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  • sitting bull 0:20 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: central channel, , emerald tablets, , Ida, , Naadis, Pinglaa, shaivinism, , Susumnaa   

    Keys to understanding the universe #2 : left, up, down, right 

    In the first chapter meditation was explained as bringing one to the middle (medi),
    the center point of a cross, to see all perspectives
    So what are the horizontal and vertical directions?

    2a.) The principle of up and down movements

    In the Emerald Tablets, Hermes Trismegistus,
    (a combination of the Greek god Hermes and the ancient Egyptian god Thoth), said:

    That which is below is like that which is above & that which is above is like that which is below to do the miracles of one only thing
    And as all things have been & arose from one by the mediation of one: so all things have their birth from this one thing by adaptation.
    The Sun is its father, the moon its mother, the wind hath carried it in its belly, the earth is its nurse.
    The father of all perfection in the whole world is here.
    Its force or power is entire if it be converted into earth.
    Separate thou the earth from the fire, the subtle from the gross sweetly with great industry.
    It ascends from the earth to the heaven & again it descends to the earth & receives the force of things superior & inferior.
    By this means you shall have the glory of the whole world
    & thereby all obscurity shall fly from you.
    Its force is above all force. For it vanquishes every subtle thing & penetrates every solid thing.

    Those are wisdoms which often are used in alchemy  or occultism (which is nothing dark as such, but simply means “hidden”). Alechemy is more about inner transformations than outer ones, so this cryptic text also describes the workings of “qi” (the body life-force in Chinese Medicine) or “prana” (the breath-life force in Indian ayurveda).

    In Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) there are vertical relations of upper, middle and lower body, called the 3 Dantians – upper, middle and lower body. This is sometimes reflected in Chinese pictures where below is a swamp, in the middle an ox working its way up and in the top a pearl (of enlightenment).

    The energy is internally purified by “separating the subtle from the gross“. This is exactly what the intestines do – to separate the useful food from the useless stools.

    The ability to separate valuable thoughts from non-applicable information without even being able to explain it intellectually is called intuition (meaning the ability to give tuition to oneself). This ability is called Viveka in Indian terms – the ability to discriminate – a term which in the West unfortunately has mostly a negative connotation.
    And because this ability resides in the intestines, it is called the “gut-feeling”.

    The reasons why women are born with a better access to their intuition is because the heart, where thoughts reside is a bag full of blood, and the only part below the diaphragm (the surface of the water above which the intellect and below which the intuition can be found) is the uterus.
    Hence in old days when hysterectomy was performed, side effects could have been for a woman to become hysterically.
    In later years the access depends on how much the intuition was shined upon or dismissed by rational dismissal. Hence the gender gap becomes more irrelevant later.

    This is why in Sodarshan Chakra Kriya one has to hold the breath (and therewith thoughts) and then pump the belly whilst gearing to the higher self by silently chanting the mantra “god” (Wahe Guru). Since thinking seems to manifest to me similar to hearing, I “hear” a thought mantra. Once in 24 years only I was blissed to hear that mantra not within my brain but from the belly.

    2b.) The left-right-center relationship

    Whenever you see a lateral relationship, there is usually a concern about the right interaction with the world (in opposite to the vertical concern about the higher self).
    This usually resorts in strong ethics, as it is promoted in one of the oldest religions, called  Zoroastrianism, as can be seen by the wings on their main symbol, the Farahavar:

    Those wings are probably better known from ancient egypt, and knowledge from it is in occult work, Rosicrucianism or Magic mixed together with the ancient Kabbalah, as one can see in the picture below.

    In the Jewish Kabbalah there are vertically 3 pillars: Left judgement, right mercy, and in the middle the neutral clarity, which is the highest spiritual goal in order to see the world for what it truly is.

    Surprisingly, severity is the female side and mercy the male aspect. This can be better understood if one conteplates upon the yin and yang qualities, because yin is descending and “knocking down” and yang ascending and merciful uplifting.
    So those principles should preferably be detatched from genders.

    At this site, Chhinnamasta, the goddess which conveys spiritual self-realization and the awakening of the kundalini – spiritual energy  is described through the Nadis (Indian medicinal channels):

    The three streams of blood can be understood by the Nadi system in our body. These three streams are Naadis: lateral ones are the Ida and Pinglaa (left and right) Naadis; the central one is the Susumnaa Naadi. Head is the cortex and brain, the seat of desires. Susumnaa Naadi rises through the brain which receives nourishment form central stream of blood. Spirit (Kundalini goddess) rises to the top of the head through the roof of the mouth; severed head represents severed mind- Amanska, a state of paucity of mental functions conducive to higher states of consciousness, whose destination is Parasiva (absolute reality). The Naadis break through the grantha(knot) in the Chakras and lift off the head, the seat of human consciousness. Chhinmastaa represents Susumnaa Nadi, Varnini, the Pingalaa Naadi, and Daakini, the Ida Naadi.

    Similarly in Chinese Medicine there are left-right-relationships which are seen in the pulse diagnosis where the left side reflects the blood whilst the right side the (ener)qi.
    (Interestingly the blood side is the cooling side, because the Qi is warming).

    In an alchemistical text ascribed to Marsilio Ficino three suns are described: black, white, and red, corresponding to the three most used alchemical color stages.

    Also in the Bhagavad Gita chapter 14 tose three aspects are seen as Gunas:
    The dull (black) aspect is called Tamas , the heated (red) one Rajas and he pure one Sattva are summed up as follows:

    Purity, Passion and Ignorance are the Qualities which the Law of nature bringeth forth.
    […]
    Purity, being luminous, strong and invulnerable, binds one by its yearning for happiness and illumination.
    Passion, engendered by thirst for pleasure and attachment, binds the soul through its fondness for activity.
    But Ignorance, the product of darkness, stupefies the senses in all embodied beings, binding them by chains of folly, indolence and lethargy.

    Purity brings happiness, Passion commotion, and Ignorance, which obscures wisdom, leads to a life of failure.
    […]
    Purity prevails when Passion and Ignorance are overcome;
    Passion, when Purity and Ignorance are overcome;
    and Ignorance when it overcomes Purity and Passion.

    When the light of knowledge gleams forth from all the gates of the body, then be sure that Purity prevails.
    […]
    the impulse to act and the beginning of action itself are all due to the dominance of Passion.
    Darkness, stagnation, folly and infatuation are the result of the dominance of Ignorance
    […]
    When Purity prevails, the soul on quitting the body passes on to the pure regions where live those who know the Highest.
    When Passion prevails, the soul is reborn among those who love activity;
    when Ignorance rules, it enters the wombs of the ignorant.

    They say the fruit of a meritorious action is spotless and full of purity;
    the outcome of Passion is misery,
    and of Ignorance darkness.

    Purity engenders Wisdom,
    Passion avarice,
    and Ignorance folly, infatuation and darkness.

    When Purity is in the ascendant, the man evolves;
    when Passion, he neither evolves nor degenerates;
    when Ignorance, he is lost.
    […]
    By what signs can he who has transcended the Qualities be recognized?
    […]
    He who shuns not the Quality which is present, and longs not for that which is absent; He who maintains an attitude of indifference, who is not disturbed by the Qualities, who realises that it is only they who act, and remains calm; Who accepts pain and pleasure as it comes, is centred in his Self, to whom a piece of clay or stone or gold are the same, who neither likes nor dislikes, who is steadfast, indifferent alike to praise or censure; Who looks equally upon honour and dishonour, loves friends and foes alike, abandons all initiative, such is he who transcends the Qualities. And he who serves Me and only Me, with unfaltering devotion, shall overcome the Qualities, and become One with the Eternal. For I am the Home of the Spirit, the continual Source of immortality, of eternal Righteousness and of infinite Joy.”

    Those 3 aspects and colors black, white, red are found in the last century German- (and later also Nazi-) flag, the brothers Grimm fairy tale of Snow White when a queen sits sewing at an open window during a winter snowfall when she pricks her finger with her needle, causing three drops of red blood to drip onto the freshly fallen white snow on the black windowsill. Then, she says to herself, “How I wish that I had a daughter that had skin as white as snow, lips as red as blood, and hair as black as ebony.”

    The dualistic enslaved satan-principle for example is depicted in red and black colours whilst the angelic wise god-principle is portrayed in white. (“weiss”= white in German, “weis” relates to wise or knowing) Hence we probably have old tales about “fair” women which later was misunderstood for white skinned people being superior.

    So the satanic principle, which by superstitious people taken as a literal person, is rather a depiction of the tragic turmoil between the choleric-fiery red and dumb-lazy black side, just as the consumption of fiery drugs, such as cocaine or hard alcohol do, which initially give you a feeling of strength through assertiveness, but later have to be payed for with bad and sometimes long lasting physical or emotional hangovers.
    The center path of neutral and divine wisdom is depicted as white – the color of the divine or saints for example. 

    And here is a brilliant article about the same aspect in Kashmir Shaivism: the 3 godesses: Para, Apara and Parapara.

    There are two ways to reach that neutral wisdom:
    Either by total dedication towards the divine,
    or by ways to energetically rebalance oneself,
    which I will write about in the next articles.

    < previous chapter #1 about reflection, contemplation and meditation

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    • David Cook 1:48 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply

      Interesting info from Chhinnamasta about the 3 nadis and makes total sense when we read “the breath is held in the central channel…”

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      • sitting bull 8:22 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply

        For anyone reading the comments:

        David is the one who inspired me to write this entire series on spiritual principles and who contributed much (upcoming) information to it.

        I can only recommend you to connect to him by either answering to his comments or sending a mail through the contact form which I will forward to him straight away.

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    • Jen Kennedy 0:09 on 2018-07-01 Permalink | Reply

      This post is so genius, I remember reading it yesterday thinking I really don’t know how to respond and where to even start!

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      • sitting bull 0:30 on 2018-07-01 Permalink | Reply

        Aw thanks, Jen – I am really grateful, because I was concerned about overwhelming people with too many belief-systems, which is why I literally am writing a new article which I want to post before this one in this series – hence I renamed it to #3 instead of 2.

        Actually, this is compressed knowledge I accumulated in my spiritual search for half my life, and I nearly would have not put into a blog post, because I did consider writing a book on it.
        But my conclusion was to walk the walk and not hold back for reputation or financial gain but to share as much as possible without delay,
        so that together we can beat the veil of ignorance which makes us and others suffer, and elevate together and each other.
        After all, as native American Indians said. “we are all eyes of the same head”.

        And btw: I like the authenticity of your blog – I am sure you speak the mind of a lot of sensitive people who don’t have your capability to express themselves as well as you do.

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        • Jen Kennedy 1:47 on 2018-07-01 Permalink | Reply

          Definitely start up on that book! This is great info for sure! But posting in advance to get the info out sooner is great too! It’s definitely needed.

          I can see why this would be overwhelming because there’s a lot of information to process especially for those who are not quite consciously evolved.
          And thanks, I think authenticity is very essential in writing. I try to speak for others in the best way possible. 🙂

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    • J V Avadhanulu 20:27 on 2018-07-02 Permalink | Reply

      Your blog is mind-blowing for me and I am grateful for the education, enlightenment and inspiration.
      The posts are so well researched, erudite and the interpretations and expression is original, engaging and riveting. I realize that you are a scholar in your own right and I am lucky that you reconnected with me.
      I think the blog you are doing is the perfect choice! Eventually, you may consolidate it into a book.

      This article is interesting and very educational for me. I congratulate you on this very original thoughts, interpretations and the way it is all put together. I wonder if you would like to interpret Swastika which appears to be one of the most ancient symbols and in many cultures, religions and regions. You may see some information at https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Swastika#cite_note-Sullivan2001p216-1
      and https://www.speakingtree.in/allslides/unknown-history-of-swastika/228532
      I would especially like to know your interpretative of the swastika symbol and especially the right angled turn.

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      • sitting bull 20:40 on 2018-07-02 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you – I am truly flattered that such as an experienced practitioner like yourself gave me the best compliment ever!

        And it is humbling that and on top of that you even ask me for my opinion on a subject about about your heritage.

        I have to admit that I never did thorough research on the swastika, even though I should, considering my own heritage. But you will inspire me to look into it after I finished this article series (which might take a while). If we are lucky this even fits into it.

        And for anyone reading this:
        I have highest regards for the humbleness and experience of JV Avadhanulu who has a long experience in prana-yoga – up to the point that he looked like 40 when he was 60.
        In case anyone wants to get advice from him ,
        you can contact him at the contact form of this site.

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  • sitting bull 20:18 on 2018-06-26 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: , centre, , , cross, heart-brain-connection, , reflection, rosicrucianism,   

    Keys to understanding the universe #1 : reflection, contemplation, meditation 

    <- To ease you into this series you may read the introduction about openness.

    Whilst life is a mystery to us, it is merely the result of complex interleaving of multiple factors – most of them rooted in very deep subconscious decisions we my have made long time ago – so deep in fact that in the end we resort to a worldview of “fate” or hope for divine “mercy” of an external authoritative presence.

    You can observe such mysterious changes in personality when you
    1.) first consciously change your behaviour as a consequence,
    (which can happen hundreds of times back and forth until it manifests in step 2)
    2.) and when the decision is final, someone just does something subconsciously without even talking about it anymore.
    It can be a relieve of a large burden,
    but when accompanied by bitterness can drive one into psychological or physical pathologies.
    This is the time when the character is formed.

    Changes in character are difficult to accomplish consciously, yet there are ways to entangle the situation we manoeuvred ourselves into,
    and the striking similarities between the different teachings from east and west suggest that there are root-principles, which when followed can guide someone out of this mystery of our ignorance.

    If you look at an iceberg to see the relationship between the visible consciousness above the water …

    … and the much larger invisible subconscious part under water.
    So it is clear that the root-work has to be done in the realm of the subconsciousness.

    As “all roads lead to Rome” there is not only one path to “one truth”, but there are as many truths as we are humans on this planet, so before commenting on yours being the best, please read the entire series first, so that you can comment on the article which describes a way closest to yours.

    1.) The principle of reflection, contemplation and meditation

    Action is the yang principle of the sun: to simply shine and literally radiate.
    Reflection is the yin principle of the moon: to reflect what happened. This is the realm of therapy and a good therapist enables the patient or client to reflect upon themselves to guide the intellectual thoughts deeper into the realm of contemplation.

    A hermit was once asked why he would live in solitude,
    but instead of answering he took the traveller to a well, through in a stone, and asked him what he would see.
    The wanderer replied “I see ripples upon the water“,
    and when the waves calmed down he asked him again, so the visitor replied:
    “I see a reflection of myself“.
    So the hermit told him: “As soon as the waves of the mind calm down, you see yourself.” ( One of the most important Greek aphorisms is: “know thyself“)

    Whilst reflection is a passive way, contemplation is a chosen activity to decide willfully to stay with a specific theme of choice with patience  for a long time. Both ways serve as a mediator between the consciousness and the subconsciousness and both ways are interwoven because one can not force thoughts but has to attract them in order to reflect upon them.

    One hinderance in a good reflection an entire picture is the hinderance in sight, because if you are in a tunnel, all you get is a literal “tunnel-vision”, so the way to see as many perspectives as possible in traffic is to stand in the middle of a crossroad.

    “Medi” means “in the middle” in latin. Hence the word “medicine” refers to being healthy when being in ones centre, and “meditation” is the art of centring oneself in order to be able to see as many perspectives as possible and therewith see the world “as it is” and not as we construct it to be out of our ignorance.

    This also explains the symbol of the cross, which by no means is only used in Christianity, but also by Rosicrucians for example. Whilst the physical centre is in the belly, in other directions, it is considered the heart, which even in ancient Egypt was called “the second brain”.

    Gregg Braden  does emphasize a lot on the heart-brain connection, and the loss of it is the root of most external and internal suffering in this world.
    Compassion (as was propagated by most religions before they became fossilized) is a good method to reclaim it,
    and Buddhists like Thích Nhất Hạnh or the Dalai Lama put a great emphasis on it.

    For rational inclined people meditation is the most difficult concept to grasp, and will seem for quite a while as a waste of time, so to beginners it is usually sold as being relaxing or empowering one to become more efficient. Whilst both is true, it does much more, just as serveing as a “time-box” for example, in which one puts all their internal turmoils in order to be able not to be disturbed by them in daily life.

    The easiest way to start to meditate is to sit down for a minute and observe the breath, because one can breath consciously as well as subconsciously, so it serves as an intermediator between both worlds.
    Meanwhile one can also let the thoughts run out by simply not putting more oil in the flames, so when in meditation thoughts of the next shopping come up, simply don’t follow it up by compiling a grocery-list, but postpone that thought for later and move back to the focus on this moment.

    As for the length: If you increase your meditation time (in a spreadsheet for example) by only 1 second more daily, it mounts up to 7-8 minutes in the first month, 5-6 minutes per week in the second month, and as the time increases you will automatically grow into a more regular mediation practice in order not to have to catch up too much until you can do a minute more daily every two months.
    To avoid those complicated calculations, you can strive to meditate for as long as you like on the first month, in the second month try to do it weekly, and from the third month on to do go for 2 minutes daily, increasing the time by 1 minute every two months, or by 6 minutes every year.

    The easiest time to meditate is before dawn, the second best after dusk and the most difficult one is amongst non-meditators. And to meditate a little daily is more valuable then to do lots only once in a while, because your character is tuned up by it consistently.

    Meditation, contemplation and reflection were and are done intuitively in natural cultures and are pushed into marginalisation by our first world agenda to constantly prioritise efficiency in order to maximise profits (which then usually end up to serve merely as a compensations for our lost holistic happiness of being connected with everything).

    < Introductory chapter #0     …  Chapter# 2 >

     
    • jvavadhanulu 16:22 on 2018-06-27 Permalink | Reply

      A succinct and simple introduction to meditation. Thank you.
      “Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication”

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    • sitting bull 16:43 on 2018-06-27 Permalink | Reply

      Uhh – wise words from a wise man! thank you ❤

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    • J V Avadhanulu 20:04 on 2018-07-03 Permalink | Reply

      I read this earlier , but in isolation. Now, when I read after the earlier postings, I like it even more. It is very interesting and it its simplicity reflects not only the ultimate sophistication (Leonardo Da Vinci) but also the brilliance. Lucky to read this. Thank you

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      • sitting bull 23:00 on 2018-07-03 Permalink | Reply

        Thanks JV, I come from being extremely extrovert, but since the Kriya does balance me out it gave me the sensitivity to feel what got people impatient, so I had to practice for a decade to constrain my words by reducing them to the essence of what I wanted to say.
        This is a good example how yoga does bring one into balance – an introvert probably would have learned to speak up more and in the end probably could have written a similar article.

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  • sitting bull 14:32 on 2018-06-25 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: dignity, , meaning, ,   

    The chances in dis-abilities 

    A terrible decade of constant aggravated misfortunes did one day result in a literal breakdown in the midst of my apartment, so I did break my back and a few years later I had a stroke and two cerebral haemorrhages which totally debilitated me up to the point that I could speak only slurred and had to crawl on the floor.

    Usually I wouldn’t write such a personal note on this meditation blog, but since Amy just followed me, who runs the blog myCerebellarStrokeRecovery, I would like to share with her and all of you an aspect of sickness, which at these times, when measuring each other on the scale of ones contribution to the national gross-income, is overlooked:

    As the word suggests, a disease means an absence of ease which suggests that health is an effortless zone – something we totally forgot when associating work with unpleasant tasks or being bossed around. The still Tai-Qi version, Qi-Gong, for example means “work on (ener)Qi”, so work does not always have to be hard.

    We are so tightly screwed into the network of civilisation we can not escape from (because we need the money, our friends expect us to behave one way, our relatives another way, and if we defend our space we would aggravate the zeitgeist-pressure by pushing others into a similar corner we are in). So hardly anyone dares to reclaim ones own personal space radically anymore asCharles Xavier did in the movie “Wanted” :

    So we pile sickening issues on top of more sickening issues until they issue sickness,
    which is a cry of the soul not to continue on the old path.

    Books on this have been written for example by Louise Hay in “you can heal your life”, by Rüdiger Dahlke and others.

    So what’s the takeaway when you are disabled up to the point of being unable to work anymore? The first one, which concerns everyone is patience.
    Healing takes tremendous time and one may consider their career etc to be over, because it looks like being thrown out of a high-speed train and just able to watch it pass by for months, years and decades.

    But there is also a bright side, which is not a consolation, but an actual bliss.

    Because everyone’s self-chosen life-lesson is different,  I want to share with you my personal one, and yours may be different.

    When looking closely, my health problems did not start my change, but did slowly even follow them, meaning, if I would have been a bit more alert, I probably could have prevented some of them – but then again – changes always take a while, so I am not certain whether it would have been to late anyway.

    However, my breakdown came after a tremendous family-crisis and my stroke straight after I had enough of my life and did walk the camino de Santiago twice within a year, so both incidents would have called for an instant change, but just like a frog, which is put in cold water and boiled slowly, stays into the water, it was never hot enough yet (as it is for any frog thrown into boiling water).
    In other words: I did not have the sense of self needed to distance myself from a “life in the wrong dimension”.

    Due to our ethics we feel obliged not to leave friends & family behind which often – along with fears of change, failure and success – make it impossible to get out of our hell. Plus I was in my comfort-zone which only due to the dis-ease was shaken up.

    But the question for me was: Where can I go if I did hate the place I do live in with passion and could not relate to the people around me?
    Slowly it dawned upon me that if my financial situation does not allow me to move back and forth, neither left or right, then the only direction is up … into the spiritual realm which means: Up to the divine or up into the realm of my higher self.

    So my first decision was after my stroke in 2012: If something in my brain died, then I will decide what died and because I was a big moaner beforehand, I chose to let the part of the brain die which is related to victim-consciousness, so whenever some frustration, anger, sadness etc… came up, I did conjure up an image of piling my problems of the compost heap of last year (which was 2011).

    This then brought up a total new challenge: If I really was to be free from the suffering-tune, ie. if I was not to tune into suffering anymore, I had to forgive all the people who id hurt me in the past – something no ones ego likes, but I did it for myself, not necessarily for them, and it was good to see that it was a win-win, dissolving many mental knots for all sides.

    Then I rebelled against my disease one final time and walked along the Danube (with walking sticks for my back) for 4 months. But since this did not bring any life-changing results I took the time which was given to me (by not having to work) to develop a plan (and I am very aware how blessed I am to live in a rare part of the world where people with health-issues are supported financially by the government).
    As you read this, you are sitting in the midst of this plan, because it is this “Sodarshan Chakra Project” I outlined on the right margin of this site.

    First I could literally only sit for 10 minutes, because of my back and thought that with that damage my Kundalini would never rise again, but JV, an Indian Pranayama practitioner from Auroville gave me great comfort by telling me that this energy would flow in different paths, so I continued the practice.

    My only task from 2014-2017 was to do the tiny morning session and knowing that Sodarshan Chakra Kriya brings up a pile of emotions, I started to allow myself a lot of “me-time” to just hang around and get over the feeling of guilt that I am living at the expense of others – feelings which constantly were aggravated by accusations of nearby people (who usually ask: “how do you do?”, and straightaway “what do you do?”)

    But what helped me was to see the bigger picture, which usually happens when you step back from it and are not a mere pixel of the zeitgeist anymore.
    I saw how absurd society works, that nearly everything which is accomplished is done at the expense of the environment or third-world-slaves, and how absurd a dogma is, which calls for participation in a game where tens of thousands of never-used cars (which btw, use up as much air in a minute than 20 humans breath in an hour) are overproduced, equally food is destroyed, as much electricity on Bitcoins is wasted, as the Iraq needs in a year, or that 8 billionaires have as much as 4 billion of the poorest humans together.

    I then sat down and thought about the purpose in my life and came to following conclusions:

    • Since everything in nature cycles (water falls down, streams in a river, condenses and comes back as a raindrop), why now also our soul?
      If I choose to look at my life from a point of reincarnation

      • there is much less pressure to perform excellent in this life,
      • and I also can attribute external and internal problems to my own longterm imbalances.
    • Seeing the world as a reflection of my mind, makes it easier to deal with people who can not understand why I am suddenly not performing as well anymore as I did just a while ago. After all I attracted like-minded people back then, so obviously they still are shadows of my past.
    • Focussing on meaningfulness in life is by far more important than financial success, so a day in which I did comfort one person is more worth to me than one in which a million plastic penguins are sold to tourists only to be thrown away soon afterwards anyway.

    The first years were a constant struggle to satisfy the needs of others,
    to perform well in re-remembering the thousand things I had in my household, their names, their relationships,
    but slowly I would say that I would not miss that experience of having exchanged my sharpness and youthful attitude and looks for a profoundness which was called for in my age (of half a century) anyway.

    Vice versa: Whilst I see many people who are successful in promoting the happiness of their healthy spiritual modern lifestyle, I also see that their attachment to pleasures and vanity is still strong enough from totally dedicating themselves to their own spiritual progress – and I am not feeling better than them – if everything would have gone my way, it is very unlikely I would have walked this path of earnestness.

    By sweeping me of my feet, my cerebral haemorrhages taught me non-attachment to the self constructed rails of my egotistical delusions.

    Very slowly – after years of being honest with myself and admitting my faults –  an inner strength and bliss in the form of dignity seems to dawn upon me in near future and I am grateful for it.

     

     

     

     
    • David Nolan Cook 22:17 on 2018-06-26 Permalink | Reply

      Thilo, amazing to read and inspiring. I have no doubt SCK aided your recovery, Yoga is powerful once it gets inside your head…

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    • Samrat 11:13 on 2018-06-28 Permalink | Reply

      Such a wonderful read . Inspiring and down to earth . All best for your practice 🙏

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    • Amy 23:52 on 2018-06-29 Permalink | Reply

      Thank you for writing this.

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      • sitting bull 8:35 on 2018-06-30 Permalink | Reply

        Well, thank YOU Amy, because reading about fellow sufferers with similar issues in your blog did give me the strength of having a justification I needed.

        A justification against those people, who have not found their sense of self yet
        (and therefore define themselves on the amount of their work)
        who hold up the standards of having to bite ones teeth in order to contribute as much to the national gross income as they do .

        Thích Nhất Hạnh wrote that people should only work for 4 hours daily and spend the rest with themselves (reflecting,contemplating or meditating) – a concept which is totally overlooked in our pragmatic and efficient society.

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