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  • sitting bull 18:35 on 2018-08-20 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: authenticity, Iyengar, , superficiality,   

    The difference between fasionable wellnes yoga and authentic personality work 

    Prashant Iyengar (son of the founder of Iyengar yoga):
    The 18 Maha Kriyas of Yogasana    Chapter 6     (2013)

    In modern pseudo-yog feelings of beatitude, solace and sense of well-being have become essential features. Bliss, beatitude, tranquility, transcendence are all on the surface mind or peripheral mind. It is only the temporal mind which gets a sense of wellbeing or a “top of the world” feeling. This mind generated by neurons of the brain is but a tip of the iceberg.

    Essential Yog works on, if I may say so, ‘mineral mind’, which is ad the ocean-depth of our minds. When the water of a lake is crystal-clear, our gaze reaches down to its basin, its floor-depth, we hardly notice the water. Similarly this mind is just the surface – the tip; there are yet greater depths of mind (why not see the bottom of the ice-berg, why always the tip?), which in this context I refer to our ‘mineral mind’ or ‘mineral consciousness’.

    We pay a premium today for mineral water, because it is extracted from mountains and deep valleys and is rich in the nutrients of this earth. Similarly the submerged mind, the mind at bottom of the embodiment/citta also comes as a premium; it is not sighted easily but has to be mined from deep within.

    Modern Yog is but a neat consumer package. “Feel fine” is the goal of the pseudo yog, but wheter one feels fine or not is not important as to ‘become and be fine’. The essential bliss in the mind is not a naked mind perception or sensation; like in scientific evaluations, the naked-eye perceptions are hardly consideration worthy or much less than those analyses of findings conducted with strong probes and/or scopes. Similarly here, the pseudo yog’s naked faculty feelings are worthy of neglect.[…]

    In the material plane of life one hardly gets the chance to exercice and explore the more sensitive, philosophical and/or meditative states of mind. They remain neclected. But in yogic pursuits the mind gets a deep philosophical exploration and develops trance potentials too.


    • JV Avadhanulu 1:27 on 2018-08-21 Permalink | Reply

      I like the concept of ‘mineral mind’. Thank you.

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      • sitting bull 15:51 on 2018-08-23 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you – I just want to point out that this article was not written by me, but an excerpt from the book mentioned at the beginning.


  • sitting bull 5:42 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: acceptence, desperation, , life, patience, perseverance, reward, serenity,   

    If your Karma seems to be a never ending pain 

    We all heard of Karma and have an intuitive understanding of it – usually mixed up with our cultural heritage, so for Westerners it is likely to associate it with the Christian definition of sin and guilt, and since the abyss into it is so vast,
    the wild-card for it in Christianity is the original sin which implies that we all are overloaded by it and need the grace of an authoritative god-figure to relieve us from it.


    Yet in my understanding Karma seems to be merely the accumulation of millions of decisions, resolutions and conceptions which did in time shape our personality – neither good, nor bad, just the result of ones own mindset which developed over lifetimes.

    Let’s take an example of 2 kids under extreme pressure:
    One may withdraw into its own world and become more and more sensitive, fragile but also intuitive, and the other one may turn rebellious and subscribe to the philosophy of strength.

    If this goes on for decades, the entire body-type may be shaped – the first one turning feeble or fat and the second one may become strong but also choleric.
    And this in turn will lead them into total different life-situations where the first one sees the world as hostile and finds a secret happiness in the realms of fantasy and spirituality whilst the second one may become a hardcore materialist and very successful in “breaking a few eggs” to accomplish own goals.

    Many situations will be encountered,
    which then will lead to total different new resolutions, experiences and conclusions.

    A change in character usually happens long after one tried to resolve a situation – usually it is when someone “had enough” and takes consequences.
    This is the stage in which one doesn’t bother anymore getting into details and discussing things, but simply acts in a certain way.

    Think of arguments you had with some (kind of) people; and at one stage you decided not getting involved into useless nitty-gritty stuff anymore, but just do your own thing.

    This is when your personality-type mixes with the conclusions which were drawn from experiences. (And I want to point out that it is merely the conclusions, not the experiences themselves which shape ones character – two people may experience the exact same thing and react in very different ways to them).

    And once things got intermingled the way back is usually hard to trace any longer. Whilst psychology does try to reconstruct root-issues through analysis, the causes may lie much deeper than the usual assumed ones in childhood if one believes in reincarnation for example. After each rebirth there is a kind of reset in which previous experiences are forgotten, but the conclusions and physical results being a certain elemental or body type, are carried forward

    Someone did experience something a long long time ago which did shape the character and even physiology, and lifes later may react to certain circumstances in unexplainable ways – hence the simple place-holder-terminology for it is Karma.

    So now most of us take Karma in a fatalistic way of a mysterious force overshadowing us.
    But the good news is that there is a “solution” of literally “re-solving” this huge entanglement between the world and the individual: It’s the “dis-solving” of that which we decided to construct as our persona – our concerns for our relationship to the world – or in other words our ego.

    This is a very difficult task, because there is no intellectual guideline and in order to “get a grip” on ones worldly entanglements one has to let this go and look from a meta-perspective. And this is what meditation allows us to do: To simply step out of the hamster-wheel of having to react and therewith add more stuff onto the pile of Karma, and simply to be.

    So instead of boiling the water with emotions one does cool it down until the bottom freezes which then lets parts of ice raise to the top. In time the entire water will be turned into “coolness” and calmness.

    The only problem with it is that no one knows the amount of water which is to be cooled down – is it a decade worth of troubles or thousands of years of previous lives? And neither do we know the severity of our misconceptions, so to answer how long this will take is like asking “how long is a piece of string” ?

    And this is where we all at one point or another fall into desperation for having worked for so long on our issues and sacrificed so much, and yet, here we are still having to endure the same pain again and again and again.

    It simply is frustrating not to see any progress, so here are a few visualisations in order not to give up:

    1. Nature grows slowly – if a fast change is forced it usually is a tree being logged

    Whenever pharmaceutical products work fast, they usually don’t build something in the body, but destroy something like the excessive Yang energy in young people when forcing  them to calm down with Ritalin for example.

    2.) Some progress can be seen and keeps being hidden for a long while


    • yet there is progress.

    If you for example only focus on the change of a minute, you will not see anything happening for 59 seconds, yet things do shift constantly. Cover the seconds on the right with your hand to simulate to be blinded to smaller changes – you need patience to wait for the next minute when not seeing the seconds move.

    2.) If your life seems to go back and forth it may be part of a larger picture

    Let’s stay at the example time and think that you would be one of the 24 analog clocks below, but can not understand the irregularities of your life alone.
    You may not see it yet, but in the larger context it later may make perfect sense:

    3.) Your timeline is not necessarily straight but possible a spiral

    You evolve from the bottom and every so often you encounter the same point P again and again, but always on a higher level.

    Or if the spiral is lying your evolution seems to go up and down

    • yet you are slowly increasing your level of consciousness:



    Subconsciously you know it – even it the personality-work seems never to stop – all you need is to carry on to do your soul-cleansing, because the most stupid thing would be to turn around, when you walked the largest part of the way through the desert already.

    I once walked with a group through the desert and we came to an oasis, but the pond below the waterfall was full of people, so we had to walk up the hill to the next one.
    This also was full of people so we walked further up to the third one which also was occupied. Knowing that there were Panthers which were quiet in the day, we kept walking to the fourth one, but when this also was not free we carried on until the fifth one and there we had he most beautiful view over the desert and I later found out that I coincidentally did visit the place where David supposedly shot down Goliath.

    This taught me that sometimes when times are tough, it simply might mean that I should not settle at this low level but literally rise above my difficulties, because I might finally be rewarded with the most beautiful view on life.

    • Amy 21:38 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

      So let me ask you this. If someone doesn’t believe in reincarnation ( I quite frankly don’t know what I believe) would you still recommend this?

      Can anyone out there tell me that they actually found the inner peace and bliss promised through this meditation?


      • sitting bull 21:35 on 2018-09-10 Permalink | Reply

        For some technical reasons I missed all those replies until now, so sorry for the delay.
        I myself am no advocate of classical reincarnation, but the more I do meditate the more I see much larger cycles than this life has to offer, meaning there are many signs which indicate to bigger cycles.
        However else could Mozart have been such a childhood-genius for example?
        And in regards to meditation: It goes and I feel desparate, but then a larger bliss follows and all makes senes again, so in the long term this definitely works.
        Now for example despite additional recent health-issues I feel better than ever, because the meditation-wisdom made me solve longterm family issues which is a huge weight lifted of my shoulders.


      • sitting bull 21:27 on 2019-08-28 Permalink | Reply

        One year after your comment, Amy, I had another thought on your question about how to tackle the cycle of our soul which is longer than this life:
        Whether you believe in reincarnation or simply look at your ancestor’s energy boils down to the same:
        You see a red threat of energy which you somehow have to deal with.
        That’s why issues take so long, because you are literally working out thousands if years of stuff.
        Compared to such a timerange issues which last for decades in your life become much less significant.

        The unpleasant part is accepting that our ancestors (who often got on our nerves) are part of that energy which still resides in us.
        But then again – I guess it is our task to come to terms and therewith dissolve obsolete energies by not fighting against them anymore, but letting them go and making peace with the changes you or your ancestral tribe did undergo.

        Same applies to others – getting hung up on something they said is, like someone said, like keeping a piece of hot coal in your hand in order to hopefully returning it to the once you got it from.

        If you want to practice that, you can start making peace with me, because I sense that by disagreeing on the use of plastic-straws you once could have been offended, which was not my intention. Anyway, nowadays I would react more diplomatically, especially since such an issue is not worth lingering around.


    • JV Avadhanulu 3:28 on 2018-08-10 Permalink | Reply

      Another brilliant post. The example of the analog clocks and the projection of the helix on two axes are superb illustrations. I wish to add
      “The mass of the sun curves space-time in such a way that although the earth follows a straight path in four-dimensional space-time, it appears to us to move along a circular orbit in three-dimensional space. This is rather like watching an airplane flying over hilly ground. Although it follows a straight line in three-dimensional space, its shadow follows a curved path on the two-dimensional ground.” This is from a brief history of time by Spehen Hawking.

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      • sitting bull 21:47 on 2018-09-10 Permalink | Reply

        Holy Shmoly! This is a very advanced answer and I have to figure out what a straight path in a four dimensional line is.
        You seem to really have gotten what Hawkins said – I got stuck in the middle of his book!
        Your humbleness hides your intelligence – so I learned to keep an open mind for anybody from you.


    • JV Avadhanulu 2:42 on 2018-08-11 Permalink | Reply

      I want to share what the teacher told us during Vipassana Meditation
      The sub-conscious is programmed by karma and conditioning. It reacts for every trigger and communicates through bodily sensations. If you act based on this, it is RE-ACTION and the karma and conditioning accumulate.If you are able to let go of the reaction, some part of your karma and conditioning are transmuted.
      I think that in all meditations, we get impulses. Observing the impulses and not reacting is one of the basic principles of meditation. This definitely alters how impulses originate. As per some modern emotional intelligence experiments, this rewires the brain.

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      • sitting bull 21:49 on 2018-09-10 Permalink | Reply

        This is lovely, thanks for your both comments which I just saw now.
        The issue in reality is that at certain stages some tremendous anger about before unrealised betrayals etc. arise and they than stick in the mind and are not so easy to let go, because there is no way to “unsee” unpleasant new insights.


  • sitting bull 3:48 on 2018-08-04 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: anger, conspiracy, dilemma, , family problems, , hate, killing, madness, pathology, psychology, resentment, revenge, shift in consciousness, spiritual awakening, the matrix,   

    The curses of spiritual awakening 

    People advertise for their believes, because allies strengthen abstract concepts.
    So religious people, Vegans, health-and sports gurus, or spiritual newcomers are on their “missions” to push their agenda onto others and persist despite lacks of success – simply in order to be “good” – usually by praising how beautiful their new-found ways would be.

    Yet the reality usually is very different: Hardly anyone has a constant happy and fulfilled lifestyle and even the greatest motivators or masters can contract any kind of disease or die at any time and often the most celebrated and admired people have huge issues – all of which is usually dismissed with the Jokers of unexplainable “Karma” or “Fate”.

    So why are especially people who work so hard to better themselves and the world often the ones who are laughed at most for not succeeding in what they preach or long for?

    The answer lies in the shift of consciousness:
    In music, 2 notes which are close together are called a second and usually sound rough,
    the further away a note moves from the base note, the better it sounds – a fifth (which is called “Quint”) for example is 5 notes higher and can provide a quintessence, and when the same note is reached again, things harmonise on a higher octave:

    The same aplies to rythms, or colors for example: unvafoable colors can clash
    and often oppistes one match better (which is a reason for different kinds of people having a relationship).

    So when someone awakens spiritually the person evolves out of the tribal mentality as Carolyn Myss explains it very well, there will be a huge friction – not only because of frictions in (color- or sound-)vibrations, but also,
    because the surrounding one grew into does everything possible to keep one at bay in order to ensure everyones continued participation in it and therewith strengthening the tribe.

    Especially family problems are a classic issue which make spiritual seekers look like eccentric black sheep,
    who compensate for their inability to conform with “outlandish” hopes and projections onto forces which literally are “out of this (material) world”.

    The realm of super-heroes satisfies that huge need (especially of not acknowledged teenagers)  and pacifies most materialists by giving them a way to let off some steam through comix or movies.

    Yet there also are real miracles (the ones which usually are dismissed and simply accepted as unexplainable), which justify a life-long search for a higher purpose of genuine seekers who are not content of merely playing along for the sake of fitting in(to a much to tight jacket).

    It usually just takes only one glimpse of what is dismissed as “Alices wonderland”, such as a moment of understanding or a dream,
    to never wanting to buy into the illusion of Maya and play along with the brainwash pushed on us by greedy people in forms of advertised material needs.

    And if you are one of the people who “got it”, now you have the problem:
    By starting to question a few fundamental maximes you triggered an avalanche from without and within at the same time:
    The outer world will react to your “in-sights” with tremendous aversion for their world is literally rocked and your inner world also is shaken,
    because you start to see what kind of a fool you were for having slept for ages.

    This then will lead to a disaster of you becoming more and more sensitive, whilst your immediate surrounding will treat you with contempt, aggression and schadenfreude.
    It is shocking to see how most people will actually “kick a man when he is down” and not the least feel guilty about being responsible to have blood on their hands.
    The simple reason for them killing anything they don’t understand (as it is propagated in many alien-invasion and xenophobic mainstream movies) is their fear of the unknown fear of change and also their repression of own guilt.

    But as if that is not enough, the double bind now is that the spiritual seeker starts to understand wrongs in a total new way which, then will bring up a tremendous amount of anger and frustration whilst not even being able to express them to the perpetrators. Usually, attemps to work them out together constructively will only make things worse by aggravating others or making them look down on one for being weak.

    An example of such an insight can be the Freudian analysis of the ego:

    Let’s say that your parents did educate you about their moral values,
    so you try to live up to those in order to be a “good” person.
    This is called the superego.
    Your ego is your self (which you are working on in spirituality),
    and the Id are your lower needs and wishes (your inherited limbic desires).

    First the task seems in line with spiritual work (or one chooses the spirituality which matches the parental moral values) …

    … but once you wake up, some aspects arise which just don’t fit into the clear black & white straight forward goal anymore.
    What if in your meditation it comes up that your parents did not merely convey a clear moral goal to you, but also did condition you to adhere to their personal ID?

    One case could be the dogma to cherish the parents sentimentality and therewith not being able to live your own life (which could be a classic for Hellinger’s family therapy).

    A worse case would be any kind of violation (and I am not only talking about those dramatic sexual traumas, but also about much more often seen constant nagging dogmas such as political or religious believes which are enforced through guilt).

    Often when such insights come up they are “explained” to the brain as definite events (which may or not even have happened that way),
    or worse, are swallowed in a self-destructive or self-degrading obedience.
    This sarcastically does make the person with the connection to higher realities look like a neurotic conspiracy theorist

    • something which will turn the seeing accuser into an easy target to be ridiculed.

    In case you had such revelations here my strategic 2 cents for you:
    Since your intuition could be right, but your intellectual translation into the reason behind it wrong, I would suggest you to treat your insights with extreme caution and not accuse others, until you tested your theories a few times and they did prove to be right.
    Because if you only once were wrong, most listeners will loose faith in your judgement and if things go down bad, you might even end up having to apologise to someone whom you know is energetically the cause of your pain – just not in the way you portrayed it.

    Even more difficult is it in cases of family problems,
    because one has the same genes as the suppressors, so a conflict is nearly pre-programmed:
    2 similar characters repel each other, just as the same poles of a magnet do.

    So how can you get through the waking up from a fairy tale dream into a dormant nightmare?

    The first aid is to look at everything as a reflection of yourself and seeing yourself as the creator of your own world.
    This will re-impower you to have the ultimate tool for changing even the most adverse circumstances.

    So your parents could be seen not as your parents, but as your former self – whether it is in your genes or your previous lifes (however your belief-system works).
    In case you were entangled in a victim-consciousness (which is quite normal, because we are conditioned to have experienced parents as the ones holding the power), this will move you into an empowered position.

    However, since each coin holds two sides, there also is unfortunately a lesser pleasant side to this view because with great power comes great responsibility.
    So the next step is then is to acknowledge that if you are the creator, then you also have to be the creator of this mess you are in, so the best you can do is to relax into it and not fight it, because else you are fighting yourself.

    But this doesn’t mean to play the often propagated “love and peace” number and roll over like an obedient dog.
    In order to solve the dilemma of the dogma to revere your ancestors and to protect yourself from constant attacks, it is sometimes not bad to cut family ties for a while (either externally, or internally by doing a ritual).

    One ritual for example would be to visualise an umbilical chord between you and someone else and then cutting it with a sword in one hand and burning it with a torch in the other. This then will at least protect your tender soul for a while like a fence does protect a little plant until it grew stronger.

    Especially for sensitive spiritual people to cut ties seems totally contrary to their agenda to implement that “we all are one” into their lives, but it is a necessary step on the way to clearly distinguish the self from the non-self as the Indian term Viveka describes it.
    After all – each cell knows its place in the body, and it would be a disaster if your body could not clearly distinguish one from another.

    This is why people who are too good-hearted to confine themselves often are overweight and can not loose it, because they benevolently take on issues which are not necessary theirs. The lesson is clearly that the time has come to take care for oneself as much as was done for others.

    But after that insight the strategy is clear:
    Simply (any maybe literally) “sit this one out”, by meditating, contemplating and relaxing into it until the waves of those unpleasant vibration slowly calmed down again.
    First of all this will protect yourself and the surrounding from damage, and it also it will ensure a balanced way to slowly withdraw backwards, without loosing the compassion for the people we encounter,
    (whom we subconsciously know to have the exact same dilemmas as us).

    Us simply brushing them of could wipe them into the gutter of marginalisation, and it is no holistic solution to simply hop onto the bright side of life at the expense of others. After all, that is what they did and our task is to literally “rise above the occasion”.

    I once saw my life as a string with many knots in irregular intervals and I realised that each of those knots is unnecessary anger which mostly arouse from narrow-mindedness.

    So each time we observe one of those energetic knots and don’t put oil onto those flames our mind has the chance to expand so that those entanglements eventually dissolve themselves for being irrelevant.

    When we realise that the people who hurt us were very likely our former selves,
    most issues are a result of our own Karma of likely thousands of years,
    so don’t be surprised if it takes decades to solve them

    • after all this is fast in comparison of the time it took you to pile the issues on,

    and you are transforming hurtful misconceptions and therewith bettering the world.

    What we often perceive as a curse or as obstacles,
    may our souls way of spoon-feeding us the tasks to be resolved.

    • Amy 3:44 on 2018-08-05 Permalink | Reply

      Why is meditation touted as such a great thing for mental health when it has the potential to make you feel absolutely awful?

      Great article by the way.


      • sitting bull 0:07 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you Amy,
        on my end communication is difficult right now, because I don’t get any notifications from wordpress and did not see yours for a while,
        and also, as I was typing a response to you and in the middle my computer crashed, so I had to start again. #mercuryRetrograde

        Your doubts regarding meditations are totally normal on the path of change, especially in our materialistic non-spiritual surrounding,
        and many people do resort to have contacts with people who condone ones needed comfort zone, just as regular drinkers do seek the company of other bar-visitors to get their absolution.

        On the other hand we also are drawn to get reaffirmations from fellow seekers, believers and practicioners, and then end up being a bit torn apart between our higher goals and lower needs.

        So I would recommend to you to observe really honestly if it is the meditation itself which does bring up the stuff, or whether your stuff is there lingering anyway and is merely brought to awareness by the meditation. I think it usually is a mix of both, because only the stuff which was there can be brought up.

        I myself do sometimes take a little break from meditating (except if I just did set up myself to do 40,90 or 120 days and thereafter restart fresh. Right now I am having one of those, and the interesting part is that I then see what did change and can observe further changes which still roll through me – but I don’t take breaks for too long, because Rudolf Steiner ones said that rhythm substitutes power just when riding a bike it is easier to keep going than stopping and starting again.

        In a way the answer to your question is very simple, because you somehow know that your soul longs for clarity and therewith a cleansing. It just sometimes can be overwhelming when you sweep your house and too much dust is brought up.
        I guess those are the times to “vent” a bit by bringing a bit of fresh air into your life by enjoying a bit of distraction like movies or doing things with your loved ones etc.

        What always brings me back to meditationis that if I don’t do it for a while I also observe that I get less cool, calm and collected.
        Meditation is a strange coin with two sides – on one hand it makes one serene, because one compresses issues into the morning-meditation-box,
        and on the other hand it does at the same time bring those issues up so one becomes more aware of them.

        But overall I myself don’t want to trade my clarity for the mainstram oblivion any longer, because I also see that this kind of dullness is what makes people controllable by them not seeing how they are dominated by other people – be it relatives or the tons of advertisors who fool our archetypal triggers into consumerism.

        Long story short: As long as you are honest to yourself your practice will regulate itself, because the insights you get from it will guide you.

        I hope this helps you to see and then follow your path.


    • Amy 2:42 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

      So then why continue? I want to feel better NOW, not the hope of feeling better years from now which may not happen?


      • sitting bull 5:49 on 2018-08-06 Permalink | Reply

        Yes Amy, since I totally can relate to this unbearable feeling, instead of a long answer, I wrote an article for you and anyone who also feels like you here:


      • sitting bull 12:02 on 2018-08-07 Permalink | Reply

        Actually, I just thought about your capital NOW, because a yoga teacher from India told me that he was inspired by Eckart Tolle’s “The power of now” book.
        Your comment is a brilliant example how we do carry our answers within our questions, because if there were an evolved master s/he probably would tell you to just observe this NOW you want to feel better in so that you get most out of it just as you get most out of a meal if you eat consciously.

        I think it is our ability to put aside personal dislikes in order to fully become aware of the NOW.


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