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  • sitting bull 15:09 on 2019-03-12 Permalink | Reply
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    The beginner’s Sodarshan Chakra Kriya course 

    The advantage of this meditation in opposition to other spiritual disciplines is that
    * the entire information can be found on one single page, meaning that in opposition to most esoteric directions, nothing is held back;
    * everything is free, meaning that you can’t easily put a value-tag on this method by buying your way into it, but have to earn the respect for it by working for it.
    * and since this Yoga-exercise is about 10 times stronger than common meditations, it will yield results within short times of daily practice already.

    No one can take this Kriya (exercise) ever away again from someone who did learn it, because even in most adverse circumstances, when you lost everything (such as in prison or being stranded on an island for example) you can continue to evolve on this path for life!

    The main reason for doing Sodarshan Chakra Kriya in opposition to other spiritual disciplines is the belief that your internal imbalances and misconceptions are the root of all your problems.
    SCK does mentally cleanse your personality from the aspects which cloud your true soul.

    But that exactly makes it very difficult to pursue, because ones residual self image (as Morpheus calls it in the Matrix) does use every trick available to the mind, not to let go of the ego.

    Ambition as well as aspiration needs a combination of two strengths or virtues:
    Long term persistence, and the willingness to overcome unpleasant phases.
    Depending on someones worldview and experiences one can either subscribe to a safe but slow path (which requires 28 years of faith),
    or a short, but painful one of quickly punching through the process.
    The choice is similar to choosing whether you pull of a plaster slowly or rip it of quickly.

    I herewith try to accommodate people of both kinds. Should your aspiration be to  fully master SCK without giving up half way, you do well not floating around like me for two decades and every once in a while try again to force 2.5 hours into my life until the profound crises of unpleasant self-realisations made me give it up – only to later start from scratch again.

    1.) learning Sodarshan Chakra Kriya

    Start with short, light physical exercises:
    Go to this site: https://thilo.bandcamp.com/album/sodarshan-chakra-kriya
    – play the track (no need to buy anything, just use them online),
    – whenever you hear the wind sound, breath in,
    then hold your breath
    – and pump the belly to those beats until the next breathing sound occurs.
    – continue this until your belly-muscles are exhausted and write down which track you stopped.
    Next day(s):
    – Because the beats are gradually slowing down, continue with the track where you left of, until you find the track which is slow enough for you to pump your belly along with them.

    Should you prefer to practice in silence, I did wrote an instruction for you here, which helps you count with fingers instead of Rythms.

    On each step you self-certify yourself with a Tarot-card. If you want you may buy yourself a deck so that you get a sense of a physical accomplishment.

    2.) Next:
    Incorporate the original instructions whilst pumping your belly to the beats:
    Use the following bold paragraph as a cheat-sheet (copy & print) until you know it by heart.

    MUDRA AND BREATH: a) Block off the right nostril with the right thumb. Inhale slowly and deeply through the left nostril and hold the breath.
    Mentally chant ‘Wahe Guru” 16 times, while pumping the navel point 3 times with each repetition (once on ”Waa”, once on ”hey”, and once on ”Guru”) for a total of 48 pumps.

    b) Unblock the right nostril and use the right index or pinkie finger to block the left nostril. Exhale slowly and deeply through the right nostril. Continue, inhaling left nostril, exhaling right.

    TO END: Inhale and hold 5-10 seconds. Exhale.
    Then stretch and shake the body for about 1 minute to circulate the energy.

    As soon as you manage to do 7 of those breathing cycles in a row, you moved out of ground zero, and therewith can claim the card #0
    Congratulations,
    You now are able to do Sodarshan Chakra Kriya!

    2.) growing into a daily practice

    [Original instruction:] POSITION: Sit with a straight spine
    (either with legs crossed or sitting on a chair with feet flat on the ground)

    Eyes are focused at the tip of the nose, or closed if you prefer.

    Yogi Bhajan

    Step 3:
    Get yourself a timer and do once weekly 3 minutes of SCK .
    Each of the following 3 weeks you can claim one of those 3 cards of the magician:


    Within the second month you may claim the second card The High Priestess, by practicing twice weekly.

    (One is the male number, hence the magician was male, and two is the female number hence it is about the priestess.)

    Beginners may take a month for each of those steps,
    and intermediate practitioners can do one after another day by day.

    Tip :
    If you encounter difficult circumstances (because you are a guest somewhere for example), are surrounded by people and have no timer at hand, just do it discreetly on a toilet lid for 7 breathing cycles.
    That makes approximately 3 minutes and nobody will notice your absence for such a short time.

    {Original comment from Y.B.:}

    The tragedy of life is when the subconscious releases garbage into the conscious mind.

    This kriya invokes the Kundalini to give you the necessary vitality and intuition to combat the negative effects of the subconscious mind.

    In general: only move on to next steps if you are certain that you are up to it. If you are not sure, just repeat an exercise until you feel ready to move on.

    Then try to do SCK three times weekly (this is the last step in which you can set fixed weekdays for your practice).
    You then may claim the card Empress.

    Meditation for focus and mental purification
    {Original comment from Y.B. :}

    Here is a meditation that makes use of prana to cleanse mental garbage and purify the mind.

    Of all the 20 types of yoga, including Kundalini yoga, this is the highest kriya.

    This is a very powerful meditation for prosperity. 
    It will give you a new start.

    Once you are able to do SCK 4x weekly, you may claim the Emperor

    {Original comment from Y.B. :}

    It is the simplest kriya, but at the same time the hardest. 

    It cuts through all darkness and all barriers of the neurotic or psychotic nature.

    When a person is in a very bad state, techniques imposed form the outside will not work. The pressure has to be stimulated from within.

    Once you are capable to do SCK 5x weekly, The Hierophant is your card.

    {Original comment from Y.B. :} 

    There is no time, no place, no space, and no condition attached to this meditation.

    Each garbage pit has its own time to clear.

    If you are going to clean your own garbage, you must estimate and clean it as fast as you can, or as slow as you want.

    You have to decide how much time you have to dean up your garbage pit.

    If you do SCK 6x weekly, you still can take Sundays of and still claim the card Lovers

    If you want to know more about SCK or have questions, please read the archive of SCK articles including practical instructions on how to keep count or about the theory behind it here.

    Now you should be able to practice SCK (for just 3 minutes) daily and therewith can claim The Chariot

    Just to inspire you to know that this is possible: Even though I do come from an unspiritual and non-meditating family, I want to point out that I personally did all steps I am propagating above (but it took me long until I succeded).

    So if I was able to do it, you know that you can do it too – as long as you long enough for clearing your imbalances and misconceptions.

    Once you are able to do SCK daily, you are on the slow and save path which you are always able to fall back onto, whenever your practice fails.

    Advantage of this path is that it cleanses your soul smoothly, working in the background, so it does not interfere with your worldly ambitions.

    To create your personal safety-net:
    1.) Write down when you did start doing SCK
    (I use a spreadsheet to list my required vs the completed meditation times).
    2.) Easy rule of thumb for when you dropped it for a while:
    Since the time you started, your meditation-time should have increased by 6 minutes yearly or one minute more every two months .
    {example: after 5 years you should be able to do half an hour of meditation daily.)

    This pace will take you 24-25 years to build it up to the Dasvand of a tenth of a day, and an another 3 years to do the 1000 days of 2.5 hours – a 28 year cycle of a Saturn return after which your karmic lesson of life will be revealed to you.
    (Saturn is the outermost planet of our solar system and it takes 28 years for it to surround our sun. Hence it shows us our outermost limits and duties.)

    This may seem very long, but if you believe in a larger cycle of your soul (such as reincarnation for example), a 28 year cleansing is a mere drop against the ocean of aeons, such as
    * our current Mayan calendar cycle, which lasts until the year 4772,
    * the 25,000 year cycles of the astrological ages,
    * or the 432,000 year Indian Yuga Cycle we are currently in (which comprises 4,320,000 years altogether!)

    All you have to do to claim the Aeon or the card
    the Judgement, is for you to start a meditation diary with the times you did meditate and possible insights you had afterwards.

    3.) If you ever fell behind this plan, don’t throw it away, but use the intermediate course to catch up to the point where you should be.
    This way I even did manage to jump back on the waggon after having failed to practice regularly for 20 years !
    Apart from that you may use this system to implement all kinds of other unpleasant activities into your life.

    To give something back:
    Share your experiences in the comments,
    so that others can learn from you and you can learn from others.

    When you are ready to move on, notify me here,
    and I will post the intermediate steps for you.

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  • sitting bull 15:44 on 2014-12-03 Permalink | Reply
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    Sodarshan Chakra Kriya 

    My words are in italic – the rest is from Yogi Bhajan. Since this is a lot of text I do mark the significant information bold so that you afterwards have a good overview of the necessary steps to undertake:

    Meditation for focus and mental purification

    Here is a meditation that makes use of prana to cleanse mental garbage and purify the mind. Of all the 20 types of yoga, including Kundalini yoga, this is the highest kriya. This is a very powerful meditation for prosperity. It will give you a new start. It is the simplest kriya, but at the same time the hardest. It cuts through all darkness and all barriers of the neurotic or psychotic nature. When a person is in a very bad state, techniques imposed form the outside will not work. The pressure has to be stimulated from within.

    The tragedy of life is when the subconscious releases garbage into the conscious mind. This kriya invokes the Kundalini to give you the necessary vitality and intuition to combat the negative effects of the subconscious mind.

    POSITION: Sit with a straight spine (either with legs crossed or sitting on a chair with feet flat on the ground) Eyes are focused at the tip of the
    nose, or closed if you prefer.

    MUDRA AND BREATH:
    a) Block off the right nostril with the right thumb. Inhale slowly and deeply through the left nostril and hold the breath.
    Mentally chant ‘Wahe Guru” 16 times, while pumping the navel point 3 times with each repetition (once on ”Waa”, once on ”hey”, and once on ”Guru”) for a total of 48 pumps.
    b) Unblock the right nostril and use the right index or pinkie finger to block the left nostril. Exhale slowly and deeply through the right nostril. Continue, inhaling left nostril, exhaling right.

    TO END: Inhale and hold 5-10 seconds. Exhale. Then stretch and shake the body for about 1 minute to circulate the energy.
    TIME: Suggested length for this kriya is 31 or 62 minutes a day. The ideal is to start at 31 minutes, but you can begin with 11 minutes, then build up to 31, then 40, and eventually 62.

    * There is no time, no place, no space, and no condition attached to this meditation.
    Each garbage pit has its own time to clear. If you are going to clean your own garbage, you must estimate and clean it as fast as you can, or as slow as you want. You have to decide how much time you have to dean up your garbage pit.

    COMMENTS: If you can do this meditation for 62 minutes to start with, then build up to the point where you can do it 2 1/2 hours a day (1/10 of the day), it will give you the following: ”Nao nidhi, athara sidhi,” which are the nine precious virtues and 18 occult powers. In these 27 total virtues of the world lies the entire universe.

    When practiced for 2 1/2 hours every day, it will make you a perfect superhuman. It purifies the subconscious and takes care of the human life. It will make you extremely intuitive. It brings together all 27 facets of life and makes a human saintly, successful, and qualified. This meditation also gives one pranic power. This kriya never fails. It can give one inner happiness, and bring one to a state of ecstasy in life.

    (as taught by Yogi Bhajan on December 1990)
    This basic instruction is what I worked with on my own for 24 years and I still follow it.
    Whilst this should be sufficient, f
    or your benefit to get the most complete version in one place,
    I will always add new findings below here.
    Feel free to post links which lead to more valuable information.

    More comments from Yogi Bhajan fount at 3HO.org:
    “This is one of the greatest meditations you can practice. It has considerable transformational powers. The personal identity is rebuilt, giving the individual a new perspective on the Self. It retrains the mind. According to the tantra shastras, it can purify your past karma and the subconscious impulses that may block you from fulfilling you. It balances all the 27 facets of life and mental projection, and gives you the pranic power of health and healing. It establishes inner happiness and a state of flow and ecstasy in life. It opens your inner universe to relate, co-create, and complete the external universe.

    This meditation balances the Teacher aspect of the mind. It acts on all the other aspects like a mirror to reveal their true nature and adds corrections. You act as a human being not just a human doing. If the Teacher aspect is too strong, you risk a spiritual ego, which becomes too attached to the ability to detach and to be “above” normal struggles. When the Teacher aspect is too weak, you can misuse your spiritual and teaching position for personal advantage. When balanced, the Teacher aspect is impersonally personal. It starts with absolute awareness and a neutral assessment from that awareness.

    The Teacher uses intuition to know directly what is real and what is a diversion. You respond from the Neutral Mind beyond the positives and negatives. You are clear about the purpose and the laws of each action. A complete Teacher is not an instructor. The Teacher is the expression of Infinity for the benefit of all. You master non-attachment so that you are simultaneously in all your activities and not of them.Treat the practice with reverence and increase your depth, dimensions, caliber, and happiness.”

    More Yogi Bhajan Quotes from Sahej.com/Sodarshan.html

    Yogi Bhajan said in Gurdwara on Sunday, December 22nd, 2002:
    “Now, most powerful and beautiful is Sodarshan Chakra Kriya. I thought that I have taught for so many years, now people are ready for it. We didn’t start teaching it the first day. For me (I do not know about anyone else) it took 30 years to be able to control my left and right nostrils without holding them with my fingers. And I still do that sometimes when I feel very weak – I use my hand and fingers. Somebody can say, “Switching nostrils is not needed since the air coming through the right nostril and the left nostril meets.” We shall not take any responsibility for such wrong practices! What the hell is one creating? Disturbing the pituitary, the master command gland? These kinds of jokes will end by themselves, but it will be dangerous for those who practice it wrong. There is nothing in the teachings which are not clearly stated and which have not worked accurately”

    And another Yogi Bhajan Quote from Sahej.com:

    The Teachings are the Teachings, and have no one’s personality in them. I never edit them; you should not edit them. It is a Golden Chain. My own prayer is that you can perfect what it is, and go with it. It is a funny thing. It is a three thousand year old proven path – it’s not going to stop. Why do you want to add or subtract something – to satisfy your ego or convince students? It is very deceitful on the part of a teacher to teach teachings to please people. So honestly give people what we have. Teach like me. Teach exactly as it is. If you are not going to teach Kundalini Yoga purely, then don’t teach it at all. With Kundalini Yoga you are dealing with the life force of the atom. Don’t play with the pranic energy”

    This is how the Siri Singh Sahib (Yogi Bhajan) keeps track of the counting.
    Inhale (blocking the right nostril with the right thumb, other fingers held straight up in the air). And then I hold, and then I count ’16’ – – how? One. two. three — counts with the pinkie finger, moving it slightly three times. Four. Five, six — moves the ring finger three times. Seven, eight, nine — moves the middle or Saturn finger three times. Ten. eleven, twelve: — moves the index finger three times Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen — moves the thumb slightly for three beats. Sixteen — brings the index finger over to block off the left nostril, as he releases the right thumb from the right nostril. Then Exhale through right nostril.
    You are open to try what works for you.

    — above were unaltered teachings of Yogi Bhajan

    A nice comment from Ravi Singh:
    A young disciple asked Buddha: How long will it take me to burn through all of my karma. Buddha said, Can you imagine a block of marble 1 mile square? Now imagine that once a year a dove flies over the top of the marble trailing a silk scarf. How long do you think it would take to wear that block of marble down to nothing? Thats what each of us is up against with regard to the load of karmic debt we carry.

    So Darshan Chakra Kriya is like 100 workmen with electric sanders working day and night on that
    metaphorical marble. So Darshan Chakra Kriya is the most important and powerful meditation in Kundalini Yoga. This meditation will very quickly and effectively help you clarify and resolve the core issues in your life and very directly begin to transform your life in ways in ways you may not even be able to imagine!


    Here are additional informations I gathered verbally from the 3HO comunity (so I strongly assume that the following is also from Yogi Bhajan):
    • 40 days of daily meditation and all skin-cells have changed, (which has to do with the aura)
    • 90 days and all blood-cells have changed (blood is related to emotions)
    • 120 days the bone-cells have changed and you have changed permanent
    by stamping each cell with your spiritual intention.
    • 1000 days of meditation changes a monkey to a saint.

    From the Hindu Tradition (one of the sources for Sikhism) I gathered:
    The Jalandhar Bandha is a yoga position in which the neck is to be bent a little for achieving this bandh. But it should not be bent much. It is to be pressed onto the depression just as a spring is pressed with a little force.
    It has been described in Hathapradeepika in the third chapter:
    “The chin is to be pressed on the chest (heart) after contracting the throat. This bandh eliminates old age and death. The contracted veins in the throat ensure that the liquid from the skies is received here. Hence, the bandh has been appropriately known as Jalandhar Bandh, which means that it destroys any pain in the throat.
    … Who practices this bandh for six months will, no doubt, achieve siddha status.”

    I also want to emphasize that I read that this exercise should be done with eyes focussing on the tip of the nose. This will definitely be the hardest part of the entire exercise.
    I realized that it is futile to force it, but instead constructive to relax into a forceful non-resistant state of mind which allows the eyes to drift within. I did set myself from time to time a second short timer repeating itself which reminded me often to focus on the nose again.
    It has literally to do with a state of relaxed focus.

    My personal tips out of experience for you (and believe me I did resist those revelations long) are:

    • Meditating before sunrise is literally 10 times easier than in the day: If you can do 11 minutes in daytime you could be able to do 62 minutes in the morning.
    • For men it is useful not to loose sperm to often – in chinese medicine it is the seat of the willpower, called Jing – and the longer it was able to build up the easier is the focussing on the eye. This comes because there runs a major meridian, called Dumai, up the spine which connects the preheavenly Qi (our constitution stored in the Kidneys and in the center in between, called the Ming Men) to the brain – in fact this is the essence of Kundalini Yoga to bring that Kundalini-Snakelike-energy up like a Cobra – hence pictures in chinese Restaurants of a bull at the bottom running through the mud, walking up a path and on top a perl ( the pituitary gland of the third eye).

    My personal recommendation for you to do this exercise
    1. Build it up over a 2-3 week period increasing 1 “Wahe Guru” each time & do it properly ( sit straight and focus on the tip of the nose ) from the start.
    (It took me 2 weeks to be able to hold the breath over more than one cycle – then suddenly I had a break through and was able to meditate for as long as I could).

    You may try at this point to increase it as fast as possible, but in the likely case that it overwhelms you as it did me for 20 years. So to save you this painful time (of crisis and diseases), instead of dropping it alltogether, go for the 1000 day plan which will transform your life forever gently but much faster.
    and do following meditations DAILY.

    2. Go for 40 days  just 3 minutes ( Jesus also went for 40 days into the desert)
    3. extend the 40 days to 90 days of daily meditation
    (If you fail: Simply start again. Meanwhile you can slowly build up to 10 minutes if you wish
    This took me an entire year because I failed a few times after around 55 days)
    4. Stay with the daily practice f and extend 3 min. to 120 days (once you have done 90 days it is easy to add the last 30 days).
    Now you earned your 3 Minute-level, so you can go on to the next step:
    5. Another 120 days of 11 minutes of Sodarchan Chakra Kriya ( meanwhile build up to 21 minutes in your own time )
    Yet again – if you fail: No worries; just start again with this 11-minute-step.
    6. 120 days of 22 Minutes (meanwhile build up to half an hour). On failing: repeat this step.
    7. 120 days of 31 minutes ( intermediate- meanwhile build up to an hour).
    If you don’t succeed at first … try again (and again and again … took me 3 years alltogether)
    8. 120 days of 62 minutes (the length was measured in heartbeats not minutes)
    9. Now you can slowly build up to 1/10th of the day.
    10. 120 days of a tenth of the day. (which is 144 minutes),
    11. 120 days of 2 ½ hours  (If you fail a day then, Yogi Bhajan said not to worry.)!

    Addendum: meanwhile I did complete this program and had a crisis because I was not as enlightened as I was hoping for.
    After having loosened up my practice and having looked for other spiritual ways for a year I think the only way is to continue, because I can not judge this kriya before I have done 1000 days of 2.5 hours of it. 
    Since this is scary, I give myself a little break first.
    You can watch my realtime progress on the right side of this page.

     

     
  • sitting bull 21:16 on 2019-05-18 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Catholicism, , Church, Germany, monotheism, nazi, Protestantism,   

    religion #1: The religious influence of my parents 

    In opposition to my father who came from the poorest class, my mother came from a successful business family with an educated upbringing in manners – something I fortunately do participate from until now, whenever I meet people of higher classes or standards.

    Just to show you how much did change within the last century: Even though both sides were very religious, my grandfather was originally protestant but had to convert to my grandmother’s religion, because two generations ago it was still unthinkable for protestants to marry catholics and vice versa. You probably wouldn’t believe it, but even to marry outside ones village was unorthodox for some (which was probably the cause for the incestual byproduct of a “village-idiot” to have been seen in each village).

    This by the way is the reason why I do believe mixed races to be a blessing of a fresh genetic pool to monocultural races. Fortunately for me, my ancestors mixed – if not in races than at least in cultures:

    My poor grandparents of my father’s side, in ignorance of the Nazi’s committed atrocities, bought into their simplistic slogans (as simple minded people do), whilst my mother’s wealthy parents hated Hitler, because he did split up the good connection they had to the french border region of Alsace, where their main office was located.

    To protect themselves from Nazi-informers they had their obligatory picture of Hitler hanging on the wall, but as soon as visitors left, did turn it around to the side which did show a religious picture of Mary who is revered by Catholics.

    So by having been baptised as a baby I was made a member of the Catholic church without even having chosen it myself. This was my first issue with Christianity, even though I only discovered it when I was 18 and had to pay my first taxes in Berlin.

    Maybe living away from home helped, but I then decided not to pay a membership-fee for a club I never actually chose to be in. So I did leave the Church.

    One of the reasons Christianity was more a burden than a bliss to me, was the dogma that
    in order to be loved by a father-like authority-figure I first would have to believe in “him” –
    a concept which to me does not seem to be unconditional love at all, but an extortion by the means of fear.

    This dogma by monotheists was actually hammered so deep into my brain that up to this day this damocles-sword still lingers subconsciously over my head when dismissing any kind of superior creator god.

    Much later I did discover the value of first believing in the concept of a leap of faith which can be a basis for miraculous transformations; but it took me many decades to detach it from the concept of a punishing god.

    So my current position is that I am a strong believer of fearlessly following ones own deeper beliefs;
    yet instead of hoping for some daddy to “come to the rescue”,
    to evolve oneself to a state in which mind controls matter.

     
  • sitting bull 12:28 on 2019-05-09 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: ancestors, choleric, failure, family and relatives, father, grandparents, mars, parents, resolution, sanquine   

    my first resolution and dilemma about my manhood 

    Like anybody, I also am a conglomerate of the different energies I did inherit from my ancestors.

    I was told that my great grandfather used to be a kind of jack of all trades who (way ahead of his times) 100 years ago drew up two organic foods for goats, made ballet shoes for the theatre Freiburg, and also had a shoe shop at the most beautiful part of town which in war (due to lack of water) he had to watch to burn down without being able to extinguish it.

    There must be some truth to the astrological saying that if someone’s ascendent (the direction one walks to) is a gemini (a person who has many interests), the then one of their parents also seem to be a gemini: My grandfather, father (who was a gemini) and myself also were were similar versatile, and my ascendent is also gemini.

    Even though he was totally poor, my grandfather was very intelligent, sensitive, and had many talents – in the second world war he had to get food for the army (he claimed to have done that to avoid to have to shoot humans), he was a great cook (it took him an entire day to cook his legendary Christmas duck), was very musical, taught himself to play a little bit piano, was very versatile in many crafts, could play chess very well (always was beating my father, who always was winning against me in chess), and was reading books from different cultures, few of his time did read – from the secret power of the Jesuits up to the Bhagavad Gita.

    ~~~

    I think in evolution there is a dynamic that energies swing from one side to another, because my grandfather, in opposition to my grandmother, was the sensitive one, my father then the fighter, and me again extremely emotional.

    My grandmother was a very simple woman – whilst my grandfather was a bear, she was tiny, thin, always frantically running around, but despite her frail appearance had a choleric trade, who hit my sister and me on occasion with our trouser suspenders. Because I had no understanding of anger as a child, when they were arguing, it often looked really funny to me, because my “Opa” reminded me of Obelix, and my “Oma” of Asterix.

    In reconstruction one can’t blame her, who was of the lowest class – a farm laborer, for her character trade, because she was raised by a classic “evil stepmother” who supposedly did purposely put hair in her soup.
    Somehow she even had very simple and naive rules which somehow are wisdoms I still do remember, such as “you can’t serve two lords”, meaning in her mind that one can’t serve the devil and god, and even though I don’t believe in Satan, I think in spiritual terms she did have a point, when juxtaposing low consciousness greed against a higher mind of serenity.

    As it is the case with unresolved issues, they are past on to the children, so she at times left her baby – my father who was raised as a single child – sitting at the toilet for up to four hours, so you can imagine him having had his issues also.

    ~ ~ ~

    In post WW2 Germany, everything was bombed, so my father, who was just 3 years old when the war started, was used to have to work really hard for everything in his life: He had to help to help everywhere, due to war-issues had to change schools 15 times (which did turn the small but strong guy into a lone fighter), studied very hard to become a sports- German- and history-teacher, later created a totally new kind of job which combined school with theatre, and had a passionate side which did inspire and amuse many.

    But he also inherited the choleric trade from my grandmother, which despite him having been a warm-hearted dad who was really good in teaching us kids things, at times turned him into a moody tyrant at home, so that our mother, after he came out of his daily naps, often warned us to hide somewhere in order to avoid slaps in the face.

    But even on his moody days, in society he played always the great and funny guy, so as soon as visitors came, he was the most hospital guy ever – only to instantly treat us harsh again, as soon as they left.
    This is why I got a sixth sense for the dominance of many revered stars and even spiritual teachers and see right through their veil of image cultivation (as you could see in my critical articles about Yogi Bhajan – the only person btw, I criticise by name, because he is dead, and I am not out to hurt living ones).

    I then made my first unspoken life-resolution:
    Never become as dominant as my father
    and give as much space to others as possible.

    This, however turned out to become a difficult endeavour, because (besides his emotive affection for dogs) I also did inherit his strong marsian fire of on one hand being able to make people laugh a lot and on the other hand having a potential for being really furious.

    So I was set up for the first dilemma of my life –
    wanting to suppress an inherited energy, which is a literally inherent part of me.
    On one hand, if I dismiss my propensity for aggression, I might become a tyrant,
    but on the other hand, if I succeed, I end up literally emasculated.

    To avoid this catch-22 situation, in school I usually turned into the class clown in order to compensate my frustration with the education system in humorous sarcasm without getting into fights.

    So whenever you see people who fail to fulfil societies requirements of contributing to the national gross income, are homeless, or make a fool out of themselves, remember that such childhood-imprints could be one of the reasons for it.

     
  • sitting bull 11:48 on 2019-05-07 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: autobiography, , dharma, , entanglements, , , self-reflection   

    a disclaimer in regards to my upcoming subjectivity 

    I find it quite difficult to write an autobiography which on one hand is meant to reconstruct the evolutions of the mind and on the other hand tries to be as chronologically as possible, because our conclusions do come in threats of themes which we later reconstruct to make sense to us.

    So in order to give each article a meaning I want to come up with a hindsight conclusion, despite the fact that at the time I did not have those which caused me to repeat those lessons multiple times but please bear in mind that those are usually not the last conclusions or insights I had.

    Because I want to reconstruct the internal process of ones psychological evolution I did not post them yet but decided to first post more of the impressions I got whilst I was growing up.

    As you know a child does not instantly analyse, but just take in experiences which later they form conclusions which much later turn into higher insights.

    So for the sake of walking with you through this internal process you will first read personal stuff about my life which to a large extend might be insignificant for you who is on a different path, and at times nervewrecking repetitive for you,
    but that is to show how slow the mere path of following ones Karma works and how the mind has to slowly walk through ones life backwards by the means of self-reflection, contemplation and meditation to “detangle” the tremendous emotional entanglements which did pile on tons of misconceptions on us.

    Therefore, whenever you read something you disagree with – please understand that those are mere steps on a path, which at later stages bears deep inner changes and a broader understanding of many sides.

     
  • sitting bull 1:01 on 2019-05-05 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: abrahamic religions, , , , , semites, teenager   

    religion #0: How I was raised to believe 

    Maybe a good way to start a spiritual autobiography is with god.

    The experience:

    Like most people I grew up being taught by my parents in what to believe, so I took on their faith which in my case was their catholic Christian god.

    Because my grandmother told us that children’s prayer would reach the clouds, I did my best to pray.

    My parents made me an altar-boy (who always forgot to ring the bells in time, who unknowingly did light his own hair with the own confirmation candle, who missed to visit his own house when walking through the celebration of the “three wise Kings” and who made kids involuntary cry when having to play Santa Claus’ helper “Knecht Ruprecht” – because the costume I got was too small for me; so in order to be able to wear the cap sawn on it, I had to walk like a hunchbag all the time.

    In church, I usually could relate best to the sentence at the end of each mess: “thanks to our lord god” ,
    and I also thanked him that this boring event was over.

    It also got on my nerves that the conservative priest did twist our ears when we hadn’t attended Sunday mess (not knowing that we were there on Saturdays), and I disliked that there always were people taller than me blocking my view, so I visualised god mowing them all down to my size.
    Decades later a tiny woman told me that she and her small family was actually always standing behind me and she had cursed me out multiple times for exact the same reason.

    But then again, there was nothing to see anyway, except for an authoritarian god-father figure painted on the wall which for decades did “put the fear of god into me” – a phrase I could not really relate to.

    Such is the fear of god, that one subconsciously feels afraid when not believing in “him”.

    I wondered anyway why god should be male. I think god should be called “it”, because if it is everything why the heck should it be limited to a gender role?
    Yay, hardcore-feminists out there, here is something for you to fight against: go after the Abrahamic version of a macho-god, instead of attacking me for having balls !

    To strengthen my fate, as a gift for my completed A-levels, my parents generously payed for a trip to see the biblical places of Israel, so I went with a religious group for an exchange with Arab Chrisians who lived near a Kibbuz, but that dudb’t go as my parents hoped for, because
    * at the original stations of the cross they sold crowns of thorns for tourists;
    * in Betlehem they told every visitor to crawl into some tiny space where Jesus was supposed to be born, to “kiss it, touch it, make a photo!“,
    * and in the midst of summer they sang “silent night, holy night” whilst the priest entered the church, holding up a plastic Jesus.
    So I pretty much was done with the church, but also
    * the Islamic golden temple was not better, when feeling a vertical hole in a rock in which Mohamed supposedly did put his foot in: I wondered: how could anyone put his foot in there sideways, and why did the imprint remind me more of that of a goat’s foot than a human one? #allFake&greed

    And seeing members of all 3 Abrahamic religions fight amongst each other made me loose faith in all of them alltogether.
    For me the terminology “anti-semitism” for example is already a distorted victim-consciousness, because not only Israelis are semites, but the entire part of north Africa -including exactly those who sarcastically are called “antisemitic“.

    So whenever I had teenager crises I did regret not having anyone to pray to, but at least I was authentic for not using god in an opportunistic way.

    I also found out that Jesus’ birth definitely was not around the year zero, because passages about Herod the (not so) great who supposedly was killing tons of kids in order to also kill Jesus, died 4 years BC (meaning before Christ was even born!).
    The only way you can explain Herod’s “premature killjoy-ejaculation” is by claiming that our calender was arbitrary constructed afterwards.
    But then again – so is the entire bible itself.

    Later I discovered that Christmas was put onto December to override the Germanic winter-solstice Yule-fest, for me this seemed less as a “merry Christmas” than a “maryChristAndMess”.

    Also eastern obviously used to be a spring-pagan festival – with symbols of fertility such as eggs and the rabbit (which – to make matters worse – the bible falsely declares to be a ruminant ^^).

    Ok, I thought, the reason Christians cling onto their Bible,
    is because in the new testament it is stated that no word should be added, nor taken away.
    All good …
    … except for the fact that in the old testament any alteration or addition to the book already was forbidden.
    So logic dictates that the entire new testament is a sin, because it is added when long time ago the Biblepart corresponding to the. Jewish Torah requested nothing to be changed.

    Overall it seemed to me that faith is like the conditioning of small elephant-babies, which are tied to a rope on a peg.

    When they later are grown to be huge they still don’t try to break free from their tiny rope, because they are conditioned that the rope would be unescapable.

    Adyashanti once said that orthodox religions were meant to serve as “welcome mats” to guide us into our own house of self-realisations, but unfortunately most people are stuck worshipping the welcome mat itself, instead of entering the house of their self.

     
  • sitting bull 1:31 on 2019-04-30 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: autobiography of a looser, chronology of an epic downfall, disappointments, ,   

    An autobiographical research into of the evolution of our soul 

    An attempt to figure out the way the mind evolves throughout our karmic biography

    versus the means of reflection, contemplation and meditation.

    Our entanglement in life is unfathomable, which leads us to the believe that there must be some higher force or reason behind all of it.
    Without wanting to dismiss anyones believe in higher powers, one thing for me is certain – I have the right to understand myself by myself,
    so instead of putting my head into the sand of ignorant fatalism, I want to start a very personal research into the twists of the human mind by using my life as an example.

    I don’t do this because I do consider my life as more important than anyone elses’, but for the simple reason that it is the only one I fully have access to – at least to the extend that I still remember all those events which were not suppressed into the realm of forgetfulness by my resisting ego.

    This timing is right, because I just started a 3 year long inner journey to literally re-search for my higher, true or divine soul by the means of Yoga-meditation which will bring a lot of autobiographical stuff up, before insights come.

    So I herewith will open myself up totally; by writing down all experiences which did have a lasting impact on me – regardless of their political correctness or how they make me look like.

    What is needed in this time of dishonest Kali-Yuga-masquerade for the sake of preserving an image to impress the shallow minded ones currently in power; is someone who reclaims honesty in the superficial social-network-farce by opening up in an honest way in order to break the story of the emperor’s new clothes. And since I have nothing to loose, I make the first step here; in the hope to inspire others to loose their fear of being authentic.

    Whilst most people like stories of inspirations in order to be uplifted, this series might put of those who merely look for the bright side of life without wanting to look at the entire picture.
    I observed this already, as some advocates of the (in itself still shallow) mere”wellness-and-health-food-spirituality“, or of the other extreme of a “mere faith in an authoritarian god figure who will rescue us all” stopped reading this blog or replying to mails.
    Those usually were people who were looking for inspriations (in from the outside) without wanting to include the saturnic (duty) aspects of (self claimed) “@spirations”.

    Those people will resort to autobiographies of people who made it to the top of our society.
    But this – in opposition to Yogananda’s “Autobiography of a Yogi” will be an “Autobiography of a looser” – a chronology of an epic downfall, but therefore the display of lessons of in non-attachment through literal dis-appointments -> unfulfilled appointments, my naive mind made in blind hope with reality.

    As a future disclaimer – I want to add that most of my life-deviations will turn out to have become valuable lessons
    – first on a lower consciousness in form of at times cynical consequences,
    – then as a “street-wisdom” or a “wisdom of age“, which as we know is less “wisdom” but often sadly only limited to distrustful strategic lessons,
    – and later guided by my meditative higher mind to some forms of more loving and compassionate world-views which allow for the existence of an Infinite Diversity in Infinite Combinations (which Gene Roddenberry’s Vulcans did cherish).

    So whenever you can’t relate to one point or another, I can assure you that most of what I am about to write will be explained later.
    The only reason why I won’t explain my misconceptions straight away is in order to let the reader walk with me through an experience – something which would not happen if you knew the outcome (for the same reasons no one likes movie-spoilers).

    Because memories will not all come up in chronological order, I will categorise my autobiography in the blog here under a “bio(graphy)” menu points, like:
    *bio
    +>my 20s (, 30s, 40s, etc..)
    +> my yin and yang sides
    +> different issues (such as #family, #men, #women, etc)
    +> lower and higher mind insights …
    so that you may pick out the parts which you can relate to.

     
    • JV Avadhanulu 5:14 on 2019-05-01 Permalink | Reply

      Thank you, dear Thilo, for your courage to share your life and your deepest leranings with us. I don’t agree that you are a loser and you may like to reconsider attaching that label to yourself.
      Wish you all the best

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      • sitting bull 10:31 on 2019-05-01 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you for your compassionate response, JV,
        with this upcoming series I just want to convey to people how despite best of wished ones life can go down the drain,
        and then how to pick it up afterwards again and about the difficulties on the path.

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  • sitting bull 23:31 on 2019-04-28 Permalink | Reply  

    1000 days of 2.5 hours of Sodarshan Chakra Kriya 

    For literally 25 years I did build up the Sodarshan Chakra Kriya, because Yogi Bhajan promised:

    1. it to be the highest Kriya (exercise) of all types of Yoga;
    2. it would give one a new start;
    3. it would cut through all darkness and barriers of the neurotic or psychotic nature, by giving one the vitality and intuition to combat negative effects of the subconscious mind;
    4. it would work when no exterior techniques from the outside work;
    5. and it would work at any time and in any space.

    Since there are spiritual cycles I took a months break from meditating and waited for my next birthday which is always a good starting point,
    so because today is my birthday I did start this final phase in which I want to put his promises to a test.

    Whilst I don’t expect specific results, I do hope for the claim that a thousand days of daily practice supposedly will implement the meditation vibration into ones character so that it continues to work on ones personality for the rest of ones life.

    I have to admit that I am very scared of failing, because 2.5 hours are likely to be skipped – if not done first thing in the morning.
    This means that I not only have put my worldly activities into the background and don’t allow for any interference in the first hours of the day, but obviously have to skip spontaneous late nights – especially in combination with inebriations.

    So yesterday evening I went to bed early and in panic not to miss the early hours (in which it is literally 10 times easier to meditate), I woke up 1.5 hours later, but knowing that I would not be able to fall asleep soon, I rose to the occasion and sat for 2.5 hours in the dark – from half past one to 4am (after which I did allow myself to sleep again – without this luxuary I know that I would not have the motivation to get up so early).

    What really was beautiful was that in opposition to normal meditations when insights usually come in the relaxation phase after the meditation, I got my first insight after only a few minutes into doing it, because it involved the practice:

    Throughout the entire 25 years I didn’t realise that I was mentally chanting “Wahe Guru” in the proposed 3 beats:”Wa”,”He”,and “Guru”, but maybe because in my mind “Guru” has two syllables I always gave the mantra one beat more, to allow for all 4 syllables – I did the “Wa-He-Guru” in 3 syllables but it was more like a 4/4 beat with the fourth beat played by another drum.
    You can check out what I mean on the SCK-beats I made nearly two decades ago:
    https://thilo.bandcamp.com/album/sodarshan-chakra-kriya

    I then realised however, that this has an entire different dynamic to a walz-like 3/4 beat which is much more forward-driven.

    So all I can recommend to practitioners of SCK is a new found rule of thumb:
    – if you want SCK to become more contemplative, you can add the fourth pause-beat in your head,
    – and if you need for some more power and action in your life, go for the walz-like non-stop “WaheguruWaheguruWaheguru” without any mental pauses.

    It is amazing how there is always still room for more observations – even within such a simple and limited issue such as a 3-syllable mantra.
    Maybe this is the key to amazing wisdom:
    Once we ridden ourselves of our intellectual and emotional conditionings we free our souls to see these tiny details, most of us overlook.

    Free yourself from your Hamster-wheels !

     
    • JV Avadhanulu 3:44 on 2019-04-29 Permalink | Reply

      Dear Thilo, Wish you ahppy birthday and tarnsformational journey of 1000 days with inner Peace and Joy.

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      • sitting bull 11:49 on 2019-04-29 Permalink | Reply

        Thank you, dear JV – those are the comments which give me strength on my else solitaire path.

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    • David N Cook 2:03 on 2019-04-30 Permalink | Reply

      Thanks Thilo – good luck in your quest for 1000 days! I am still doing SCK for 5 reps in the morning after tuning in; then I turn to my knee exercises (prescribed by physical therapists and working, so I continue). Then I begin the Five Tibetans, and I have reached 21reps for them all. It is quite a workout, especially the 2nd one, the leg-lift. I am noticing some physical strengthening and potentially firming my will to stay focused during strenuous activity. Real changes come after 30-40days, at least that was my experience with SCK. I just did not want to completely give up my SCK practice – I felt it become part of who I am after one year. Earlier this month we attended Sat Nam Fest, a gathering of Kundalini people in Malibu Canyon, very near us. Interesting to see people from all over the world as well as from the large LA community. That’s me in the middle, in the great shirt; Saturday morning practice on the beach. Best wishes from Oxnard Shores, CA!

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      • sitting bull 0:28 on 2019-05-01 Permalink | Reply

        Than you, David for your nice message, you are one of my most faithful readers!
        It looks as if this was a mail, because you tell your private life-stories so openly and also refer to a photo which can not be seen in comments.
        However, first of all I do wish you the very best with your knee-recovery. This really can impair the practice of sitting for a long time as I experienced myself, so I guess it is good that you do more moving exercises like the 5 Tibetans right now.

        Talking the Tibetans: From the time I first read the book about them I did suspect somehow that those were more of an invention of Peter Kelder, but then again, if we look closely – nearly all of those fascinating exercises always seem to go through a “bottleneck” of one person only claiming to have received a secret wisdom:
        Yogananda’s teacher Lahiri Mahasaya claims that he met the ageless Mahavatar Babaji who taught him Kriya Yoga, and also for Sodarshan Chakra Kriya there is no other source to be found than that from Yogi Bhajan. So in the end I assume strongly that it is not so much about the actual exercise, but about our total dedication to it.

        So I think you are on a great path if you have the stamina to stick to those two spiritual and physical disciplines – I just wanted to throw this in there so that we see things for what they are without getting disillusioned ones our chosen discipline turns out to be a subjective invention.
        This is why I once did write my hypercritical series on Yogi Bhajan, to let people know that even the best chefs only cook with water.

        Moral of the story: Just as beauty lies in the eye of the beholder, the power of any kriya seems to lie in the application of the practitioner(s).

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  • sitting bull 15:11 on 2019-03-12 Permalink | Reply
    Tags: Anfänger, , kostenlos, , Meditations-yoga, meditationskurs, , , yoga kurs,   

    Der Sodarshan Chakra Kriya Kurs für Anfänger 

    Der große Vorteil von dieser Meditation im Gegensatz zu anderen spirituellen Disziplinen ist, dass
    * alle Informationen auf einer Seite zu finden sind, (also im Gegensatz zu den meisten esoterischen Richtungen nichts elitär zurückgehalten wird).
    * Alles umsonst ist, (also dass man sich die Wertschätzung dafür nicht leicht erkaufen kann, sondern erarbeiten muss),
    * dass diese Yoga-Übung ungefähr 10 mal so stark wie herkömmliche Meditationen ist, und damit durch einen geringen Zeitaufwand schon Erfolge sichtbar werden.

    Wer diese Übung einmal gelernt hat dem kann sie nie wieder weg genommen werden, denn selbst wenn man Alles verloren hat (wie z.Bsp. im Gefängnis oder auf einer einsamen Insel gestrandet), kann man sein Leben lang damit weiter fortschreiten!

    Der Hauptgrund Sodarshan Chakra Kriya im Gegenteil zu anderen spirituellen Disziplinen zu machen ist der Glaube, dass Deine interne Unausgeglichenheiten und Fehlkonzeptionen die Wurzel all Deiner Probleme sind.
    SCK reinigt Deine Persönlichkeit von den Aspekten, die Dir den Zugang zu Deiner wahren Seele überschatten.

    Aber genau das macht es sehr schwer, diese Übung konsequent durchzuziehen, denn das zurückgebliebene Selbstbildnis (wie es Morpheus in der Matrix beschreibt) macht von allen Tricks des Intellekts gebrauch, um nicht vom Ego los zu lassen.

    Ambition, sowohl als Aspiration benötigt eine Kombination von zwei Arten der Stärke oder Tugend:
    Ein langzeit Durchhaltevermögen und der Wille unangenehme Phasen zu durchstehen.
    Je nach dem eigenen Weltbild und den Erfahrungen kann man sich entweder eine langen aber sicheren Weg aussuchen (der 28 Jahre des Glaubens benötigt), oder einen kurzen aber schmerzhaften auswählen, in dem man schnell durch den Prozess durchdringt.
    Die Wahl ist ähnlich der, ob man ein Pflaster langsam abzieht, oder sich es schnell vom Körper reisst.

    Hiermit versuche ich beiden Wegen gerecht zu werden.
    Sollte Deine Aspiration sein, SCK komplett zu meistern ohne halbwegs aufzugeben, tust Du gut daran nicht, wie ich, zwei Jahrzehntelang rum zu schwimmen, um immer mal wieder die vollen 2,5 Stunden erzwingen zu wollen, bis die tiefen Krisen unangenehmer Selbsterkenntnis mich aufgeben ließen – nur um später erneut ganz von vorne anfangen zu müssen.

    Aus meinen Fehler lernend, entwickelte ich eine Methode meinen verschluderten Langzeitplan innerhalb von 5 Jahren aufzuholen, den Du als Geländer verwenden kannst, um es nicht zu übertreiben, oder vorschnell aufzuhören.

    1.) Sodarshan Chakra Kriya lernen

    Fange mit einer kurzen körperlichen Übung an:
    Gehe zu dieser Seite: https://thilo.bandcamp.com/album/sodarshan-chakra-kriya
    – spiele die Beats von vorne ab (Du kannst das online machen ohne etwas kaufen zu müssen),
    – wenn immer der Wind Klang kommt, atme,
    dann halte Deinen Atem
    – und pumpe den Bauch zu diesen Schlägen, bis der nächste Atemklang kommt.
    – fahre fort, bis Deine Bauchmuskeln erschöpft sind und schreibe dann die Nummer des Stücks auf, an dem Du aufgehört hast.
    In den nächsten Tagen:
    – Da die Schläge sich verlangsamen, fahre mit dem Stück fort, bei dem Du das letzte mal aufgehört hast, bis Du das Stück findes, das langsam genug ist, dass Du den Bauch dazu pumpen kannst.

    Solltest Du lieber im Stillen praktizieren, habe ich hier eine ausführliche Anleitung und eine Zählhilfe mit Fingern anstatt Klängen geschrieben.

    Für jeden Schritt beglaubigst Du Dich selbst mit einer Tarot-Karte. Wenn Du willst, kannst Du Dir Tarotkarten kaufen, um ein materielles Gefühl des Fortschritts zu erleben.

    2.) Als nächstes gilt es die original Anleitung auszuführen während Du weiterhin den Bauch zu den oben erwähnten Schlägen pumpst.
    Benutze den folgenden fett-gedruckten Absatz als Spickzettel, bis Du die Übung auswendig kannst.

    MUDRA UND ATEM:
    a) Blockiere den rechten Nasenflügel mit dem rechten Daumen. Atme langsam und tief durch den linken Nasenflügel ein und halte den Atem.
    Chante im Geiste 16 mal ‘Wahe Guru”, und pumpe dazu den Nabel 3 mal mit jeder Repetition ( einmal bei “Waa”, einmal bei “Heh” und einmal bei “Guru”; insgesamt 48 Bauch-Anspannungen.


    b)

    Löse den Finger vom rechten Nasenflügel und benutze den rechten Zeige- oder kleinen Finger, um das linke Nasenloch zu schließen. Atme langsam und tief durch das rechte Nasenloch aus. Setze die Übung genauso fort links einzuatmen und rechts auszuatmen.

    Sobald Du es geschafft hast 7 dieser Atemzyklen hintereinander durch zu ziehen bist Du aus Deinem Null-Wissen herausgewachsen und hast Dir die Karte 0 verdient.
    Gratuliere – Du kannst jetzt Sodarshan Chakra Kriya machen!

    BEENDEN: Inhaliere und halte die Luft für 5-10 Sekunden an. Ausatmen.
    Dann strecke und schüttle den Körper ungefähr eine Minute lang, um die Energie zu zirkulieren.

    2.) in die tägliche Praxis hineinwachsen

    [Original Anleitung:] POSITION: Sitze mit einem geraden Rücken (entweder mit gekreuzten Beinen oder in einem Stuhl mit den Füßen flach auf dem Boden)

    Augen sind auf die Nasenspitze fokussiert, oder geschlossen, falls Dir das lieber ist.

    Yogi Bhajan

    Schritt 3:
    Beschaffe Dir einen Timer oder eine Eieruhr und mache ein mal wöchentlich 3 Minuten SCK.
    Für jede der folgenden 3 Wochen erhältst Du eine der 3 Karten des Magiers:


    Innerhalb des zweiten Monats kannst Du Dir die zweite TarotKarte, Die Hohepriesterin, ergattern, indem Du zweimal wöchentlich praktizierst.

    (Eins ist eine männliche Nummer, weshalb der Magier die Karte Eins war und die Hohepriesterin die weibliche Nummer zwei hat.)

    Anfänger mögen einen Monat für jeden dieser Schritte brauchen,
    und Fortgeschrittene können täglich zur nächsten Übung weiter gehen.

    Tipp :
    Falls Du Dich in einer schwierignen Situation befindest (weil Du z.Bsp. irgendwo zu Gast bist), von Leuten umgeben bist, und keine Eieruhr hast, dann kannst Du Deine tägliche Praxis 7 Atemzyklen lang diskret auf einem Toilettendeckel durchführen, denn das sind ungefähr 3 Minuten.
    Niemand wird Deine Abwesenheit über solch eine kurze Zeit bemerken.

    {Original Kommentar von Y.B.:}

    Die Tragödie des Lebens ist, wenn das Unterbewusstsein Abfälle in das Bewusstsein entlädt. Dieses Kriya erweckt die Kundalini um Dir die notwendige Vitalität und Intuition zu geben, um die negativen Nebenwirkungen des Unterbewusstseins zu bekämpfen.

    Faustregel: Fahre erst mit einer nächsten Übung fort, wenn Du Dir sicher bist, diese ohne Schwierigkeiten durchgeführt zu haben. Wenn nicht, dann wiederhole die Übung, bis Du zufrieden damit bist.

    Jetzt mache SCk drei mal wöchentlich (das ist der letzte Schritt in dem Du es an fixen Wochentagen machen kannst).
    Danach kriegst Du die Karte
    Then try to do SCK three times weekly (this is the last step in which you can set fixed weekdays for your practice).
    You then may claim Die Herrscherin

    Meditation für Fokus und geistige Reinigung
    {Original Kommentar von Y.B. :}

    Hier ist eine Meditation, die mit Hilfe von Prana geistigen Müll aufräumt, und Klarheit schafft.

    Von allen 20 Arten Yoga, einschliesslich Kundalini Yoga, ist das das höchste Kriya.

    Dies ist eine sehr wirksame Meditation, um Reichtum zu erlangen.

    Sie wird Dir einen Neustart verschaffen.

    Sobald Du SCK 4x wöchentlich machen kannst, bekommst Du die Karte Der Herrscher.

    {Original Kommentar von Y.B. :}

    Es ist das einfachste Kriya, aber gleichzeitig eines der schwersten.

    Diese Übung schneidet durch alle Barrieren der psychotischen oder neurotischen Natur.

    Wenn sich eine Person in einem sehr schlechten Zustand befindet, werden extern angewandte Methoden nicht funktionieren.

    Der Druck muss von innen stimuliert werden.

    Bist Du bereit SCK 5x wöchentlich zu machen, gehört die Karte Der HierophantDir.

    {Original Kommentar von Y.B. :}

    Es gibt keine Zeit, keinen Platz, keinen Raum und keine Bedingung die mit dieser Meditation verknüpft sind.

    Jeder Müllhaufen benötigt seine eigene Zeit um gereinigt zu werden.

    Wenn Du Deinen eigenen Müll angehst, musst Du selbst schätzen; und ihn dann so schnell als Du kannst oder langsam, wie Du willst verarbeiten.

    Du musst entscheiden wie viel Zeit Du hast, um Deine eigene Müllhalde zu verarbeiten.

    Sobald Du in der Lage bist SCK 6x wöchentlich zu praktizieren, (also jeden Werktag außer Sonntag z.Bsp.), hast Du Dir Die Liebenden verdient.

    Wenn Du Fragen hast, oder mehr über SCK wissen willst, lese bitte die deutschen Artikel oder surfe querfeldein auf dieser Seite, denn hier steht Alles, was es über SCK zu wissen gibt.

    Jetzt solltest Du es schaffen SCK (nur 3 Minuten lang) täglich zu machen und bekommst dafür die Karte: Der Wagen.

    Nur um Dich zu inspirieren, dass das möglich ist:
    Obwohl ich aus einer unspirituellen nicht-meditierenden Familie stamme habe ich alle Schritte dieses folgenden Kurses selbst gemacht.

    Also wenn ich das tun konnte, dann kannst Du das auch – so lange Du Dich danach sehnst Deine Unausgeglichenheiten und Irrmeinungen ausbalancieren zu wollen.

    Sobald Du SCK täglich machen kannst bist Du auf dem langsamen aber sichern Pfad, auf den Du jederzeit zurückfallen kannst, wenn immer Deine Praxis versagen sollte.

    Der Vorteil dieses Weges ist, dass er Deine Seele reibungslos im Hintergrund reinigt, so dass Nichts Deinen weltlichen Ambitionen im Weg steht.

    Um Dir also Dein persönliches Sicherheitsnetz zu schaffen:
    1.) Schreibe auf, wann Du SCK angefangen hast
    (Ich benutze ein Spreadsheet, um meine gewünschten und wirklich durchgeführten Meditationszeiten einzutragen).
    2.) Faustregel, wenn immer Du eine längere Pause hattest:
    Ab dem Zeitpunkt, an dem Du angefangen hast, solltest Du in der Lage sein Deine Meditationszeit jedes Jahr um 6 Minuten gesteigert zu haben (oder alle 2 Monate um einen Monat).
    {Bsp: Nach 5 Jahren solltest Du fähig sein täglich eine halbe Stunde lang zu meditieren}

    Um die Meditation bis auf ein Zehntel des Tages aufzubauen, was dem christlichen Zehnt einer Spende entspricht und bei Sikhs Dasvand heisst, braucht man auf diese Art 24-25 Jahre, und dann noch 3 Jahre um 1000 Tage 2.5 Stunden zu machen.

    Dieser 28-Jahre-Zyklus entspricht einer Saturn-Wiederkehr, nach der Einem karmische Lektionen vor Augen gehalten werden, denn der Saturn ist der äußerste Planet in unserem Sonnensystem, der damit die Grenzen aufzeigt.

    Das scheint eine sehr lange Zeit zu sein, aber wenn man an größere Seelenzyklen (wie z.Bsp. Reinkarnation) glaubt, dann sind 28 Jahre ein winziger Tropfen auf den heissen Stein – erst Recht verglichen mit den Äonen
    * des derzeitigen Maya Zeitalters, was 5128 Jahre lang andauern soll,
    * unserem Wassermannzeitalter im Zusammenhang des 25000 Jahre Zyklus des platonischen Erdenjahrs, oder dem
    * 432000 Jahre andauernden derzeitigen Kali Yuga der indischen Weltalter, was insgesamt 4 Millionen und 320 tausend Jahre andauert!

    Alles, was Du tun musst, um das “Äon” bzw die Karte Die Gerechtigkeit für Dich vereinnahmen, ist ein Meditationstagebuch anzufangen in dem Du Deine Meditationszeiten und eventuelle Erkenntnisse danach aufschreibst.

    3.) Wenn immer Du diesem Plan hinterher hinkst, gebe nicht auf, denn Du kannst Deine verpasste Meditationszeit in der bald kommenden mittleren Stufe aufholen.
    Auf diese Art habe ich es geschafft sogar nach 20 Jahren wieder auf den Wagen aufzuspringen!
    Außerdem kannst Du das System auch benutzen, um alle Arten von unbeliebten Tätigkeiten langsam in Dein Leben zu implementieren.

    Um etwas zurückzugeben:
    Teile Deine Erfahrungen in den Kommentaren,
    damit Andere von Dir und Du von Anderen lernen kannst.

    Wenn Du so weit bist weiter zu gehen, kontaktiere mich hier,
    und ich werde die Schritte der Mittelstufe sofort hier veröffentlichen.

     
  • sitting bull 2:34 on 2019-02-21 Permalink | Reply
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    Thoughts on 3HO 

    How Sodarshan Chakra Kriya does stir up all the emotions

    A blue big aura is about Jupiter, which is one of the spiritual principles, which pervade all areas of life.

    Jupiter is related to:

    • the index finger,
    • the color blue,
    • the throat chakra,
    • spirituality,
    • and qualities like expansion of the body, career or aura.

    All in all it can be compared to the spiritual aspect of the wood element in traditional Chinese Medicine, which is called HUN.

    And the left nostril, which is covered in the exercise today relates to the moon side of the person – the emotional side.
    So connecting the index finger to the left nostril does bring spiritual awareness into your emotions. And that is how it does clean your emotional garbage.

    My conclusions on 3HO

    Yogi Bhajan certainly had Jupiter qualities, because at his peak he was big, very spiritual and also insatiable when building his Yogi-tea empire.
    I hope that you can see that in the following critical paragraphs my intention is neither to advertise my own spiritual direction as “the next bliss”, nor to degrade Yogi Bhajan, but to be as honest as possible about all the good and the bad, including my own weaknesses and issues.

    The reasons that he must have thought that his ends did justify the means is the reason why I am so frustrated with Yogi Bhajan and 3HO: He never payed any of the herbs we prepared for him, some teachers seem to have skipped taxes on their cash-income from lectures, and being an idealistic youngster, I was the ideal person to be exploited for free work (just it happens in cult-like organisations).

    Just as Jesus said: “you will know them by their fruits”, this also did spread to his followers: I told 3HO members that I wanted to move to the USA, and would do any job for them.
    One sucked $2000 out of me by selling me 3 times his newest version of the same Kabbalah course and making him do advanced web-design for less than the minimum wage whilst living in the most expensive area of Manhattan.
    And another one, whom I did help to build up his website (for free in the hope for him to arrange me a job in LA), deliberately kept me at arms length in Europe only to post in his blog that “people who did loose their center are bad for completion, but useful troubleshooters” (a synonym for ‘useful idiots’).

    If he was the all-intuitive Yogi whom 3HO makes him out to be, he surely should have sensed how fragile my young spiritual seed was and should have warned me.

    To understand my grudge-holding oversensitivity, (and to give you now the warning I never had), I have to explain to you the disastrous consequences his false premises of a “highest” Kriya which “cuts through all darkness”, “gives one a new start” and “the nine precious virtues and 18 occult powers” had on me.

    I was told by blog readers that there are two more Kriyas he promoted as the ultimate ones, such as Kirtan Kriya, which would “make you see the unseen”, and Sat Kriya which would be “the one Kriya he would teach if he only could teach one Kriya”.
    This did water down thise promise of SCK being “the highest Kriya”, just as you might find it disappointing when you are told to be someones “one love”,
    only to hear that this person also told it to two others.

    Yogi Bhajan intended and certainly did very well in selling eastern spirituality to scientific minded Westerners. The only problem is that by omitting that he sold his individual combination of yogic energetic work and his orthodox belief in god, he fooled people like Gurusant Singh into Yoga and me into Sikhism – something we both never were interested to adopt. I am certain he had good intentions, but therewith also did mislead: By dishing out black&white “facts” he made it seem as if he knew “the truth” – a clarity most spiritual seekers long for only to find themselves in an abysmal pit when things didn’t turn out the way they were hoped to be.

    The effect is like when a child finds out that Santa Claus never existed, or when a teenager’s dream of a super-hero-miracle, is shattered. This is especially bad when significant effort was put into that dream, as it leads to a literal dis-appointment – a step away from a hopeful appointment ones soul made.

    I fully admit me naively having been attracted to Y.B.’s teachings, because he had the same assertive “Gallbladder-energy” (as it is called in TCM) as my father had.
    One always attracts Gurus which reflect ones own personal inclings. Since “German discipline” was pushed onto me, his unyielding speeches were the language I was prepared to hear – not realising that a rigid discipline is not the path to open mindedness.
    {This btw is why I choose those Tarot cards drawn by Frieda Harris:
    She did have the exact same ambivalent relationship to her associate Alister Crowley, as I had to Y.B. – a mixture between fascination and awe and frustration.}

    For the next 2 decades I was sincerely dedicated to this Kriya trying and failing to do the 2.5 hours regularly over and over again for 1000-3000 of times (no exaggeration!), all in the hope that this would be the key to overcome all obstacles.

    My failures (together with not being able to follow the dietary and circadian Indian 3HO-lifestyle of “cultural imposition“) did lead to a tremendous amount of feelings of insignificance and guilt, and did bring out so much internal trouble in me that it did sabotage literally all worldly aspects of my life – from jobs to all my friend- & relationships and even my physical well being.
    All, because I always did consider my failings to have been a result of not having dedicated myself enough to the detachment from worldly desires such as pleasures or my ambitions (which I considered to be an ego-trip).

    The only aspect, which in the background sneaked up on me continuously, was me ageing and therewith the decline of my possibilities and joy in life.
    Realising the ever increasing loss of opportunities I did  spiral downward into an epic depression.

    This is what frustrates me so much about most successful organisations:
    They never ever will take blame for the huge collateral damages they caused by using tons of expandable foot-soldiers as step-stones on their way.
    Such longterm damages are too abstract to be traced back to them being the cause, because the effects are as delayed as the #meToo incubation time is.

    However, I am very aware that in the end all the troubles I did encounter were also a result of my own karmic misconceptions of reality, so I mainly write those negative experiences for your educational purposes (to counteract erroneous superstitions) and at the same time for myself to let my past go in order to make love for fresh compassion again.

    Whilst I initially did set up this blog to inspire other people to do more SCK, I now put up this slow course in order to protect any of you from trying to force your way onto spirituality, and then fail with nearly suicidal feelings – something I have seen a few times – even here on this blog.

    ~ ~ ~

    Now you may ask why I do even continue to do SCK?
    For the same reason couples stay together in times of disharmony,
    people keep working in a tough job,
    or 3HO holds on to an impeccable image of Yogi Bhajan:
    We all did invest too much in our hopes and it would be disastrous to throw it all away.
    It took me 2 decades building up this Kriya, and I want to do at least the legendary 1000 days of 1/10th of the day in order to able to say that I have given it the full chance.
    It is as much as an experiment for me as “the last straw” I am holding onto, because everything else did fail in life and I still am hoping for that point of spiritual breakthrough. Maybe this breakthrough will only come when hope in it wanes.

    But apart from my personal desperation, another reason why  I do continue and advertise for this meditation-yoga, is because I do  consider this Kriya to be one of the most effective Kriyas to clean Karma, so it is definitely is worth doing it (especially if you believe in reincarnation) and want to minimise your future suffering.
    I told you about the terrible problems I had, but I also have to point out that over the years SCK did mature me by the means of profound insights.

     
  • sitting bull 16:32 on 2019-02-10 Permalink | Reply
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    My week with Yogi Bhajan 

    Yogi Bhajan

    Coincidentally, just as I was at my peek of doing SCK for 2.5 hours daily, Yogi Bhajan (YB) came over to London and because someone stepped back from putting up some of his 3HO-organisation, I did fill that gap and let two members stay at my apartment.

    My young energy was still uncontrolled and very chaotic at the time, so (even with the help of two friends) I had to clean my place for the entire day nonstop  until very late at night and I was still very tired when I had to pick up their bodyguards from the airport the next morning.

    Because he had a VIP ticket to get through customs earlier, he came out of the gateways ahead of anyone else,  and was surrounded by a bunch of white dressed people in turbans. Since in my eyes all souls are of equal value, I was a bit puzzled that a spiritual leader would ensure and allow for having privileges which state that he was more worth than a common man.

    Being very tired, I drove back with three of his bodyguards into the center – like in trance, One 3HO member did tell me that life is a stage, so it would be about playing a role, so I took that advice and pretended to have relaxed control about everything, even though I hardly could focus on the traffic.
    About half an hour into the ride, one of them did point out to me that we were driving into the wrong direction – instead of back into London, we were already half way towards Brighton!

    The next morning, I made a huge German breakfast for my 2 guests (which, to their shock did include not only many kinds of cheese, but I purposely did include also a few kinds of sausages to make a point that not everyone who does yoga is a perfect vegetarian). Just as we were finished, the organisers called and told us that YB had cooked, so even though we just had eaten big-time, they wanted to rush out in order to experience his cooking. From then on I refrained from the “bed and breakfast” service.

    At this meal, coincidentally I sat next to YB and when I was about to rush away again to make place for one of their team he did call me back with paternal love, which to me was very flattering at the time. With hindsight I would say that the strong authority he did emanate was probably the secret to his charismatic success in building up a strong follower-ship. To him, coming from the Indian tradition of unconditional surrender to spiritual teachers, he of course took it for granted to receive the same kind of devotion he did give to his merciless teacher.

    He had a ring onto which a diamond was elevated by a metal spiral, and when I remarked that this was a great idea, he replied that he had ‘many great ideas’, which as a European seemed like bragging to me – yet to Americans such statements of self-confidence are probably seen as an effective self-promotion.

    The good thing is that in the consultation later he told me that at one point his teacher had him do SCK, so I knew that this Kriya is not invented by him and therefore, whenever I felt grumpy towards him, I could separate the teachings from the teacher himself by considering him to be a postman for valuable information. Remember this in case you ever disagree with teachers (or this blog as a matter): Don’t drop your practice or believe in the path only because the delivery-man was not to your liking.

    I will tell you now everything he told me, so that you also may benefit from his advice:

    Yogi Bhajan’s consultation

    When entering YB’s room for a consultation later, he (who was 8 years older than my parents) had such a non-penetrable aura that I did not dare to confront him on his guru-like status and ask him why he did allow (or even further) that his entire bunch did constantly worship him.

    Still being embarrassed about my driving disaster, I asked him what to do against the chaos in my life he recommended me to massage my ears under the shower.
    {Over the years I found out that, when washing my hands, also washing my ears with cold water is as calming and refreshing as doing it under the shower and it can be done multiple times throughout the day.}

    Someone made me tell him, that I currently do 2 1/2 hours of SCK at the time and in a reflex he instantly burst out something, which in my impression was that this was not targeted towards me personally, but to motivate anyone who does SCK:

    If you do SCK for 2,5 hours daily, there is nothing I [meaning any Guru] can teach you anymore.

    Probably because at the time I was studying Chinese Medicine, he also said: “He is a simple student and will become a great healer and a saint.”, which struck me as a a bit of a sales-pitch on his behalf to keep me going.  All I can say so far is that I did not become a great healer and am far away from being a saint, but after having read Yogananda’s autobiography of a yogi it dawned upon me that Indians have a very different understanding of saints than Westerners do – more as a person who manifests divine powers, rather  than Christians who associate a saint with someone who is ethically perfect and doing benevolent deeds.

    It seems to me that flowery exaggeration is a part of the cultural vocabulary of the Indian language, and me, coming from the plain German culture took quite a few things too literal, like when he said to someone else about me: ‘He is a sage. He was born wise!’, or when he described the superhuman powers of Sodarshan Chakra Kriya.
    However, such promises do have quite a longterm effect, because since 3 decades I am now hoping to get enlightened by the means of SCK.
    Slowly it dawns upon me that enlightenment probably doesn’t come with a big bang but gradually and less spectacular than I did anticipate – similar to the wisdom of old age, only much faster and without the need of physical sufferings.

    He must have noticed that I was not the type of getting up early, because without him asking, he also did recommend to me to meditate before sunrise something I at the time despised.
    However, I have to admit, that it’s ten-times easier to meditate in the mornings before the yang of the day rises, because this early are not many internal and external thoughts around, which could an empty mindedness.
    But since the morning is the worst time for busy workers to do it, I want to reassure you that this also works at any other time in the day, especially since there is “no time and space attached” to SCK.

    ~~~

    He also did say that I would need protection and did recommend Rahke Rakhanar.
    At the time and for decades later I did not want any protection, because it insinuates a discrimination against “lesser” or “evil” people, which is the opposite of what I would call unconditional love.

    The 3HO dress-code

    Y.B. did also recommend me to wear a turban, so I tried it for the week whilst he was there. When doing SCK without wearing a turban my energy did rise to my third eye point between my eyebrows, but when wearing one, it rose to the crown chakra on the top of my head.

    I know that YB (in one of the rare occasions when he was lenient and compromising) supposedly did allow for people to wear anything white on the head, but I would add – if you want the full benefits, go for a real tightly wrapped turban, and if this is too much for you just leave it.
    I did experiment a lot with wearing other white stuff but never felt anything from it – neither btw from wearing white clothes. Sikhs originally only are required to wear white underwear but not white everywhere, and all-white for me personally does not work and neither suit me. Some people thrive on the role of displaying Sikhism with a turban, but others nearly get beat up for it on the streets.
    My rule of thumb is: If you really are a sincere Sikh a turban will strengthen you, but if you can’t relate to religion, then better don’t play this role, because you will end up being attacked for being a hypocrite.

    The impressions 3HO left behind their environment.

    At times I felt really embarrassed when we (who all where white Westerners, dressed in white and were wearing white turbans) were ordered to go to a gurdwara (the Sikh-church), to take part in their worship – but only to the point in which YB did preach – and afterwards got up instantly in the middle of the ceremony to leave or eat in a special room only for VIP people whilst the crowd was eating in the hall downstairs.
    I then usually went to to eat with the community and did ask them about their perception of YB. They deemed him as just another pujari (priest) but not like something equivalent to an archbishop, which his visits with many religious leaders did insinuate.

    ~~~

    On a subtle level I did notice YB on one hand occasionally very subtly smiling about me,  when I did follow his recommendation to wear a turban or when I was funny, but interestingly he always instantly stopped to smile, whenever he realised that I did catch him being pleased. I think it was probably a good intention to nip any potentially arising egotism of mine in the bud.

    However, just before the end of his stay, because I hit my finger and could hardly wrap a turban, and also because I didn’t want to be someone who just puts on a show for him him, I stopped wearing a turban and all white clothes.
    I found it too tedious to wrap it all up only for the meditation session anyway, because I would not have worn it outside.

    The tipping point for my faith in 3HO

    When I am in admiration of a cause or person I do give everything I can, and so it was with YB and 3HO. I did everything for them, took out all the time for them, and also donated to YB for his consultation, despite the fact that I drove them around for a week and did put them up for free.

    Ironically it was actually YB himself, and his huge demands for the 3HO organisation, which made me loose my daily routine of doing 2.5 hours of SCK, because for the time of their stay I was constantly in demand of driving them around.

    At one point, in the middle of me still eating, he  demanded that we all get up right now and when I continued to enjoy my food he reprehended me by mocking my epicurean humming and told me of harshly, which then was a breaking point for me.
    As I did follow him just a few minutes later, he made sure that he had started the public lecture already before I drove down in the car had the chance to arrive.
    You may say that this was oversensitive of me, but looking in the look he gave me when I arrived in that hall I perceived it as one of those subtle power-games and him rubbing in the consequences of my non- compliance in order to drive through a point.

    Now I am going to tell you something few of you do consciously experience:

    The rare occasion to witness a spiritual war first hand

    After he was gone, I found out that part of the reason for him coming was that there was at that time a power-struggle between his top British disciple, who was the deputy head of our college, and the director, who was a Vietnamese Buddhist monk, who supposedly did embezzle some money to be sent to Vietnamese people in need.

    Unfortunately neither side was prepared to open-heartedly talk to each other:
    When questioning the monk, he only replied that it would be “his way not to talk about it”, and made certain that he was gone to a retreat when Yogi Bhajan came.
    But on the other hand I did not sense a compassionate approach on behalf of 3HO either.

    3HO surely was a total dedicated bunch who like a busy swarm of bees did shoot through the London Academy of Chinese Medicine, so the many students who did not primarily follow 3HO teachings (or did not even know about YB) felt overpowered by them claiming the place for themselves with their “Kundalini-stare” (as Gurusant Singh calls it). Someone described it like this:
    With their Kundalini-Yoga they build up a tremendous amount of will-power, 
    but then they don’t know what to do with it.
    And indeed, it seemed to be all about strengthening their own group just for the sake of it.

    Because both sides did like me, and at the time, I could literally feel being dragged into a spiritual war of both sides, like (the 3HO member and) deputy head of our college “scanning” me at one point for loyalty and then ordering me to clear out the Buddhist monk’s desk, so that the monk perceived it as if I took sides against him and said that I now would be with “the Kundalini-people”.
    Not wanting to take sides, this led to me literally “putting my head down” and stay below their spiritual level by going to the pub to drink with fellow students and co-workers, to “ground” me and keep in synch with the common people.

    This is something you on your spiritual path have to watch out for – sometimes it is not you having no spiritual discipline, but adverse circumstances may sabotage your internal evolution:
    In order to satisfy your karmic need for harmony you at times may sacrifice your evolution, because by preserving your dignity and keeping to walk upright, you might ending up becoming crucified as Jesus did when he did not hide his light under a bushel.

    It is very easy at those occasions to hide behind ignorance, because hardly anyone will see that you did.
    However – even though it will be initially gratifying to play it safe –
    you should not for long pretend to be dumber than you are, because in the long run your ‘playing it safe’ will weaken your character and turn you to a cowardly fence-sitter who will end up merely walking in other people’s footsteps.

    ~ ~ ~

    A month later YB came once more and waved me into his room where he was lying on his bed, because he still was very strong, yet did need to lie a lot in his bed often already.

    But I did not enter his room and didn’t even want to talk to him anymore, because the only way I would have opened my heart to him again would have been if we could have talked about my issues with him.
    Yet I knew that any criticism would have been dismissed harshly by him. Maybe that’s why he gave me the name “Amar“, because that means something like “free spirit” – probably with a connotation of “untameable”.

     

     
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