next steps if you are certain that you are up to it. If you are not sure, just repeat an exercise until you feel ready to move on.

    Then try to do SCK three times weekly (this is the last step in which you can set fixed weekdays for your practice).
    You then may claim the card Empress.

    Meditation for focus and mental purification
    {Original comment from Y.B. :}

    Here is a meditation that makes use of prana to cleanse mental garbage and purify the mind.

    Of all the 20 types of yoga, including Kundalini yoga, this is the highest kriya.

    This is a very powerful meditation for prosperity. 
    It will give you a new start.

    Once you are able to do SCK 4x weekly, you may claim the Emperor

    {Original comment from Y.B. :}

    It is the simplest kriya, but at the same time the hardest. 

    It cuts through all darkness and all barriers of the neurotic or psychotic nature.

    When a person is in a very bad state, techniques imposed form the outside will not work. The pressure has to be stimulated from within.

    Once you are capable to do SCK 5x weekly, The Hierophant is your card.

    {Original comment from Y.B. :} 

    There is no time, no place, no space, and no condition attached to this meditation.

    Each garbage pit has its own time to clear.

    If you are going to clean your own garbage, you must estimate and clean it as fast as you can, or as slow as you want.

    You have to decide how much time you have to dean up your garbage pit.

    If you do SCK 6x weekly, you still can take Sundays of and still claim the card Lovers

    If you want to know more about SCK or have questions, please read the archive of SCK articles including practical instructions on how to keep count or about the theory behind it here.

    Now you should be able to practice SCK (for just 3 minutes) daily and therewith can claim The Chariot

    Just to inspire you to know that this is possible: Even though I do come from an unspiritual and non-meditating family, I want to point out that I personally did all steps I am propagating above (but it took me long until I succeded).

    So if I was able to do it, you know that you can do it too – as long as you long enough for clearing your imbalances and misconceptions.

    Once you are able to do SCK daily, you are on the slow and save path which you are always able to fall back onto, whenever your practice fails.

    Advantage of this path is that it cleanses your soul smoothly, working in the background, so it does not interfere with your worldly ambitions.

    To create your personal safety-net:
    1.) Write down when you did start doing SCK
    (I use a spreadsheet to list my required vs the completed meditation times).
    2.) Easy rule of thumb for when you dropped it for a while:
    Since the time you started, your meditation-time should have increased by 6 minutes yearly or one minute more every two months .
    {example: after 5 years you should be able to do half an hour of meditation daily.)

    This pace will take you 24-25 years to build it up to the Dasvand of a tenth of a day, and an another 3 years to do the 1000 days of 2.5 hours – a 28 year cycle of a Saturn return after which your karmic lesson of life will be revealed to you.
    (Saturn is the outermost planet of our solar system and it takes 28 years for it to surround our sun. Hence it shows us our outermost limits and duties.)

    This may seem very long, but if you believe in a larger cycle of your soul (such as reincarnation for example), a 28 year cleansing is a mere drop against the ocean of aeons, such as
    * our current Mayan calendar cycle, which lasts until the year 4772,
    * the 25,000 year cycles of the astrological ages,
    * or the 432,000 year Indian Yuga Cycle we are currently in (which comprises 4,320,000 years altogether!)

    All you have to do to claim the Aeon or the card
    the Judgement, is for you to start a meditation diary with the times you did meditate and possible insights you had afterwards.

    3.) If you ever fell behind this plan, don’t throw it away, but use the intermediate course to catch up to the point where you should be.
    This way I even did manage to jump back on the waggon after having failed to practice regularly for 20 years !
    Apart from that you may use this system to implement all kinds of other unpleasant activities into your life.

    To give something back:
    Share your experiences in the comments,
    so that others can learn from you and you can learn from others.

    When you are ready to move on, notify me here,
    and I will post the intermediate steps for you.

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  • sitting bull 2:34 on 2019-02-21 Permalink | Reply
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    Thoughts on 3HO 

    How Sodarshan Chakra Kriya does stir up all the emotions

    A blue big aura is about Jupiter, which is one of the spiritual principles, which pervade all areas of life.

    Jupiter is related to:

    • the index finger,
    • the color blue,
    • the throat chakra,
    • spirituality,
    • and qualities like expansion of the body, career or aura.

    All in all it can be compared to the spiritual aspect of the wood element in traditional Chinese Medicine, which is called HUN.

    And the left nostril, which is covered in the exercise today relates to the moon side of the person – the emotional side.
    So connecting the index finger to the left nostril does bring spiritual awareness into your emotions. And that is how it does clean your emotional garbage.

    My conclusions on 3HO

    Yogi Bhajan certainly had Jupiter qualities, because at his peak he was big, very spiritual and also insatiable when building his Yogi-tea empire.
    I hope that you can see that in the following critical paragraphs my intention is neither to advertise my own spiritual direction as “the next bliss”, nor to degrade Yogi Bhajan, but to be as honest as possible about all the good and the bad, including my own weaknesses and issues.

    The reasons that he must have thought that his ends did justify the means is the reason why I am so frustrated with Yogi Bhajan and 3HO: He never payed any of the herbs we prepared for him, some teachers seem to have skipped taxes on their cash-income from lectures, and being an idealistic youngster, I was the ideal person to be exploited for free work (just it happens in cult-like organisations).

    Just as Jesus said: “you will know them by their fruits”, this also did spread to his followers: I told 3HO members that I wanted to move to the USA, and would do any job for them.
    One sucked $2000 out of me by selling me 3 times his newest version of the same Kabbalah course and making him do advanced web-design for less than the minimum wage whilst living in the most expensive area of Manhattan.
    And another one, whom I did help to build up his website (for free in the hope for him to arrange me a job in LA), deliberately kept me at arms length in Europe only to post in his blog that “people who did loose their center are bad for completion, but useful troubleshooters” (a synonym for ‘useful idiots’).

    If he was the all-intuitive Yogi whom 3HO makes him out to be, he surely should have sensed how fragile my young spiritual seed was and should have warned me.

    To understand my grudge-holding oversensitivity, (and to give you now the warning I never had), I have to explain to you the disastrous consequences his false premises of a “highest” Kriya which “cuts through all darkness”, “gives one a new start” and “the nine precious virtues and 18 occult powers” had on me.

    I was told by blog readers that there are two more Kriyas he promoted as the ultimate ones, such as Kirtan Kriya, which would “make you see the unseen”, and Sat Kriya which would be “the one Kriya he would teach if he only could teach one Kriya”.
    This did water down thise promise of SCK being “the highest Kriya”, just as you might find it disappointing when you are told to be someones “one love”,
    only to hear that this person also told it to two others.

    Yogi Bhajan intended and certainly did very well in selling eastern spirituality to scientific minded Westerners. The only problem is that by omitting that he sold his individual combination of yogic energetic work and his orthodox belief in god, he fooled people like Gurusant Singh into Yoga and me into Sikhism – something we both never were interested to adopt. I am certain he had good intentions, but therewith also did mislead: By dishing out black&white “facts” he made it seem as if he knew “the truth” – a clarity most spiritual seekers long for only to find themselves in an abysmal pit when things didn’t turn out the way they were hoped to be.

    The effect is like when a child finds out that Santa Claus never existed, or when a teenager’s dream of a super-hero-miracle, is shattered. This is especially bad when significant effort was put into that dream, as it leads to a literal dis-appointment – a step away from a hopeful appointment ones soul made.

    I fully admit me naively having been attracted to Y.B.’s teachings, because he had the same assertive “Gallbladder-energy” (as it is called in TCM) as my father had.
    One always attracts Gurus which reflect ones own personal inclings. Since “German discipline” was pushed onto me, his unyielding speeches were the language I was prepared to hear – not realising that a rigid discipline is not the path to open mindedness.
    {This btw is why I choose those Tarot cards drawn by Frieda Harris:
    She did have the exact same ambivalent relationship to her associate Alister Crowley, as I had to Y.B. – a mixture between fascination and awe and frustration.}

    For the next 2 decades I was sincerely dedicated to this Kriya trying and failing to do the 2.5 hours regularly over and over again for 1000-3000 of times (no exaggeration!), all in the hope that this would be the key to overcome all obstacles.

    My failures (together with not being able to follow the dietary and circadian Indian 3HO-lifestyle of “cultural imposition“) did lead to a tremendous amount of feelings of insignificance and guilt, and did bring out so much internal trouble in me that it did sabotage literally all worldly aspects of my life – from jobs to all my friend- & relationships and even my physical well being.
    All, because I always did consider my failings to have been a result of not having dedicated myself enough to the detachment from worldly desires such as pleasures or my ambitions (which I considered to be an ego-trip).

    The only aspect, which in the background sneaked up on me continuously, was me ageing and therewith the decline of my possibilities and joy in life.
    Realising the ever increasing loss of opportunities I did  spiral downward into an epic depression.

    This is what frustrates me so much about most successful organisations:
    They never ever will take blame for the huge collateral damages they caused by using tons of expandable foot-soldiers as step-stones on their way.
    Such longterm damages are too abstract to be traced back to them being the cause, because the effects are as delayed as the #meToo incubation time is.

    However, I am very aware that in the end all the troubles I did encounter were also a result of my own karmic misconceptions of reality, so I mainly write those negative experiences for your educational purposes (to counteract erroneous superstitions) and at the same time for myself to let my past go in order to make love for fresh compassion again.

    Whilst I initially did set up this blog to inspire other people to do more SCK, I now put up this slow course in order to protect any of you from trying to force your way onto spirituality, and then fail with nearly suicidal feelings – something I have seen a few times – even here on this blog.

    ~ ~ ~

    Now you may ask why I do even continue to do SCK?
    For the same reason couples stay together in times of disharmony,
    people keep working in a tough job,
    or 3HO holds on to an impeccable image of Yogi Bhajan:
    We all did invest too much in our hopes and it would be disastrous to throw it all away.
    It took me 2 decades building up this Kriya, and I want to do at least the legendary 1000 days of 1/10th of the day in order to able to say that I have given it the full chance.
    It is as much as an experiment for me as “the last straw” I am holding onto, because everything else did fail in life and I still am hoping for that point of spiritual breakthrough. Maybe this breakthrough will only come when hope in it wanes.

    But apart from my personal desperation, another reason why  I do continue and advertise for this meditation-yoga, is because I do  consider this Kriya to be one of the most effective Kriyas to clean Karma, so it is definitely is worth doing it (especially if you believe in reincarnation) and want to minimise your future suffering.
    I told you about the terrible problems I had, but I also have to point out that over the years SCK did mature me by the means of profound insights.

     
  • sitting bull 16:32 on 2019-02-10 Permalink | Reply
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    My week with Yogi Bhajan 

    Yogi Bhajan

    Coincidentally, just as I was at my peek of doing SCK for 2.5 hours daily, Yogi Bhajan (YB) came over to London and because someone stepped back from putting up some of his 3HO-organisation, I did fill that gap and let two members stay at my apartment.

    My young energy was still uncontrolled and very chaotic at the time, so (even with the help of two friends) I had to clean my place for the entire day nonstop  until very late at night and I was still very tired when I had to pick up their bodyguards from the airport the next morning.

    Because he had a VIP ticket to get through customs earlier, he came out of the gateways ahead of anyone else,  and was surrounded by a bunch of white dressed people in turbans. Since in my eyes all souls are of equal value, I was a bit puzzled that a spiritual leader would ensure and allow for having privileges which state that he was more worth than a common man.

    Being very tired, I drove back with three of his bodyguards into the center – like in trance, One 3HO member did tell me that life is a stage, so it would be about playing a role, so I took that advice and pretended to have relaxed control about everything, even though I hardly could focus on the traffic.
    About half an hour into the ride, one of them did point out to me that we were driving into the wrong direction – instead of back into London, we were already half way towards Brighton!

    The next morning, I made a huge German breakfast for my 2 guests (which, to their shock did include not only many kinds of cheese, but I purposely did include also a few kinds of sausages to make a point that not everyone who does yoga is a perfect vegetarian). Just as we were finished, the organisers called and told us that YB had cooked, so even though we just had eaten big-time, they wanted to rush out in order to experience his cooking. From then on I refrained from the “bed and breakfast” service.

    At this meal, coincidentally I sat next to YB and when I was about to rush away again to make place for one of their team he did call me back with paternal love, which to me was very flattering at the time. With hindsight I would say that the strong authority he did emanate was probably the secret to his charismatic success in building up a strong follower-ship. To him, coming from the Indian tradition of unconditional surrender to spiritual teachers, he of course took it for granted to receive the same kind of devotion he did give to his merciless teacher.

    He had a ring onto which a diamond was elevated by a metal spiral, and when I remarked that this was a great idea, he replied that he had ‘many great ideas’, which as a European seemed like bragging to me – yet to Americans such statements of self-confidence are probably seen as an effective self-promotion.

    The good thing is that in the consultation later he told me that at one point his teacher had him do SCK, so I knew that this Kriya is not invented by him and therefore, whenever I felt grumpy towards him, I could separate the teachings from the teacher himself by considering him to be a postman for valuable information. Remember this in case you ever disagree with teachers (or this blog as a matter): Don’t drop your practice or believe in the path only because the delivery-man was not to your liking.

    I will tell you now everything he told me, so that you also may benefit from his advice:

    Yogi Bhajan’s consultation

    When entering YB’s room for a consultation later, he (who was 8 years older than my parents) had such a non-penetrable aura that I did not dare to confront him on his guru-like status and ask him why he did allow (or even further) that his entire bunch did constantly worship him.

    Still being embarrassed about my driving disaster, I asked him what to do against the chaos in my life he recommended me to massage my ears under the shower.
    {Over the years I found out that, when washing my hands, also washing my ears with cold water is as calming and refreshing as doing it under the shower and it can be done multiple times throughout the day.}

    Someone made me tell him, that I currently do 2 1/2 hours of SCK at the time and in a reflex he instantly burst out something, which in my impression was that this was not targeted towards me personally, but to motivate anyone who does SCK:

    If you do SCK for 2,5 hours daily, there is nothing I [meaning any Guru] can teach you anymore.

    Probably because at the time I was studying Chinese Medicine, he also said: “He is a simple student and will become a great healer and a saint.”, which struck me as a a bit of a sales-pitch on his behalf to keep me going.  All I can say so far is that I did not become a great healer and am far away from being a saint, but after having read Yogananda’s autobiography of a yogi it dawned upon me that Indians have a very different understanding of saints than Westerners do – more as a person who manifests divine powers, rather  than Christians who associate a saint with someone who is ethically perfect and doing benevolent deeds.

    It seems to me that flowery exaggeration is a part of the cultural vocabulary of the Indian language, and me, coming from the plain German culture took quite a few things too literal, like when he said to someone else about me: ‘He is a sage. He was born wise!’, or when he described the superhuman powers of Sodarshan Chakra Kriya.
    However, such promises do have quite a longterm effect, because since 3 decades I am now hoping to get enlightened by the means of SCK.
    Slowly it dawns upon me that enlightenment probably doesn’t come with a big bang but gradually and less spectacular than I did anticipate – similar to the wisdom of old age, only much faster and without the need of physical sufferings.

    He must have noticed that I was not the type of getting up early, because without him asking, he also did recommend to me to meditate before sunrise something I at the time despised.
    However, I have to admit, that it’s ten-times easier to meditate in the mornings before the yang of the day rises, because this early are not many internal and external thoughts around, which could an empty mindedness.
    But since the morning is the worst time for busy workers to do it, I want to reassure you that this also works at any other time in the day, especially since there is “no time and space attached” to SCK.

    ~~~

    He also did say that I would need protection and did recommend Rahke Rakhanar.
    At the time and for decades later I did not want any protection, because it insinuates a discrimination against “lesser” or “evil” people, which is the opposite of what I would call unconditional love.

    The 3HO dress-code

    Y.B. did also recommend me to wear a turban, so I tried it for the week whilst he was there. When doing SCK without wearing a turban my energy did rise to my third eye point between my eyebrows, but when wearing one, it rose to the crown chakra on the top of my head.

    I know that YB (in one of the rare occasions when he was lenient and compromising) supposedly did allow for people to wear anything white on the head, but I would add – if you want the full benefits, go for a real tightly wrapped turban, and if this is too much for you just leave it.
    I did experiment a lot with wearing other white stuff but never felt anything from it – neither btw from wearing white clothes. Sikhs originally only are required to wear white underwear but not white everywhere, and all-white for me personally does not work and neither suit me. Some people thrive on the role of displaying Sikhism with a turban, but others nearly get beat up for it on the streets.
    My rule of thumb is: If you really are a sincere Sikh a turban will strengthen you, but if you can’t relate to religion, then better don’t play this role, because you will end up being attacked for being a hypocrite.

    The impressions 3HO left behind their environment.

    At times I felt really embarrassed when we (who all where white Westerners, dressed in white and were wearing white turbans) were ordered to go to a gurdwara (the Sikh-church), to take part in their worship – but only to the point in which YB did preach – and afterwards got up instantly in the middle of the ceremony to leave or eat in a special room only for VIP people whilst the crowd was eating in the hall downstairs.
    I then usually went to to eat with the community and did ask them about their perception of YB. They deemed him as just another pujari (priest) but not like something equivalent to an archbishop, which his visits with many religious leaders did insinuate.

    ~~~

    On a subtle level I did notice YB on one hand occasionally very subtly smiling about me,  when I did follow his recommendation to wear a turban or when I was funny, but interestingly he always instantly stopped to smile, whenever he realised that I did catch him being pleased. I think it was probably a good intention to nip any potentially arising egotism of mine in the bud.

    However, just before the end of his stay, because I hit my finger and could hardly wrap a turban, and also because I didn’t want to be someone who just puts on a show for him him, I stopped wearing a turban and all white clothes.
    I found it too tedious to wrap it all up only for the meditation session anyway, because I would not have worn it outside.

    The tipping point for my faith in 3HO

    When I am in admiration of a cause or person I do give everything I can, and so it was with YB and 3HO. I did everything for them, took out all the time for them, and also donated to YB for his consultation, despite the fact that I drove them around for a week and did put them up for free.

    Ironically it was actually YB himself, and his huge demands for the 3HO organisation, which made me loose my daily routine of doing 2.5 hours of SCK, because for the time of their stay I was constantly in demand of driving them around.

    At one point, in the middle of me still eating, he  demanded that we all get up right now and when I continued to enjoy my food he reprehended me by mocking my epicurean humming and told me of harshly, which then was a breaking point for me.
    As I did follow him just a few minutes later, he made sure that he had started the public lecture already before I drove down in the car had the chance to arrive.
    You may say that this was oversensitive of me, but looking in the look he gave me when I arrived in that hall I perceived it as one of those subtle power-games and him rubbing in the consequences of my non- compliance in order to drive through a point.

    Now I am going to tell you something few of you do consciously experience:

    The rare occasion to witness a spiritual war first hand

    After he was gone, I found out that part of the reason for him coming was that there was at that time a power-struggle between his top British disciple, who was the deputy head of our college, and the director, who was a Vietnamese Buddhist monk, who supposedly did embezzle some money to be sent to Vietnamese people in need.

    Unfortunately neither side was prepared to open-heartedly talk to each other:
    When questioning the monk, he only replied that it would be “his way not to talk about it”, and made certain that he was gone to a retreat when Yogi Bhajan came.
    But on the other hand I did not sense a compassionate approach on behalf of 3HO either.

    3HO surely was a total dedicated bunch who like a busy swarm of bees did shoot through the London Academy of Chinese Medicine, so the many students who did not primarily follow 3HO teachings (or did not even know about YB) felt overpowered by them claiming the place for themselves with their “Kundalini-stare” (as Gurusant Singh calls it). Someone described it like this:
    With their Kundalini-Yoga they build up a tremendous amount of will-power, 
    but then they don’t know what to do with it.
    And indeed, it seemed to be all about strengthening their own group just for the sake of it.

    Because both sides did like me, and at the time, I could literally feel being dragged into a spiritual war of both sides, like (the 3HO member and) deputy head of our college “scanning” me at one point for loyalty and then ordering me to clear out the Buddhist monk’s desk, so that the monk perceived it as if I took sides against him and said that I now would be with “the Kundalini-people”.
    Not wanting to take sides, this led to me literally “putting my head down” and stay below their spiritual level by going to the pub to drink with fellow students and co-workers, to “ground” me and keep in synch with the common people.

    This is something you on your spiritual path have to watch out for – sometimes it is not you having no spiritual discipline, but adverse circumstances may sabotage your internal evolution:
    In order to satisfy your karmic need for harmony you at times may sacrifice your evolution, because by preserving your dignity and keeping to walk upright, you might ending up becoming crucified as Jesus did when he did not hide his light under a bushel.

    It is very easy at those occasions to hide behind ignorance, because hardly anyone will see that you did.
    However – even though it will be initially gratifying to play it safe –
    you should not for long pretend to be dumber than you are, because in the long run your ‘playing it safe’ will weaken your character and turn you to a cowardly fence-sitter who will end up merely walking in other people’s footsteps.

    ~ ~ ~

    A month later YB came once more and waved me into his room where he was lying on his bed, because he still was very strong, yet did need to lie a lot in his bed often already.

    But I did not enter his room and didn’t even want to talk to him anymore, because the only way I would have opened my heart to him again would have been if we could have talked about my issues with him.
    Yet I knew that any criticism would have been dismissed harshly by him. Maybe that’s why he gave me the name “Amar“, because that means something like “free spirit” – probably with a connotation of “untameable”.

     

     
  • sitting bull 1:50 on 2019-02-04 Permalink | Reply
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    3 spirituelle Tugenden: Durchhalten, verlangsamen, ausbalancieren 

    Durchhalten

    Als ich einmal ein zehn-Tages Kurs Vipassana in Frankreich mitgemacht habe, hatte ich das Glück dem Gründer selbst, Goenka, zuhören zu dürfen, der sagte:

    “Die meisten spirituellen Anfänger wechseln ihre Richtung oft,
    aber wer Öl finden will, kann nicht mal hier 10m und dort 100m bohren,
    sondern muss an der selben Stelle sehr tief bohren, um welches zu finden.”

    Die Meisten glauben, dass sie mehr Probleme lösen könnten, wenn sie schnell denken, aber Yogis nennen solches mentales Umherspringen einen “Affengeist”.

    Verlangsamen

    Yogi Bhajan hat gelehrt, dass Yogis es schaffen ihren Atem auf einmal pro Minute zu verlangsamen, also werden wir beim Atem anfangen, der das Bewusstsein mit dem Unterbewusstsein verbindet: Du kannst sowohl freiwillig gesteuert atmen, als auch in Deinem Schlaf, und auch Dein Unterbewusstsein steuert Deinen Atem durch Deine Gefühle.

    Ausbalancieren

    Jupiter-aspekte sind :

    • der Zeigefinger,
    • die Farbe blau,
    • das Hals Chakra,
    • Spiritualität,
    • und Qualitäten wie die Erweiterung der Karriere, des Körpers und der Aura.

    Es kann mit dem geistigen Aspekt des Holzelements in der traditionellen chinesischen Medizin verglichen werden, der HUN heisst.

    Und das linke Nasenloch wird der emotionalen Mondseite einer Person zugeordnet.
    Daher bringt der Zeigefinger am linken Nasenloch spirituelles Bewusstsein in Deine Emotionen.

    Und das ist, wie Sodarshan Chakra Kriya Deinen emotionalen Müll aufräumt.

    Danach kannst Du zur Mittelstufe weiter fortschreiten.

     
  • sitting bull 23:04 on 2019-02-03 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , course, meditation-yoga, ,   

    2 key virtues: persistence and deceleration 

    persistance

    I once had the luck of participating in a 10-day Vipassana course in France
    under the personal guidance of its founder Goenka , who said:

    Most spiritual beginners change their discipline ever so often,
    but if one wants to find oil, it is futile to drill 10 m here and 100m there.
    One has to drill very deep at the same place in order to find it.”

    deceleration

    Most people think that by thinking fast they could solve more issues, but yogis did call such mental jumping around “a monkey mind”. The transformation is beautifully displayed in the card above which does contain so much symbolism, that it would fill an entire article by itself.

    Yogi Bhajan taught that Yogis could manage to breath only once per minute, so we will start only on the breath, which also connects the subconscious to the consciousness: You can breath voluntarily, but also breath in sleep and your breath is affected by your subconscious emotions.

     
    • mitchteemley 17:17 on 2019-02-07 Permalink | Reply

      Hi SB, sorry to take so long in commenting on your posts (after you’ve commented on mine at length). I’m curious how you came to believe in this mix of Sikh meditation, magic, etc.

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      • sitting bull 22:56 on 2019-02-07 Permalink | Reply

        Dear Mitch, this is exciting to me that you reply.

        Within the last week you were foremost on my mind, because I am contemplating a lot on an effective approach towards god or the divine and how to bring both of our beliefs together.

        You might now get a more elaborate answer than you asked for, because I recently started to write down my own spiritual life with all its flaws, so that others can learn from my mistakes.
        I do this in form of a meditation course/game. So you can get my really elaborate answer to your question on the webpage you see when you click on the card above.

        All you have to do is to bookmark that one webpage (if you don’t want to subscribe), because so far I just covered the first 3 decades of my life. This way you also will find there all the upcoming chapters of my life, continuing (hopefully weekly) on Sundays.
        Especially for you I just did clearly distinguish between the course and the bio, so that you can read only that without being confronted by a practice you might not want to follow.

        I purposely do not glorify anything there, because, like you, I believe in the untainted truth.
        This is a new approach – instead of advertising ones own spiritual practice – to simply put it all out there with all its problems so that people can decide then which path is best for them, and I also think that it is needed for people in trouble to see how others did struggle through their mistakes.

        Next chapter coming up on Sunday will write about my meeting with the yogi who taught it (and who also tried to combine both our beliefs), and the next one will be my criticism of his approach.

        I would like to draw your attention in that index-side to the Bio#5, where I describe
        1) how I realised that even without wanting to pray to god that I did already dedicate myself to the divine,
        2) which also includes a link to the similarities of that yoga exercise and the Christian Jesus prayer
        3) and also a link to an Islamic total dedication to god and how beneficial it can become.
        The links of point 2 & 3 are rare excerpts, very difficult to find, even on the Internet, especially since I took both out of a larger context in which those texts are hidden.

        After having thought about our encounter at the moment it seems that we can accelerate our spiritual evolution by combining both our parts, because the faster we evolve, the lesser we suffer.

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  • sitting bull 17:08 on 2018-09-15 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , matter, , senses,   

    The comfort to know that any tragedy may even lead to your higher purpose 

    When talking about health-issues, someone recently did recommend to me the book “You can heal your life” by Louise Hay, which I want to pass onto you.
    Additionally I want to share a tragic story about a little boy who did cause an accident which then made him go blind. Whilst this is any parent’s nightmare, what I just read on Wikipedia, made me re-evaluate my narrow-minded pity which only was focussed on enabling all of us to “enjoy life to the fullest” by replacing it with a higher purpose:

    Louis Braille was born in Coupvray, a small town about twenty miles east of Paris, on 4 January 1809. He and his three elder siblings – Monique Catherine (b. 1793), Louis-Simon (b. 1795), and Marie Céline (b. 1797) – lived with their parents, Simon-René and Monique, on three hectares of land and vineyards in the countryside. Simon-René maintained a successful enterprise as a leatherer and maker of horse tack.

    As soon as he could walk, Braille spent time playing in his father’s workshop. At the age of three, the child was playing with some of the tools, trying to make holes in a piece of leather with an awl. Squinting closely at the surface, he pressed down hard to drive the point in, and the awl glanced across the tough leather and struck him in one of his eyes. A local physician bound and patched the affected eye and even arranged for Braille to be met the next day in Paris by a surgeon, but no treatment could save the damaged organ. In agony, the young boy suffered for weeks as the wound became severely infected; an infection which then spread to his other eye, likely due to sympathetic ophthalmia.

    Louis Braille survived the torment of the infection but by the age of five he was completely blind in both eyes. Due to his young age, Braille did not realize at first that he had lost his sight, and often asked why it was always dark. His parents made many efforts – quite uncommon for the era – to raise their youngest child in a normal fashion, and he prospered in their care.

    He learned to navigate the village and country paths with canes his father hewed for him, and he grew up seemingly at peace with his disability. Braille’s bright and creative mind impressed the local teachers and priests, and he was accommodated with higher education. He excelled in his education and received scholarship to France’s Royal Institute for Blind Youth.

    While still a student there, he began developing a system of tactile code that could allow blind people to read and write quickly and efficiently. Inspired by the military cryptography of Charles Barbier, Braille constructed a new method built specifically for the needs of the blind. He presented his work to his peers for the first time in 1824.

    In adulthood, Braille served as a professor at the Institute and had an avocation as a musician, but he largely spent the remainder of his life refining and extending his system. It went unused by most educators for many years after his death, but posterity has recognized braille as a revolutionary invention, and it has been adapted for use in languages worldwide.

    So the sarcasm is that exactly the action which was initially tragic for him – piercing lether with an awl – is what was needed for him not only to focus on creating blind-signs, but it is also the elevation from piercing material which is the way to make signs palpable. And without that he would have just been any 43 year old man who by now is long forgotten, but now he is remembered over centuries.
    Additionally this made me realise:
    Whilst we define reality on our physical senses of seeing, hearing, smelling/tasting and touching, who is to say that we don’t also that the (in my eyes wrongly named) “extrasensory” perceptions or  psychic abilities such as intuitiontelepathypsychometryclairaudience, and clairvoyanceprecognition and retrocognition, are not something which everyone should have? (In ancient text there certainly are references as to times in which most humans were capable of those.)

    So are not most of us disabled and just don’t (want to) know it?

    So maybe instead of worrying, complaining or being frustrated about a loss of part of the tiny physical realm we rather should focus on reclaiming our long lost spiritual abilities by elevating our presence by any means necessary (as described in my still ongoing series about keys to understanding the universe).

    In todays brainwash of advertisements we are guided through excitement towards buying certain products by insinuating that life would be “all about being able to have (most youthful) fun right now”. So now you ask you why this is damaging? Because the ever lasting excitement misses out on necessary guide-rails which protect us from deep suffering.

    A huge part of life are the principles of Saturn which you could see as the checkout in a supermarket: At one point you have to pay for what you did put (mentally) in your basked (throughout your entire life). Looking at history: at no point in history was society focussed merely on having fun (except in decadent times amongst a tiny elite, such as Roman emperors), so because we are tricked by psychology  into buying into the pleasure centers or our brains, we overlook the largest aspects of our lifes.

    Think of it: It is logical that materialistic pleasures (of our materialistic senses) can only cover 0.4% of it, when the vast majority of the universe is not matter to be experienced with those senses:

    Since I do focus on my higher purpose, what I did so far interpret as health-inconveniences of ageing is slowly being replaced by me acknowledging physical issues as balustrades of my inner voice which protect me from straying away to far into the meaningless distractions of excitement. After all the outsourcing of our mind distracts from connecting to the source of ourselves and the universe – something which sorcerers . I won’t say that I am all content about my life at all, but in wise moments I remind me that:

    • My body did put on weight, because I wanted to protect myself from unsuitable sexual enocunters, which could have led me into longterm troubles,
    • my health-issues made me stop running around in order to learn stillness,
    • and what I often perceive as weaknesses are often sensitivities showing me what is right for me.

    So whenever inner turmoil comes up, I remind myself of to compare myself to others who seemingly are better of than me, but to slowly walk backwards out of the maze I did entangle myself in for decades, and whenever the question “why me?” comes up, my answer is: “because … me“.

     

     

     
    • JV Avadhanulu 7:34 on 2018-09-21 Permalink | Reply

      I loved reading this post. Thank you very much.
      I want to add:The entire marketing machinery is focused on sensory pleasures and succeeded in making the average man becoming oblivious to other aspects such as happiness, satisfaction, fulfillment, joy, ecstasy, inner peace, compassion…..
      Yoga integrates and aligns the 5 “koshas” (sheaths) of being viz. Annamaya (physical), Manomaya (mind), Pranamaya( energy), Jnanamaya (wisdom) and Ananadmaya (Joy).

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  • sitting bull 3:18 on 2018-09-09 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: divine, heaven, posture, , religions   

    Keys to understanding the universe #4: the right posture 

    As explained in the second last article of this series, directions do influence us, and even the most materialistic inclined people know since body-building that specific exercises do train specific muscle groups.

    The same applies to the mind which is known since thousands of years through the many yoga-postures which in its beginning stage of becoming known in the west still are merely seen as a female version of physical wellness, but the spiritual principles behind them are rarely understood.

    However, in all spiritual directions, including the mainstream religions, specific postures were and are embedded in rituals, which then create a process the human has to undergo in order to transform. In a christian mess humble kneeling, attentive standing and sitting is regulated to emphasise on the attitude one should have during certain parts, the folding of hands balances out the left and right brain hemispheres, the islamic kneeling and bowing down which also is a yoga-kriya, levels the heart with the brain to prepare it for devotion, Ashtanga Yoga focusses on the transformation between several postures, and many more aspects can be found everywhere.

    But in order to keep it simple let us focus on the most basic postures which serve as a root of them all and start with the upright position. Why do we always speak from heavenly forces from above? Christians believe in heaven, but we all know that there is no “angel-harp-bliss” somewhere up there. So we have to look at what does happen to us when we are “drawn down” or “uplifted”. Gravity pulls us not actually down, but to the largest body of matter, in our case to earth, so over millennia we agreed on calling earths gravity pull down. But on a cosmic scale we merely are pulled to our nearest matter, hence the downward movement is associated with materialism, whilst the upward movement relates to a transformation out of it. Look at humans on earth – technically they don’t stand up, but out into the universe:

    And now let us see the universe as a bunch of neurones and synapses: The synapses are the knot-like structures, like our planet earth, and the neurones are the connections in between them. In intelligent people the connections between the synapses are improved as the term “lateral thinking” does indicate. When I was in a rehabilitation centre for stroke-recoverers I realised that the less mentally flexible people were, the more damage they had after their stroke. This is why in tests, pupils who had music and math lessons did better in math than those who did have twice the amount of math lessons.

    So what do you actually do when you “rise to the heavens” in an upright meditation posture? You do connect on a macrocosmic scale the synapse earth to the cosmos and create a neurone into space, so on a microscopic level you access that space in between matter, of which there is 96% in the universe and way over 99% in matter. So exterior you are telepathically connecting to other planets and interior to unknown parts of yourself when sitting upright in order to dedicate yourself to the divine (what the next article will be all about).

    Ancient Chinese had a sense for this energy which they called Qi, and Indians an even more non-materialistic one, which is called Prana, which Tibetans also call “Wind-energy”. To distinguish the different aspects of Prana, 4 elements are used (which do correlate to western elements and to a certain extend correlate to the Chinese elements).

    Earth is as mentioned above descending in nature, hence the downward arrow symbol and the line through indicates that it is a final stadium.
    Fire is ascending in nature and transforms matter into Prana, there is no line through, because it is a process transforming earth to air.
    Air is the ultimate upwards energy, hence it has a line through.
    Water, finally, does transform air back into matter (earth), just as rain does, hence no line through.

    In the selected minute of this video is a concise summary of how to influence the elements basic  with postures:

    To sum up the 7-fold Veru Chana Posture meditations: There are different Wind-energies inside a person:

    • The wind which excretes waste enters inside the central nerve channel, eliminating  negative emotions: (click on the symbols to learn more about the elements)
      • When broadening ones shoulders and sitting upright the
        [I assume earth] wind enters and gets rid of anger and ignorance.
        The reason for that is probably best illustrated by displaying the opposite posture: hunched forward and uptight shoulders:
      • When your neck is slightly bend downwards at an angle,and the tip of your tongue touches the palate,then fire-related wind enters and dissipates desire.
        Two postures also call for a slightly downward bend neck: The yoga posture Jalandahara Bandha and  Omphaloskepsis , which is actually a western method of looking at your navel, but by doing that one also has to bend ones neck.
        Think about the humble bowing which surrenders own desire to the divine:

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      • When you lower your eye a bit, so you almost see the tip of your nose, the space-related wind enters and gets rid of egocentric pride.
        Imagine the opposite of pride when being ashamed:
      • When you sit crossed-legged and remain in single-pointed concentration, then water-related wind enters and helps to get rid of jealousy.
        Jealousy is the frustration not to stand in wide macho stance and to fulfil ones ambitions, like climbing the career-ladder (often at the expense of others).
        Hence the crosslegged contained legs contain ones egotistical desires.

        Whilst cross-legged sitting surely was born out of  being practical, this now explains why in the East where the is an emphasis of subduing the ego, spiritual practices emphasise in the Lotus seat, whilst in the West where the I first is supposedly be built up (as Rudolf Steiner said), people resort to the more comfortable chairs.
        Inventions like chairs are also a manifestation of a more intellectual and materialistically approach versus the intuitive one of the east. This is why I think that the North-west of the globe reflects the intellect, whilst the south-east the intuition. In this aquarian age both now become intermingled.
        By the way: If you can not sit crossed-legged for as long as you would like to, do it as I do and sit on a bed, so that you can put the legs down when it becomes unbearable, without having to stop your practice.

    You now can implement this knowledge into your own daily practice.

    <previous article: #3 proper breathing techniques

     
  • sitting bull 18:35 on 2018-08-20 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: authenticity, Iyengar, , superficiality,   

    The difference between fasionable wellnes yoga and authentic personality work 

    Prashant Iyengar (son of the founder of Iyengar yoga):
    The 18 Maha Kriyas of Yogasana    Chapter 6     (2013)

    In modern pseudo-yog feelings of beatitude, solace and sense of well-being have become essential features. Bliss, beatitude, tranquility, transcendence are all on the surface mind or peripheral mind. It is only the temporal mind which gets a sense of wellbeing or a “top of the world” feeling. This mind generated by neurons of the brain is but a tip of the iceberg.


    Essential Yog works on, if I may say so, ‘mineral mind’, which is ad the ocean-depth of our minds. When the water of a lake is crystal-clear, our gaze reaches down to its basin, its floor-depth, we hardly notice the water. Similarly this mind is just the surface – the tip; there are yet greater depths of mind (why not see the bottom of the ice-berg, why always the tip?), which in this context I refer to our ‘mineral mind’ or ‘mineral consciousness’.

    We pay a premium today for mineral water, because it is extracted from mountains and deep valleys and is rich in the nutrients of this earth. Similarly the submerged mind, the mind at bottom of the embodiment/citta also comes as a premium; it is not sighted easily but has to be mined from deep within.


    Modern Yog is but a neat consumer package. “Feel fine” is the goal of the pseudo yog, but wheter one feels fine or not is not important as to ‘become and be fine’. The essential bliss in the mind is not a naked mind perception or sensation; like in scientific evaluations, the naked-eye perceptions are hardly consideration worthy or much less than those analyses of findings conducted with strong probes and/or scopes. Similarly here, the pseudo yog’s naked faculty feelings are worthy of neglect.[…]


    In the material plane of life one hardly gets the chance to exercice and explore the more sensitive, philosophical and/or meditative states of mind. They remain neclected. But in yogic pursuits the mind gets a deep philosophical exploration and develops trance potentials too.


     

     
    • JV Avadhanulu 1:27 on 2018-08-21 Permalink | Reply

      I like the concept of ‘mineral mind’. Thank you.

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      • sitting bull 15:51 on 2018-08-23 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you – I just want to point out that this article was not written by me, but an excerpt from the book mentioned at the beginning.

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  • sitting bull 5:42 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: acceptence, desperation, , life, patience, perseverance, reward, serenity,   

    If your Karma seems to be a never ending pain 

    We all heard of Karma and have an intuitive understanding of it – usually mixed up with our cultural heritage, so for Westerners it is likely to associate it with the Christian definition of sin and guilt, and since the abyss into it is so vast,
    the wild-card for it in Christianity is the original sin which implies that we all are overloaded by it and need the grace of an authoritative god-figure to relieve us from it.

    Sisyphus

    Yet in my understanding Karma seems to be merely the accumulation of millions of decisions, resolutions and conceptions which did in time shape our personality – neither good, nor bad, just the result of ones own mindset which developed over lifetimes.

    Let’s take an example of 2 kids under extreme pressure:
    One may withdraw into its own world and become more and more sensitive, fragile but also intuitive, and the other one may turn rebellious and subscribe to the philosophy of strength.

    If this goes on for decades, the entire body-type may be shaped – the first one turning feeble or fat and the second one may become strong but also choleric.
    And this in turn will lead them into total different life-situations where the first one sees the world as hostile and finds a secret happiness in the realms of fantasy and spirituality whilst the second one may become a hardcore materialist and very successful in “breaking a few eggs” to accomplish own goals.

    Many situations will be encountered,
    which then will lead to total different new resolutions, experiences and conclusions.

    A change in character usually happens long after one tried to resolve a situation – usually it is when someone “had enough” and takes consequences.
    This is the stage in which one doesn’t bother anymore getting into details and discussing things, but simply acts in a certain way.

    Think of arguments you had with some (kind of) people; and at one stage you decided not getting involved into useless nitty-gritty stuff anymore, but just do your own thing.

    This is when your personality-type mixes with the conclusions which were drawn from experiences. (And I want to point out that it is merely the conclusions, not the experiences themselves which shape ones character – two people may experience the exact same thing and react in very different ways to them).

    And once things got intermingled the way back is usually hard to trace any longer. Whilst psychology does try to reconstruct root-issues through analysis, the causes may lie much deeper than the usual assumed ones in childhood if one believes in reincarnation for example. After each rebirth there is a kind of reset in which previous experiences are forgotten, but the conclusions and physical results being a certain elemental or body type, are carried forward

    Someone did experience something a long long time ago which did shape the character and even physiology, and lifes later may react to certain circumstances in unexplainable ways – hence the simple place-holder-terminology for it is Karma.

    So now most of us take Karma in a fatalistic way of a mysterious force overshadowing us.
    But the good news is that there is a “solution” of literally “re-solving” this huge entanglement between the world and the individual: It’s the “dis-solving” of that which we decided to construct as our persona – our concerns for our relationship to the world – or in other words our ego.

    This is a very difficult task, because there is no intellectual guideline and in order to “get a grip” on ones worldly entanglements one has to let this go and look from a meta-perspective. And this is what meditation allows us to do: To simply step out of the hamster-wheel of having to react and therewith add more stuff onto the pile of Karma, and simply to be.

    So instead of boiling the water with emotions one does cool it down until the bottom freezes which then lets parts of ice raise to the top. In time the entire water will be turned into “coolness” and calmness.

    The only problem with it is that no one knows the amount of water which is to be cooled down – is it a decade worth of troubles or thousands of years of previous lives? And neither do we know the severity of our misconceptions, so to answer how long this will take is like asking “how long is a piece of string” ?

    And this is where we all at one point or another fall into desperation for having worked for so long on our issues and sacrificed so much, and yet, here we are still having to endure the same pain again and again and again.

    It simply is frustrating not to see any progress, so here are a few visualisations in order not to give up:

    1. Nature grows slowly – if a fast change is forced it usually is a tree being logged

    Whenever pharmaceutical products work fast, they usually don’t build something in the body, but destroy something like the excessive Yang energy in young people when forcing  them to calm down with Ritalin for example.

    2.) Some progress can be seen and keeps being hidden for a long while

     

    • yet there is progress.

    If you for example only focus on the change of a minute, you will not see anything happening for 59 seconds, yet things do shift constantly. Cover the seconds on the right with your hand to simulate to be blinded to smaller changes – you need patience to wait for the next minute when not seeing the seconds move.

    2.) If your life seems to go back and forth it may be part of a larger picture

    Let’s stay at the example time and think that you would be one of the 24 analog clocks below, but can not understand the irregularities of your life alone.
    You may not see it yet, but in the larger context it later may make perfect sense:

    3.) Your timeline is not necessarily straight but possible a spiral

    You evolve from the bottom and every so often you encounter the same point P again and again, but always on a higher level.


    Or if the spiral is lying your evolution seems to go up and down

    • yet you are slowly increasing your level of consciousness:

       

     

    Subconsciously you know it – even it the personality-work seems never to stop – all you need is to carry on to do your soul-cleansing, because the most stupid thing would be to turn around, when you walked the largest part of the way through the desert already.

    I once walked with a group through the desert and we came to an oasis, but the pond below the waterfall was full of people, so we had to walk up the hill to the next one.
    This also was full of people so we walked further up to the third one which also was occupied. Knowing that there were Panthers which were quiet in the day, we kept walking to the fourth one, but when this also was not free we carried on until the fifth one and there we had he most beautiful view over the desert and I later found out that I coincidentally did visit the place where David supposedly shot down Goliath.

    This taught me that sometimes when times are tough, it simply might mean that I should not settle at this low level but literally rise above my difficulties, because I might finally be rewarded with the most beautiful view on life.


     
    • Amy 21:38 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

      So let me ask you this. If someone doesn’t believe in reincarnation ( I quite frankly don’t know what I believe) would you still recommend this?

      Can anyone out there tell me that they actually found the inner peace and bliss promised through this meditation?

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      • sitting bull 21:35 on 2018-09-10 Permalink | Reply

        For some technical reasons I missed all those replies until now, so sorry for the delay.
        I myself am no advocate of classical reincarnation, but the more I do meditate the more I see much larger cycles than this life has to offer, meaning there are many signs which indicate to bigger cycles.
        However else could Mozart have been such a childhood-genius for example?
        And in regards to meditation: It goes and I feel desparate, but then a larger bliss follows and all makes senes again, so in the long term this definitely works.
        Now for example despite additional recent health-issues I feel better than ever, because the meditation-wisdom made me solve longterm family issues which is a huge weight lifted of my shoulders.

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    • JV Avadhanulu 3:28 on 2018-08-10 Permalink | Reply

      Another brilliant post. The example of the analog clocks and the projection of the helix on two axes are superb illustrations. I wish to add
      “The mass of the sun curves space-time in such a way that although the earth follows a straight path in four-dimensional space-time, it appears to us to move along a circular orbit in three-dimensional space. This is rather like watching an airplane flying over hilly ground. Although it follows a straight line in three-dimensional space, its shadow follows a curved path on the two-dimensional ground.” This is from a brief history of time by Spehen Hawking.

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      • sitting bull 21:47 on 2018-09-10 Permalink | Reply

        Holy Shmoly! This is a very advanced answer and I have to figure out what a straight path in a four dimensional line is.
        You seem to really have gotten what Hawkins said – I got stuck in the middle of his book!
        Your humbleness hides your intelligence – so I learned to keep an open mind for anybody from you.

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    • JV Avadhanulu 2:42 on 2018-08-11 Permalink | Reply

      I want to share what the teacher told us during Vipassana Meditation
      The sub-conscious is programmed by karma and conditioning. It reacts for every trigger and communicates through bodily sensations. If you act based on this, it is RE-ACTION and the karma and conditioning accumulate.If you are able to let go of the reaction, some part of your karma and conditioning are transmuted.
      I think that in all meditations, we get impulses. Observing the impulses and not reacting is one of the basic principles of meditation. This definitely alters how impulses originate. As per some modern emotional intelligence experiments, this rewires the brain.

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      • sitting bull 21:49 on 2018-09-10 Permalink | Reply

        This is lovely, thanks for your both comments which I just saw now.
        The issue in reality is that at certain stages some tremendous anger about before unrealised betrayals etc. arise and they than stick in the mind and are not so easy to let go, because there is no way to “unsee” unpleasant new insights.

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  • sitting bull 3:48 on 2018-08-04 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: anger, conspiracy, dilemma, , family problems, , hate, killing, madness, pathology, psychology, resentment, revenge, shift in consciousness, spiritual awakening, the matrix,   

    The curses of spiritual awakening 

    People advertise for their believes, because allies strengthen abstract concepts.
    So religious people, Vegans, health-and sports gurus, or spiritual newcomers are on their “missions” to push their agenda onto others and persist despite lacks of success – simply in order to be “good” – usually by praising how beautiful their new-found ways would be.

    Yet the reality usually is very different: Hardly anyone has a constant happy and fulfilled lifestyle and even the greatest motivators or masters can contract any kind of disease or die at any time and often the most celebrated and admired people have huge issues – all of which is usually dismissed with the Jokers of unexplainable “Karma” or “Fate”.

    So why are especially people who work so hard to better themselves and the world often the ones who are laughed at most for not succeeding in what they preach or long for?

    The answer lies in the shift of consciousness:
    In music, 2 notes which are close together are called a second and usually sound rough,
    the further away a note moves from the base note, the better it sounds – a fifth (which is called “Quint”) for example is 5 notes higher and can provide a quintessence, and when the same note is reached again, things harmonise on a higher octave:

    The same aplies to rythms, or colors for example: unvafoable colors can clash
    and often oppistes one match better (which is a reason for different kinds of people having a relationship).

    So when someone awakens spiritually the person evolves out of the tribal mentality as Carolyn Myss explains it very well, there will be a huge friction – not only because of frictions in (color- or sound-)vibrations, but also,
    because the surrounding one grew into does everything possible to keep one at bay in order to ensure everyones continued participation in it and therewith strengthening the tribe.

    Especially family problems are a classic issue which make spiritual seekers look like eccentric black sheep,
    who compensate for their inability to conform with “outlandish” hopes and projections onto forces which literally are “out of this (material) world”.

    The realm of super-heroes satisfies that huge need (especially of not acknowledged teenagers)  and pacifies most materialists by giving them a way to let off some steam through comix or movies.

    Yet there also are real miracles (the ones which usually are dismissed and simply accepted as unexplainable), which justify a life-long search for a higher purpose of genuine seekers who are not content of merely playing along for the sake of fitting in(to a much to tight jacket).

    It usually just takes only one glimpse of what is dismissed as “Alices wonderland”, such as a moment of understanding or a dream,
    to never wanting to buy into the illusion of Maya and play along with the brainwash pushed on us by greedy people in forms of advertised material needs.

    And if you are one of the people who “got it”, now you have the problem:
    By starting to question a few fundamental maximes you triggered an avalanche from without and within at the same time:
    The outer world will react to your “in-sights” with tremendous aversion for their world is literally rocked and your inner world also is shaken,
    because you start to see what kind of a fool you were for having slept for ages.

    This then will lead to a disaster of you becoming more and more sensitive, whilst your immediate surrounding will treat you with contempt, aggression and schadenfreude.
    It is shocking to see how most people will actually “kick a man when he is down” and not the least feel guilty about being responsible to have blood on their hands.
    The simple reason for them killing anything they don’t understand (as it is propagated in many alien-invasion and xenophobic mainstream movies) is their fear of the unknown fear of change and also their repression of own guilt.

    But as if that is not enough, the double bind now is that the spiritual seeker starts to understand wrongs in a total new way which, then will bring up a tremendous amount of anger and frustration whilst not even being able to express them to the perpetrators. Usually, attemps to work them out together constructively will only make things worse by aggravating others or making them look down on one for being weak.

    An example of such an insight can be the Freudian analysis of the ego:

    Let’s say that your parents did educate you about their moral values,
    so you try to live up to those in order to be a “good” person.
    This is called the superego.
    Your ego is your self (which you are working on in spirituality),
    and the Id are your lower needs and wishes (your inherited limbic desires).

    First the task seems in line with spiritual work (or one chooses the spirituality which matches the parental moral values) …

    … but once you wake up, some aspects arise which just don’t fit into the clear black & white straight forward goal anymore.
    What if in your meditation it comes up that your parents did not merely convey a clear moral goal to you, but also did condition you to adhere to their personal ID?

    One case could be the dogma to cherish the parents sentimentality and therewith not being able to live your own life (which could be a classic for Hellinger’s family therapy).

    A worse case would be any kind of violation (and I am not only talking about those dramatic sexual traumas, but also about much more often seen constant nagging dogmas such as political or religious believes which are enforced through guilt).

    Often when such insights come up they are “explained” to the brain as definite events (which may or not even have happened that way),
    or worse, are swallowed in a self-destructive or self-degrading obedience.
    This sarcastically does make the person with the connection to higher realities look like a neurotic conspiracy theorist

    • something which will turn the seeing accuser into an easy target to be ridiculed.

    In case you had such revelations here my strategic 2 cents for you:
    Since your intuition could be right, but your intellectual translation into the reason behind it wrong, I would suggest you to treat your insights with extreme caution and not accuse others, until you tested your theories a few times and they did prove to be right.
    Because if you only once were wrong, most listeners will loose faith in your judgement and if things go down bad, you might even end up having to apologise to someone whom you know is energetically the cause of your pain – just not in the way you portrayed it.

    Even more difficult is it in cases of family problems,
    because one has the same genes as the suppressors, so a conflict is nearly pre-programmed:
    2 similar characters repel each other, just as the same poles of a magnet do.

    So how can you get through the waking up from a fairy tale dream into a dormant nightmare?

    The first aid is to look at everything as a reflection of yourself and seeing yourself as the creator of your own world.
    This will re-impower you to have the ultimate tool for changing even the most adverse circumstances.

    So your parents could be seen not as your parents, but as your former self – whether it is in your genes or your previous lifes (however your belief-system works).
    In case you were entangled in a victim-consciousness (which is quite normal, because we are conditioned to have experienced parents as the ones holding the power), this will move you into an empowered position.

    However, since each coin holds two sides, there also is unfortunately a lesser pleasant side to this view because with great power comes great responsibility.
    So the next step is then is to acknowledge that if you are the creator, then you also have to be the creator of this mess you are in, so the best you can do is to relax into it and not fight it, because else you are fighting yourself.

    But this doesn’t mean to play the often propagated “love and peace” number and roll over like an obedient dog.
    In order to solve the dilemma of the dogma to revere your ancestors and to protect yourself from constant attacks, it is sometimes not bad to cut family ties for a while (either externally, or internally by doing a ritual).

    One ritual for example would be to visualise an umbilical chord between you and someone else and then cutting it with a sword in one hand and burning it with a torch in the other. This then will at least protect your tender soul for a while like a fence does protect a little plant until it grew stronger.

    Especially for sensitive spiritual people to cut ties seems totally contrary to their agenda to implement that “we all are one” into their lives, but it is a necessary step on the way to clearly distinguish the self from the non-self as the Indian term Viveka describes it.
    After all – each cell knows its place in the body, and it would be a disaster if your body could not clearly distinguish one from another.

    This is why people who are too good-hearted to confine themselves often are overweight and can not loose it, because they benevolently take on issues which are not necessary theirs. The lesson is clearly that the time has come to take care for oneself as much as was done for others.

    But after that insight the strategy is clear:
    Simply (any maybe literally) “sit this one out”, by meditating, contemplating and relaxing into it until the waves of those unpleasant vibration slowly calmed down again.
    First of all this will protect yourself and the surrounding from damage, and it also it will ensure a balanced way to slowly withdraw backwards, without loosing the compassion for the people we encounter,
    (whom we subconsciously know to have the exact same dilemmas as us).

    Us simply brushing them of could wipe them into the gutter of marginalisation, and it is no holistic solution to simply hop onto the bright side of life at the expense of others. After all, that is what they did and our task is to literally “rise above the occasion”.

    I once saw my life as a string with many knots in irregular intervals and I realised that each of those knots is unnecessary anger which mostly arouse from narrow-mindedness.

    So each time we observe one of those energetic knots and don’t put oil onto those flames our mind has the chance to expand so that those entanglements eventually dissolve themselves for being irrelevant.

    When we realise that the people who hurt us were very likely our former selves,
    most issues are a result of our own Karma of likely thousands of years,
    so don’t be surprised if it takes decades to solve them

    • after all this is fast in comparison of the time it took you to pile the issues on,

    and you are transforming hurtful misconceptions and therewith bettering the world.

    What we often perceive as a curse or as obstacles,
    may our souls way of spoon-feeding us the tasks to be resolved.

     
    • Amy 3:44 on 2018-08-05 Permalink | Reply

      Why is meditation touted as such a great thing for mental health when it has the potential to make you feel absolutely awful?

      Great article by the way.

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      • sitting bull 0:07 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you Amy,
        on my end communication is difficult right now, because I don’t get any notifications from wordpress and did not see yours for a while,
        and also, as I was typing a response to you and in the middle my computer crashed, so I had to start again. #mercuryRetrograde

        Your doubts regarding meditations are totally normal on the path of change, especially in our materialistic non-spiritual surrounding,
        and many people do resort to have contacts with people who condone ones needed comfort zone, just as regular drinkers do seek the company of other bar-visitors to get their absolution.

        On the other hand we also are drawn to get reaffirmations from fellow seekers, believers and practicioners, and then end up being a bit torn apart between our higher goals and lower needs.

        So I would recommend to you to observe really honestly if it is the meditation itself which does bring up the stuff, or whether your stuff is there lingering anyway and is merely brought to awareness by the meditation. I think it usually is a mix of both, because only the stuff which was there can be brought up.

        I myself do sometimes take a little break from meditating (except if I just did set up myself to do 40,90 or 120 days and thereafter restart fresh. Right now I am having one of those, and the interesting part is that I then see what did change and can observe further changes which still roll through me – but I don’t take breaks for too long, because Rudolf Steiner ones said that rhythm substitutes power just when riding a bike it is easier to keep going than stopping and starting again.

        In a way the answer to your question is very simple, because you somehow know that your soul longs for clarity and therewith a cleansing. It just sometimes can be overwhelming when you sweep your house and too much dust is brought up.
        I guess those are the times to “vent” a bit by bringing a bit of fresh air into your life by enjoying a bit of distraction like movies or doing things with your loved ones etc.

        What always brings me back to meditationis that if I don’t do it for a while I also observe that I get less cool, calm and collected.
        Meditation is a strange coin with two sides – on one hand it makes one serene, because one compresses issues into the morning-meditation-box,
        and on the other hand it does at the same time bring those issues up so one becomes more aware of them.

        But overall I myself don’t want to trade my clarity for the mainstram oblivion any longer, because I also see that this kind of dullness is what makes people controllable by them not seeing how they are dominated by other people – be it relatives or the tons of advertisors who fool our archetypal triggers into consumerism.

        Long story short: As long as you are honest to yourself your practice will regulate itself, because the insights you get from it will guide you.

        I hope this helps you to see and then follow your path.

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    • Amy 2:42 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

      So then why continue? I want to feel better NOW, not the hope of feeling better years from now which may not happen?

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      • sitting bull 5:49 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

        Yes Amy, since I totally can relate to this unbearable feeling, instead of a long answer, I wrote an article for you and anyone who also feels like you here:
        https://sodarshanchakrakriya.wordpress.com/2018/08/06/if-your-karma-seems-to-be-a-never-ending-pain/

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      • sitting bull 12:02 on 2018-08-07 Permalink | Reply

        Actually, I just thought about your capital NOW, because a yoga teacher from India told me that he was inspired by Eckart Tolle’s “The power of now” book.
        Your comment is a brilliant example how we do carry our answers within our questions, because if there were an evolved master s/he probably would tell you to just observe this NOW you want to feel better in so that you get most out of it just as you get most out of a meal if you eat consciously.

        I think it is our ability to put aside personal dislikes in order to fully become aware of the NOW.
        #fakeItUntilYouMakeIt

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